How Lindsay Got Her Groove Back.

[Guest]

Hello all. It is I, the moody one. lol Obviously a great deal of you know about my life currently. First of all, let me say thank you to those who have expressed concern lately. Ya'll are much appreciated.

I am wondering if anyone here would be interested in crafting a story *about* me. It would be a work of fiction with little limitations for the author. I grant permission to use my real name. (Lindsay, for those of you who don't know it yet.)

If there are any details about my personality or life you'd want to know for the story, feel free to ask here or PM me. I'm really curious to see if anyone would like this "challenge". Theme and content are completely up to you!

 

[Guest]

No author is interested?

 

[MissTaken]

I am no author, but do think there could be a story here somewhere.

Perhaps you could tell us a bit about how you got to where you are?

I would particularly interested in knowing how the doors to your sexuality were opened.

When and where did you meet your fiance?

Also, please give my your definition of a zoophile. I do believe that how you feel about his could be enlightening.

When did you lose your virginity? your bi virginity?

I am sure a lot of answers are here on the boards, somewhere, but it would be easier if you gave us a brief overview

 

[Guest]

Perhaps you could tell us a bit about how you got to where you are?

I would particularly interested in knowing how the doors to your sexuality were opened.

My beginnings are a violation of Lit.

"Clean" version:

I knew early on that I was "different", though I didn't know terminology of my interests or other people like myself. (Keep in mind, I grew up in the 80s with high school in the early 90s.) I was attracted to animals, sexually, long before any human and then adult women before adult men or boys/girls my own age. I learned fast to not open up to my parents about my life and my feelings. And, yes, my discoveries of myself encluded bisexuality, submission, and zoophilia.

When and where did you meet your fiance?

In early Sept. of 2000 Michael and I met in a "pervert's" chat room on AOL. By Jan. of the next year we met in person.

Also, please give my your definition of a zoophile. I do believe that how you feel about his could be enlightening.

A zoophile is a person who loves animals. No more, no less. Though, I personally do engage in bestiality. I know some see sex with animals as "cruel" (and I won't get into a long debate over it) but when you're on all fours and the dog is taking what he wants... I can honestly say that I do love all animals. Every pet I've ever had, every pet family and friends have had, I've showered with attention and spoil. Even animals in pet stores I give attention when I'm there. I have never caused harm to an animal and I hate people who do. When I watch Animal Precinct on Animal Planet I cry almost every time.

When did you lose your virginity? your bi virginity?

Since you're the Mod to this board, and I'm not going to go into detail, I hope this is okay... I lost my virginity at 13 when I was raped. I didn't "count" that. Next time I had sex with a male I was 17. My first time with a female was at 9. Next time was at 19, but I craved the touch of another female during that 10 year gap.



*And, to those who may be interested in writing a story "for" me, I don't want my man included in the story. You can write yourself in as if we were to meet in real life, or you can create any characters you want. Gender, legal age, race/background not important. Ask some questions here or PM me if more info is needed.

 

[MissTaken]

Thanks.

I meant to tell you you could pm me with anything that you weren't comfortable posting.

Thanks for clarifying re: the boyfriend not being part of the story.

 

[Guest]

No prob. Figured it would be okay since I didn't go into detail when I answered the "first time" questions. After all, on the Gen board some of us are capable of holding mature Q&As about first times.

Besides, answering on the board can help anyone who *may* be interested in this story.


<Crossing fingers that someone is interested in this story.>

 

[Guest]

Pushin' this back up in hopes that some author would choose to write it.

By the way, this thread title does not have to be the story title!

 

[sirhugs]

Pushin' this back up in hopes that some author would choose to write it.

By the way, this thread title does not have to be the story title!

but I love the title almost as much as your AV!

Not that I'm bold enough to try to do justice to you.

 

[Chicklet]

Not that I'm bold enough to try to do justice to you.

and here is your problem, tiggs. most people on this board, like myself and sirhugs, are thinking that nothing we would write could be good enough.

do you want a less than super talented author to try?

Chicklet

 

[Guest]

Now why would either of you think that you are "less than super"? I've read some great things from people who post in this board.

 

[sirhugs]

well, my rl self-esteem is low- the whole retroactive virgin thing, plus troubles at work. And I've only done 11 stories, with mixed vote scores- everything from mid 3 to 4.58. A large part of my job is technical writing, so I guess I just lack creativity, or something.

Chickie on the other hand, is a superb writer. I am so jealous.

 

[Chicklet]

Theme and content are completely up to you!

okay, while it would seem to be easy enough to find a setting and topic to star you in, I would rather hear what *you* are secretly hoping someone would like to do with your character.

What kind of story are you looking for, tiggsy?

Chicklet

 

[Guest]

well, my rl self-esteem is low-

Boy do I know that.


<Hugs>

 

[Guest]

I would rather hear what *you* are secretly hoping someone would like to do with your character.

What kind of story are you looking for, tiggsy?

Anything with a sexual theme with ME as a "character" and without my man in it is what I am looking for. I would like to steer away from incest and if the author wants their story "known" then Extreme isn't a good category for them either. I think, with this thread and what I've shared since March of 2000, people at Lit should *know* me, or have an understanding at least. There's a lot I'm into and very little I'm not.

 

[Chicklet]

.

 

[Chicklet]

how much of you do you want in there?

 

[Guest]

I guess it doesn't matter. An author can write about what they think they know is me.

 

[sirhugs]

I guess it doesn't matter. An author can write about what they think they know is me.

scary
very scary

 

[flawed_ethics]

He he. I suppose I could retool one of my perpetual work-in-progress stories to reflect you. Just change the character's name and change another character around (main character's fiancee - can't have that). Otherwise it's got interracial rape, bondage, beastiality, lesbianism, and good old hetero sex thrown in for good measure.

Of course, it's a perpetual WIP because it suffers from lost momentum and obviously isn't good enough to carry itself to the finish on it's own merits. It's long for my standards (which aren't much / 10,000+ words), and I'd say it's at the halfway mark.

I've mused breaking it up and seeing if reader feedback would help generate interest in character/plot development - but retooling it for you wouldn't allow for that.

Besides, all I know about you is that you moderate the Lit personal boards (last Lit persona I tried to keep up with was Never from last year - it was a bit much).

If you have interest I could send you the (very) rough draft of it so far. Quite understandable that you wouldn't though. Regardless - good luck in finding a writer!

 

[Guest]

It sounds like you have the makings for a masterpiece. I'd love to read it if you wanted to send!

 

[BlackSnake]

Oops, I think I hear an opportunity to make an ass of myself, so here goes.

A story about you and I. With all your badness, you haven't seen nothing yet. I think I can waste some of the readers time with a bunch of crap about me stretching your asshole with my snake...expanding your throat with it's thickness...Sharing you with my make believe dog, Rilo...trading time in your cunt for a shine on my ride. Sure, if you throwing your hands up...why shouldn't someone take advantage, and try to exploit those things you hold true. Brutely raping you at 18 instead of the younger age, treating you like shit for amusement. Fucking up your pretty face, just to reflect what you see instead of what is truely there. Why not be hard and hateful when you are asking for it.


Sweetheart, withdraw your request.

 

[Chicklet]

Oops, I think I hear an opportunity to make an ass of myself, so here goes.

mission accomplished.

why should she withdraw her request?

 

[BlackSnake]

mission accomplished.

why should she withdraw her request?

I don't think that any story written about her would be a publishable keep sake. If some one is down, why would you want to toss dirt on them. An erotic story here would be just that. With all the very good writers here, none have shown a story with heart and feeling. It's a bad idea.

As far as making an ass of myself, I can live with it.

Some times you have say something....like the fucking idoit who got dicked on the software I just spent the better part of the day debugging and corrected. Few things bug me; sorry programmers and situations that promote mockery.

 

[Tatewaki]

With all the very good writers here, none have shown a story with heart and feeling.

That sounds like you've read every single story here and have found them all lacking, BlackSnake. I personally thought my Ember and Ashe storyline had 'Heart and Feeling.' It distresses me to find out that it doesn't.

How is wanting to be the star in her own set of stories an invitation to abuse? Sure, someone could be a prick and do as you've outlined, but being a A1 Classified fuckwad takes a lot of time and work. Most people just aren't up to it. For the few who are we have Moderators to keep them in line.

Besides, when have assholes needed permission to sling mud at someone they disliked or wanted to upset? I had Yayati under the guise of Freed Black Man rape me in prison. I certainly didn't ask for that post, or many of his subsequent Tatewaki-bashing, imflammatory posts. All Tiggs did was to ask for a story written that featured about her. Having a tale customized to your specifications is pretty heady stuff. I have filled many such story requests for people, including the 'Synder and Ashe' storyline, 'Silken Manacles,' 'Stranger on the Shore' and 'In the Garden of Eve.' Without exception, the people I've showcased in them have loved them.

There is absolutely nothing in Tiggs' request that needs retracting.

Write your rape piece if it makes you feel better about yourself. If I remember correctly, Tiggs has gone through serious trauma in real life. I very much doubt your stint into make believe sexual assault would emotionally scar her. Cruel words certainly can hurt people but I'm sure she's read it all before.

Probably right here on Lit, too.

-T

 

[BlackSnake]

Tate

Writing fiction were the lines of truth are so burred from the truth wouldn't cause any harm, and could be very entertaining.

I'm against this because real, not fictional truma has occurred, and maybe continuing. I've seen women who have been treated badly for so long that they begin to believe that they deserve to be treated that way. Battered wives, etc. If you hear a woman say, "treat me badly, I love it" do you think that's a good thing?

Well, we are just talking about a story, fiction, right? It's just words. Bitch, Slut, Whore, Dumb ass, etc... I don't think that's good when its real.

If the story was based on fiction, say someone wants a story written about them fucking their mother, which they would never do, then I have no problem with it, because it's fiction.

How can it be that writing a story about a woman being rape be entertaining, when the rape actually happened?

I just don't see anything entertaining in Blessedbe's truma.

What I meant by heartfelt is that the stories here are fictional, taken by the readers that way, and/or based on the content. How can you, I'm sure that you are a very good writer, convey the feelings of a rape victim?

My words are much weaker than my conviction, however I employ you and all to drop this one. It's not entertaining when the story is real. How can anyone take pleasure in someone elses pain.