How many times have you been in love?
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ownedsubgal
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i have only been in love once, with my Master. ours is not a bdsm relationship however, it is a Father/daughter first, Master/slave second, union. He is the only man i have ever been in love with and who has been in love with me. there will never be another. as i have nothing to compare it to, i can't answer the other questions.
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Ummm...this year? Just once, but I just isn't meant to be.
niteshade
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I have only been in love once... I was in a lesbian relationship, not bdsm... (it was actually pretty damn vanillia considering that most people define lesbianism as off or kinky). We were together for a little over 2yrs, and now are great friends. The relationship does still tug at me everyonce in awhile, as I am now roommates w/ her, and sometimes I get mad at her for whining about being alone. She broke up with me, because in her expert opinion, I was not "really" gay... now I have to listen to her bitch because I have moved on, but she still hasnt had another relationship. It makes me mad because I loved her, and I would have stayed with her for the rest of my life... but she threw it away, and now even if she wanted it, (which she has mentioned a few times, when stupid drunk) I couldnt give it back. Lol... wow... that was slightly TMI, huh? Oh, well...
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Truly in love? Maybe two times before the present love that I enjoy with another. They don't begin to compare, however. Most of the previous were immature, needy types of love. I no longer view those relationships as being a valid representation of what I truly need.
Do I hold any old loves dear to my heart? Not today, they were only part of the human learning experience. I pine for none of my old flames. I have something so much better.
True love is hard to find, but if you do... it will change your life completely.
Do I hold any old loves dear to my heart? Not today, they were only part of the human learning experience. I pine for none of my old flames. I have something so much better.
True love is hard to find, but if you do... it will change your life completely.
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MissTaken said:
In love within a BDSM relationship...just once...but He broke my heart and hurt me just a few lonely months ago....
In a vanilla relationship...twice...once for almost 9 years with my girls' father and almost 2 years with my ex g/f.
All 3 of these important relationships opened me up in many different ways to force me into becoming who and what i am today. Each was a lesson learned and an experience worthy of remembrance. No matter the basis of any relationship, love is love and when the one you love is no longer a part of you, something cries out in negation.
So yes, these relationships still tug at me...some more than others (my children's father especially) but i have learned that past mistakes only become lessons if you do not repeat them.
For now, i am happily infatuated...if i had not had those 3 blessed people in my life...i would not be soo ready to see what awaits me when i finally have the honor to see HER.
PET
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I was in love twice in vanilla relationships- once with my ex-husband, who I met and married when still young. and though the love wore thing about halfway through the marriage, we lasted 18 years and through 6 kids. For a while after he left, I tried to stay friendly with him for the sake of the kids, but when he abandoned the kids as well many years ago, I stopped caring and communicating.
The other in a vanilla relationship that lasted almost three years until he died of cancer- a strong and wonderful man who was Dominant in personality though he'd never heard of the term and was physcially incapable of kinky sex or play. I miss him almost daily and have just recently been trying to force myself to hide my "reminders" (love notes, gifts) from him.
And, wonderfully and unbelievably, am now in an "in love" D/s relationship for almost a year, for which I am incredibly thankful. I can say it is the most powerful of the three... this relationships delves into corners of my being that the others did not... as there is so much more interest- no, insistence- on His part in knowing every physical and emotional part of me.
- justina
The other in a vanilla relationship that lasted almost three years until he died of cancer- a strong and wonderful man who was Dominant in personality though he'd never heard of the term and was physcially incapable of kinky sex or play. I miss him almost daily and have just recently been trying to force myself to hide my "reminders" (love notes, gifts) from him.
And, wonderfully and unbelievably, am now in an "in love" D/s relationship for almost a year, for which I am incredibly thankful. I can say it is the most powerful of the three... this relationships delves into corners of my being that the others did not... as there is so much more interest- no, insistence- on His part in knowing every physical and emotional part of me.
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In love within a BDSM relationship?
Once
In love outside a BDSM relationship?
Once in actuality, and once where I held myself back, cause it wouldnt be a two way love.
Did you find the emotional experiences similar, different, satisfying, not satisfying?
Different but the same.
Do these loves still pull at your heart strings and memories
Yes, most definately
Once
In love outside a BDSM relationship?
Once in actuality, and once where I held myself back, cause it wouldnt be a two way love.
Did you find the emotional experiences similar, different, satisfying, not satisfying?
Different but the same.
Do these loves still pull at your heart strings and memories
Yes, most definately
FungiUg
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Twice. Once to my ex-wife, and once with my lover. I did run into someone else with whom I could have grown to be "in love", but since she was married and lived in Texas (I was living in Sydney, Australia at the time) that wasn't a happening thing.
Both relationships have been non-D/s. My lover is interested in dominating, but it's not such a big thing for her as it is for me.
Somedays I still miss my ex-wife. I had to ask her to get out of my life completely (no contact) so I could get over her and move on. I'm glad we've gone our separate ways because we've both grown so much (she's gay, I'm into D/s, to point at a related area of growth.)
Right at the moment, I am down here in Wellington, missing my lover (my "snuggle slut".) So yeah, definately heart strings involved there.
Both relationships have been non-D/s. My lover is interested in dominating, but it's not such a big thing for her as it is for me.
Somedays I still miss my ex-wife. I had to ask her to get out of my life completely (no contact) so I could get over her and move on. I'm glad we've gone our separate ways because we've both grown so much (she's gay, I'm into D/s, to point at a related area of growth.)
Right at the moment, I am down here in Wellington, missing my lover (my "snuggle slut".) So yeah, definately heart strings involved there.
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I have loved two people in my lifetime - not many, but then I'm young. My girlfriend and I have been together more than five years and our relationship is not particularly BDSM. We're very comfortable together, perhaps with a slight bit of lesbian bed death, but still delighted every day by each other's company. My relationship with Daddy, on the other hand, is BDSM-based and is much more passionate even after three years.
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in love?
i think only once. to my current SO. smiling a bit as i write this. i can't put my finger exactly on when the "being in love" passed and became friendship... *shrug* but it happens. tho am also thinking it is a bit backasswards... *grin*
i have loved others, in close friendship...only a handful of times.
love, mixed with a healthy dose of lust, for my first girlfriend....
and the affection of a comfortable friendship currently with an online friend/lover....
only one BDSM related. but....
past and present, they all tug at my heartsrings, with memories both good and bad.
i think only once. to my current SO. smiling a bit as i write this. i can't put my finger exactly on when the "being in love" passed and became friendship... *shrug* but it happens. tho am also thinking it is a bit backasswards... *grin*
i have loved others, in close friendship...only a handful of times.
love, mixed with a healthy dose of lust, for my first girlfriend....
and the affection of a comfortable friendship currently with an online friend/lover....
only one BDSM related. but....
past and present, they all tug at my heartsrings, with memories both good and bad.
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I have been in love 3 times in vanilla relationships and once in a BDSM relationship (with my fiancee).
Love is love, regardless of kink and I see no difference due to BDSM.
My old loves do not pull at my heartstrings at all.
On a side note, this thread made me think of a verse of poetry I read a long time ago which I have never forgotten.
They say that time heals all wounds,
They say you can always forget,
But the smiles and the tears
across the years
They twist my heartstrings yet!
Love is love, regardless of kink and I see no difference due to BDSM.
My old loves do not pull at my heartstrings at all.
On a side note, this thread made me think of a verse of poetry I read a long time ago which I have never forgotten.
They say that time heals all wounds,
They say you can always forget,
But the smiles and the tears
across the years
They twist my heartstrings yet!
Twice, in a BDSM connection.. though both were/are over the internet.
Three times outside of BDSM context.
And they're different kinds of love. I love my SO with so much of me it hurts sometimes.. I look out for him, I treasure him, I respect him, all those things.
But I love my Sir differently.. though I treasure him, respect him, etc, it just feels different.. it's very intense, and the power disparity makes it a love I can't explain... I love him as an equal human being, but as His submissive.. I don't even have the words...
Three times outside of BDSM context.
And they're different kinds of love. I love my SO with so much of me it hurts sometimes.. I look out for him, I treasure him, I respect him, all those things.
But I love my Sir differently.. though I treasure him, respect him, etc, it just feels different.. it's very intense, and the power disparity makes it a love I can't explain... I love him as an equal human being, but as His submissive.. I don't even have the words...
Goddess Helena
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In love within a BDSM relationship?
Once. So far.
In love outside a BDSM relationship?
Once.
Did you find the emotional experiences similar, different, satisfying, not satisfying?
Different yet similar.
Do these loves still pull at your heart strings and memories?
Of course.
Helena
Once. So far.
In love outside a BDSM relationship?
Once.
Did you find the emotional experiences similar, different, satisfying, not satisfying?
Different yet similar.
Do these loves still pull at your heart strings and memories?
Of course.
Helena
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Re: Re: How many times have you been in love?
Glad to see you back Helena.
I missed you.
Goddess Helena said:In love within a BDSM relationship?
Once. So far.
In love outside a BDSM relationship?
Once.
Did you find the emotional experiences similar, different, satisfying, not satisfying?
Different yet similar.
Do these loves still pull at your heart strings and memories?
Of course.
Helena
Glad to see you back Helena.
I missed you.
Goddess Helena
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Thank you, Ebony.
Helena
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In love within a BDSM relationship?
Once....with my present Sir
In love outside a BDSM relationship?
Twice... once with a man, once with a woman
Did you find the emotional experiences similar, different, satisfying, not satisfying?
They were totally different kinds of relationships... all three of them.. not because 1 is BDSM, or because of the gender.. it was because of my frame of mind at the time. My present relationship with Sir, i would have to say is the most satisfying, because we learned about each other way before meeting, so it wasn't based on anything sexual or physical.
Do these loves still pull at your heart strings and memories?
No... i've been over them for a long time.. it's a place i don't ever want to go back to... i've learned so much about myself since then!!
Once....with my present Sir
In love outside a BDSM relationship?
Twice... once with a man, once with a woman
Did you find the emotional experiences similar, different, satisfying, not satisfying?
They were totally different kinds of relationships... all three of them.. not because 1 is BDSM, or because of the gender.. it was because of my frame of mind at the time. My present relationship with Sir, i would have to say is the most satisfying, because we learned about each other way before meeting, so it wasn't based on anything sexual or physical.
Do these loves still pull at your heart strings and memories?
No... i've been over them for a long time.. it's a place i don't ever want to go back to... i've learned so much about myself since then!!
