Yay!!! I think...
Found one limit today...finally. After weeks of trying. I was almost convinced I didn't have one.
It was an afternoon like any other when He busted out the paddle. Typical varnished wood, Catholic schoolish type paddle. Let me see it in broad daylight, too. A little apprehensive, but I usually am when we try a new toy or activity...that's part of it. I love that part of it.
He warmed me up (pun intended) with his soft leather belt. That, I can take. That, I like. Stingy, but good. Then He picked up the paddle and ran it over my skin so I would know it was there. The first stroke was fine...about at the upper limit of what I still consider good, erotic pain. The second was, well...interesting.
He didn't hit me that hard. 1/2 strength maybe. But it HURT. There were good sensations in there but there was a pain I wanted to push out, too. Not all bad, but not all good either. Whatever it was literally knocked the breath out of me and put a knot in the pit of my stomach. Yeah, it hurt...but I can't put my finger on what it was about that sensation that made me use the yellow word.
I didn't safeword...to me, personally, the safeword is only to be used when I feel overwhelmed...for when I feel claustrophobic, unsafe, emotionally overwrought, or have some sort of physical problem. I won't use my safeword to announce a limit...I'll use it when I need it. He wouldn't be disappointed if I did safeword...but I want to see how much I can take for ME (topping from the bottom?)
So...that was my day. Thoughts? Similar experiences? Have you ever passed a limit like this and how did you do it?
Found one limit today...finally. After weeks of trying. I was almost convinced I didn't have one.
It was an afternoon like any other when He busted out the paddle. Typical varnished wood, Catholic schoolish type paddle. Let me see it in broad daylight, too. A little apprehensive, but I usually am when we try a new toy or activity...that's part of it. I love that part of it.
He warmed me up (pun intended) with his soft leather belt. That, I can take. That, I like. Stingy, but good. Then He picked up the paddle and ran it over my skin so I would know it was there. The first stroke was fine...about at the upper limit of what I still consider good, erotic pain. The second was, well...interesting.
He didn't hit me that hard. 1/2 strength maybe. But it HURT. There were good sensations in there but there was a pain I wanted to push out, too. Not all bad, but not all good either. Whatever it was literally knocked the breath out of me and put a knot in the pit of my stomach. Yeah, it hurt...but I can't put my finger on what it was about that sensation that made me use the yellow word.
I didn't safeword...to me, personally, the safeword is only to be used when I feel overwhelmed...for when I feel claustrophobic, unsafe, emotionally overwrought, or have some sort of physical problem. I won't use my safeword to announce a limit...I'll use it when I need it. He wouldn't be disappointed if I did safeword...but I want to see how much I can take for ME (topping from the bottom?)
So...that was my day. Thoughts? Similar experiences? Have you ever passed a limit like this and how did you do it?