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The Dude Abides
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Been thinking of this, after my convos with Chloe Tzang and others.
One of my sisters likes to say that I don't really have any moral or ethical foundations for my beliefs. While she hesitates to use the term "psychopath" or even "anti-social" (her words: "I'm a psychiatrist, but I'm not your psychiatrist"), she does say that there's very little willful conviction that goes into my ideology. I'm a Marx-Leninist just because it's what I was exposed to, and what was most socially acceptable for my background and social surroundings. If I had grown up in the Deep South or in Ukraine, or if I had read Francis Parker Yockey in my formative years instead of Huey P. Newton, I could have just as easily become a fascist. Or at least that's what she thinks.
I have to admit, there's probably a kernel of truth to that. Though, oddly, I can see myself as a fascist far more easily than I can see myself as a Republican, or even as a Democrat. Perhaps non-standard political ideologies really are a product of one's mental programming and not the other way around? I don't just "fit" into the bourgeois mold that we're all expected to be hammered into. There are elements all across the supposed political grid that I like. I like guns, I like abortion, I like free healthcare and worker-based economies, I like... uh... um, I honestly can't think of anything on the auth-right that I like.
She recently admitted to me that she doesn't believe in free will anymore. Seems to be causing a fair bit of turmoil for her, almost like someone who lost her religious faith. I never had either one, so I never lost sleep thinking about what I am or why. For me, it's just a matter of idle curiosity. Some people say that they "struggle" with their demons. I get along splendidly with mine.
One of my sisters likes to say that I don't really have any moral or ethical foundations for my beliefs. While she hesitates to use the term "psychopath" or even "anti-social" (her words: "I'm a psychiatrist, but I'm not your psychiatrist"), she does say that there's very little willful conviction that goes into my ideology. I'm a Marx-Leninist just because it's what I was exposed to, and what was most socially acceptable for my background and social surroundings. If I had grown up in the Deep South or in Ukraine, or if I had read Francis Parker Yockey in my formative years instead of Huey P. Newton, I could have just as easily become a fascist. Or at least that's what she thinks.
I have to admit, there's probably a kernel of truth to that. Though, oddly, I can see myself as a fascist far more easily than I can see myself as a Republican, or even as a Democrat. Perhaps non-standard political ideologies really are a product of one's mental programming and not the other way around? I don't just "fit" into the bourgeois mold that we're all expected to be hammered into. There are elements all across the supposed political grid that I like. I like guns, I like abortion, I like free healthcare and worker-based economies, I like... uh... um, I honestly can't think of anything on the auth-right that I like.
She recently admitted to me that she doesn't believe in free will anymore. Seems to be causing a fair bit of turmoil for her, almost like someone who lost her religious faith. I never had either one, so I never lost sleep thinking about what I am or why. For me, it's just a matter of idle curiosity. Some people say that they "struggle" with their demons. I get along splendidly with mine.
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