MastersDelight
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So we were talking post session like usual (it's how I like to come down, cuddles and talks) and he told me he had a fantasy that had been clawing at him lately. He said he wants me to top. Specifically he mentioned face sitting while he was tied, but expanded that I could do as I like. I have no idea what to do 
. The most control I've ever taken is in our lighter sessions when he pulls me on top to ride him, and occasionally I'll tease him but it's not for long, he always takes back control. We talked about it again this morning, I asked if it was a role play or just a switch, he said he would think about it but that he would probably just want a switch, and that he DOESN'T want to top from the bottom. The only hard limit he's given me is no butt stuff, which I wasn't intending to explore anyway. I know his pain tolerance isn't very high, so any impact play would be low and I have very little experience actually delivering the blows, I'm usually on the receiving end. So I guess I'll get to my main issue...
I get embarrassed and flustered easily. When we play he likes to make me have to beg for things, say his name and I have a very hard time doing this, which is half the fun for him. I don't think I can do what he wants if he's watching me, at least not well and I very much want to sate him. It's also very rare that I have free range to his body as I'm usually tied or held down, I feel like of I don't have a clear plan I'll end up like a kid in a candy store and not really achieve anything in the end.
Some advice would be very helpful, ideas, I just want to do a good job, he always works so hard for me, I want to return the favor. Sorry, I don't feel like this has been very clear.... It's just hard to put to words I guess...
. The most control I've ever taken is in our lighter sessions when he pulls me on top to ride him, and occasionally I'll tease him but it's not for long, he always takes back control. We talked about it again this morning, I asked if it was a role play or just a switch, he said he would think about it but that he would probably just want a switch, and that he DOESN'T want to top from the bottom. The only hard limit he's given me is no butt stuff, which I wasn't intending to explore anyway. I know his pain tolerance isn't very high, so any impact play would be low and I have very little experience actually delivering the blows, I'm usually on the receiving end. So I guess I'll get to my main issue...I get embarrassed and flustered easily. When we play he likes to make me have to beg for things, say his name and I have a very hard time doing this, which is half the fun for him. I don't think I can do what he wants if he's watching me, at least not well and I very much want to sate him. It's also very rare that I have free range to his body as I'm usually tied or held down, I feel like of I don't have a clear plan I'll end up like a kid in a candy store and not really achieve anything in the end.
Some advice would be very helpful, ideas, I just want to do a good job, he always works so hard for me, I want to return the favor. Sorry, I don't feel like this has been very clear.... It's just hard to put to words I guess...
