He finally did it...

[the captians wench]

Jounar finally found something that embarrased me.

Now i blush easily, but it really takes a lot to embarrass me. I've been stripped naked and made to stand in the hall of my apt building and was not embarrassed a bit. I've posted all kinds of pics and vids. I walk around town in a collar. Been beaten in public. Been drug by my hair half way across a mall. Wore panties with a lace cut out target on the ass around a vanilla world and was displayed because of it. Been called names, forced to go with out a bra in public, and even worn my benwas to the store.

I can do all that with out batting an eye, but aparently having things swing from my nipples makes me feel rediculous.

Since my promotion is pretty much finalized, Jounar has decided to up my training for my trip to visit him. He loves nipple torture, and so that's a big part of what he will be focasing on, and why I was told to buy the weighted clamps. Well the actual weight of the clamps isn't enough to make me whince anymore (that was too quick I admit), so he's getting creative. Part of this creativity comes from me making a comment they hurt more when they move. So he had me make them swing.

As I'm watching these things move from side to side, and some times in a circle, I kept getting this image of old stripper costumes with tassels on the tits and the chicks making the tassels dance. And I felt like a complete idiot. I couldn't hardly look up. All I could do is laugh, and I even felt myself trying to hide a few times.

Now I've done lots of things on cam for him. I've given myself beatings by my own hand and his command that would rival anything some one else has given me. I spank myself to tears with out a bit of shame. But swinging weights from my nipples makes me want to crawl under a rock and hide away.

It just seems funny to me that this is what I find embarrassing and even humiliating to a point. It took a lot more to continue with this act than any thing else I've done. I'm not sure if I loved it or hated it....but I know he's excited to finally find something that embarrasses me.

 

[fieryjen]

I couldn't help giggling just now as you described what those weights made you think of. I haven't yet gotten to the stage where I can take weights on my nipples easily, and I've certainly never had to swing them around, so I can't relate completely, but I do agree that it's sometimes just the stupidly silly things that are most embarrassing, for no real good reason. I've been surprised by how much I blushed about some of the simpler things S made me do.

Overall - interesting thing to have found out, isn't it?

 

[Netzach]

There IS something super duper annoying about things hanging from your tits.

One of my scene mentors is a wonderful gay leatherman. I mean kinsey 6 gay. But kinsey scale notwithstanding, he has a really evil appreciation for cruel games and funny stuff. I was one of about 4 or 5 people who got caught up bottoming in "the bell game" which involved little bells on your tits and finally jumping to get them to fly off as the climactic finish.

I'd been playing along like a sport till that point, to which I cracked everyone up with a heartfelt "fuck THIS!!!"

 

[Kailey_86]

I've been surprised by how much I blushed about some of the simpler things S made me do.

Same here. For some reason i get REALLY embarassed when J wants me to put the ben wah balls or a butt plug in me. It is so easy and simple but i hate doing it myself. i feel so stupid standing there and sorta squating with my legs apart and my hands fumbling around down there. i guess it makes sense that he would enjoy that though, hehe.

 

[the captians wench]

Same here. For some reason i get REALLY embarassed when J wants me to put the ben wah balls or a butt plug in me. It is so easy and simple but i hate doing it myself. i feel so stupid standing there and sorta squating with my legs apart and my hands fumbling around down there. i guess it makes sense that he would enjoy that though, hehe.

See that's another thing I find funny. I have walked around my apt to fetch things with clothes pegs on my pussy lips and didn't feel silly at all. Tho I thought I would. Even done it with the clamps, and again not the slightest embarassed doing a little squat walk flinching about ever 3rd step. But swing thing from my nipples and I could die of embarassment.

 

[the captians wench]

There IS something super duper annoying about things hanging from your tits.

One of my scene mentors is a wonderful gay leatherman. I mean kinsey 6 gay. But kinsey scale notwithstanding, he has a really evil appreciation for cruel games and funny stuff. I was one of about 4 or 5 people who got caught up bottoming in "the bell game" which involved little bells on your tits and finally jumping to get them to fly off as the climactic finish.

I'd been playing along like a sport till that point, to which I cracked everyone up with a heartfelt "fuck THIS!!!"

*giggles* I'm not sure I could deal with the bells period. I've seen some of those clips with bells on them and thought they looked totally rediculous.

The comment I made when I realized how foolish I felt in that moment was "I'm not sure which this hurts more, my nipples or my pride" To which he died laughing, and I'm sure took note on how to further humiliate me.

 

[the captians wench]

reminising

 

[marieR19]

never saw this thread first time 'round.... Very interesting. And yeah it does sound embarrassing.


Heather

 

[the captians wench]

reminising

again

 

[notalwaysweak]

Oh, I'm glad you did reminisce! I liked this anecdote, and Netzach's about the bells.

 

[HarlotMinx]

Actually I can completely relate, there is just about nothing I wont do in public including full nudity wearing rope harness under my clothes but visible... and god I love my benwa balls but for some reason I can't stand polka dots and hate with a passion having to wear them. Just makes me feel silly.

 

[fieryjen]

This thread still makes me grin.

Lots.

 

[the captians wench]

hehehe

I'm still finding it's the silly little things that embarass me rather than the things one might think would be embarassing. Pok-a-dots could be added to my list as well. *giggles*

 

[BiaTcHiNFiRe]

This thread makes me smile. Love to read about Wenchie's journey with Jounar.



As for myself, its not that hard to embarrase me. Not at all, lol. Every little thing embarrases me. A. knows that and loves it me thinks. The cheeky Daddy! http://i324.photobucket.com/albums/k353/hispeanut/acute.gif

Touch me in a sexual way and I blush. Tell me I am noisy like a train when I cum and I am so embarrased I would cry. Tell me to dance for you and I bow head in shame and really just cry cuz I am so shy I cannot take that. I would do it at the end, but I would as well cry a lot first. LOL

Yup I am a bit shy me thinks. http://i324.photobucket.com/albums/k353/hispeanut/blush.gif

 

[ecstaticsub]

I embarrass easily out in public but when it is just Daddy and I then I feel I can do anything and everything without any embarrassment...though as PYLs seem to be able to do so well he has found something that will be extremely difficult for me to do.

I am a flirt and a tease when out and about with strangers. I have brought it to almost an art form for my amusement (though I know when to stop). Daddy is amused also by my actions, as long as I follow basic rules. However, other than the ...shall I call it the initial seduction...I don't really flirt or tease him. At least not in the same way.

For our next meeting he has ordered me to practice and prepare a lap dance for him. The prospect of doing this horrifies me. If I had to do it for some stranger I would be fine, I can easily put on a show for someone I care nothing about. But for him...for some reason I am so scared of looking silly instead of seductive. It is not even that I am afraid of how I would look...he has seen me covered with cum, pee, hair all matted and a total mess...

It is probably because I am not the best dancer or most graceful person in the world and I want to be perfect for him and I know I won't be what I think he deserves. Though I also know that really whatever I do even if he laughs he will enjoy it.

So I just have to suck up tha courage and do it

 

[eastern sun]

I used to get into the challenge of trying to be sexy (i.e. "putting on a show") while I was doing something I thought was really ridiculous.

In the beginning, even crawling naked made me cringe. Sometimes I'd get around that feeling by pretending I was a cat and kind of theatricalizing the crawl. Sometimes I'd sexualize the embarrassment, and be clumsy and awkward, but "get the job" done. It took me along time to realize all I really needed to do was just crawl without adding anything to it.

Lately, however, I've been writing songs. And somehow, the act of playing and singing them for him (before I'm sure they're ready) is nearly unbearable. My voice quivers and shakes, my fingers hit the wrong notes, I feel totally judgmental and apologetic.

(Garage Band saved my ass.)

 

[the captians wench]

So he got me again....the same way.

Swinging my tits with clothes pegs was bad enough. But as I'm trying not to look at my cam, nor the laptop moniter (avoiding watching myself or "catching his eyes") I couldn't help but think how much better they swung with the weighted clamps.

As I'm pondering this he says "I wonder if it would be more silly with proper clamps....hmmmm...."

With out even thinking I blurted out "YES!"

"That's just asking for me to clamp you"

Then I open my big mouth again (I'm starting to see why he thinks I like to talk myself into trouble" and say "Well I was just thinking about how much better they swing with the clamps on. Which is why they make me feel so silly."

"You're right." That was his responce and I soon found myself once again with 3oz of weight hanging from my nipples and swinging in circles like those old stripper costumes.

 

[bambikiller]

Show us a video

 

[the captians wench]

 

[HarlotMinx]

You know, I found something that embarrasses me to hell. I was whispering some rather dirty thoughts I had on my mind while at the grocery store checkout when Moon looks over and asks me to repeat myself louder so she can hear me properly.... then told me I was mumbling and to speak even louder. You know, nothing puts a blush in my cheek like having the cashier just stare at you in amusement.