Have you ever felt

[Misery]

Have you ever felt like curling up and crying, but you had no tears to cry?

 

[Starfish]

Yes, but the tears part isn't usually a problem.

Sorry that you are feeling miserable. I know that feeling too well and it sucks.

 

[kitsuke]

*big hugs* for you Misery.... I do hope you feel better soon.


----> it happens eventually, just hang in there

 

[Elizabeth]

(((misery))) Hope everything will be ok.

 

[Cheyenne]

Only if I've already cried so much that there are no tears left.

 

[Xander]

Yeah I have......

 

[chanaud]

aaaaawww Misery, I feel for you.

Whenever I feel miserable, I drive to BlockBusters and check out the sappiest movies I can find.

Hope your day gets better.

 

[Guest]

Have you ever felt like curling up and crying, but you had no tears to cry?

Yes. Hope you feel better soon. I know it's not fun.

 

[Dragonette]

Yes, now I do! Here's a misery for you!

SORRY, I just needed to ramble! <shakes head>

Well Christmas is almost here again, the season to be joyous, happy and thankful for what we have. So, with tears streaming down my face, my stomach hurting from just throwing up, my throat sore from coughing and my head pounding from all the previous, I am battling to find something to be happy about, all I can managed is a sarcastic laugh, the big joke is my life!

I even tried to submit this story and I get: Not ever approved.
Which says it all at this moment!
Here is part of it!

About a month ago I met a man who seemed nice, we met a few times, got along well. It was never going to be anything permanent as he is newly separated and has two young boys living him, the oldest being eleven. Not something I want to become involved in again, but that suited me, the occasional get together, a friend, and good company.

Well he rang me on Thursday and said the boys were going to his mothers for the night as she was taking them Christmas shopping the next day, he said he would really like to see me again, so how about we watch a video or something and have a quiet evening together. It sounded nice, so I said yes, why not.

He arrived about nine thirty we had a few glasses of wine and put on a video. A couple of kisses cuddles and quiet talking as we watched the movie. It was pleasant even though there were some things that I found a bit strange, nothing big, but…

So drinking and cuddling led to a bit more, a few more drinks, and by the second half of the movie we are both naked and not watching it any more. Again a few things that were slightly odd, but I just thought it was most probably me, I know what I like and as this was the first time, well, we had to get to know each other and maybe I was just being a bit critical and expecting things.

It was a very hot day and night, the air conditioner was on so the house was pleasantly cool. I have just had a birthday, which depressed me a bit as I turned forty nine and for the last three years I have had the fun of ‘hot flushes’ which, lucky me, I have had exceptionally badly, and I had a few ‘hot flushes’ that evening. So we went and had a shower (my third for the day) then moved to the bedroom.

I surprised myself as I had hurt my back again that day and it was really sore, but I managed many positions and we ‘played’ for quite a few hours. He fell asleep at four am and I went and had another shower and tidied up. (I have insomnia, so I was tired but not sleepy.) I crawled into bed at five thirty and managed to snooze a bit. He woke up at six thirty and went for a shower, then hopped back into bed. We played some more, and then finished our play in the shower, or maybe I should say he finished in the shower. (I was starting to feel a bit water logged by this time, I don’t ever remember ever having so many showers in one day!)

He dried himself then went to get dressed, after I dried I went into the bedroom to put some clothes on, he grabbed his socks and shoes and went to the kitchen to put them on. This must have been around nine, I had asked him if we wanted coffee or anything but he said he had to get to work. He had told me, that as he is basically his own boss, he could get to work when he gets there, but now suddenly he seemed in a big rush to get to work. When I combed my hair and went to the kitchen, he’s asking which door to leave by, so I showed him out through the garage, standing in the driveway he says “Goodbye” jumps in his car and drives off.

I stood there in a bit of a bemused daze thinking, “What happened?”

There were no words of ‘Thanks’, ‘It was nice’, ‘I’ll call you later’, not even a quick kiss goodbye.

I went back inside shaking my head, suddenly feeling that I had just had a “Wham, bam, thank you mam!”

He had known I just had a birthday, he hadn’t brought any flowers, not even a bottle of wine, didn’t even wish me a Happy Birthday. Other little things, we had a cask of wine and had taken it into the lounge room with us, but when he refilled his own glass, mine standing next to it empty, he never filled it. It was obvious he thought he was a terrific lover, but I never achieved an orgasm, even his kisses seemed to stop half way. I can’t even say he left me feeling frustrated, it had just been ‘nice.’

I have not received a phone call, not even a text message on my mobile. Later when I went online, no email and nothing in ICQ, he is always on ICQ Friday night.

So now I am here, writing this, it’s not that I am hurt in the sense that I cared about him, I was only just getting to know him, but the whole scenario, it was like a bad comedy movie.

Now, two days later, I get 2 ICQ messages, then later an SMS

ICQ first one = I enjoyed friday morning, I hope you did. Have to stop sleeping with yr dog. I think I got fleas!!! Lol

This is now Monday morning! So I am not impressed and my dog does not have fleas!

ICQ second one = Hi <my name>, are u there? = It's at 10.29 pm


11.45pm I get an SMS message = <My name> are you awake

Needless to say, I have not answered ‘Mister Sensitive and Caring!!’

The rest of this may get posted in my stories when Lit allows it!



Oh well, hopefully things will improve, can't get that much worse surely!

Merry Christmas to all!

 

[cymbidia]

Yes.
I've felt such misery.
I'm currently in the middle of such a time of misery and joylessness.

Sometimes it's best to submerge yourself into it, bathe in it, wallow and loll in it. Cry until you do not have any more tears, until you're bored with the misery - and then step out your door and look around a bit.

When the misery catches you again, allow it to tug and pull you. Go with it.

Later, reemerge into the light of day or the peace of the night.

Go with the misery again, when it comes to you.

And out again.

The process of healing from something bad that's happened to you is just that - a process. One must feel all the pain and learn the lessons coming along with them before one can move on.

I am sorry for your pain.
But it's necessary, too.

If we never felt pain, we wouldn't really recognize the glory of happiness when it came along as it always does, eventually.

Life likes balance.



"The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain."

 

[Wiggles]

Misery I have felt that way too before. Do you want to talk about it? You can pm me if you want.
Anyway, hope you feel better soon.

And Dragonette, that sucks. This man is obviously not worth your time.

<Raising my glass of Choc. milk> Here's to finding a real man!

Good luck.

 

[Dragonette]

Thank you and Merry Christmas

Hope we all have a better year next year!

Thanks Wiggles, I will send him a polite email, later, saying
"Thanks, but no thanks"

But later, when I feel more polite, he can wait!
And yes, he is not worth my time!
His loss. LOL

Merry Christmas to all, may wishes come true and next year we the start of better things.

 

[Debbie]

I have felt a misery when I have sobbed and cried with no tears. So upset that there has been no tears. Screaming into a pillow but no sound comes out?
It is miserable but things can turn around so quickly in life.

I hope things get better.

 

[Mr. Bootie]

Misery don't we all at one time or another

I myself can not cry. Not that it I may not want to, I just don't. It can be bad at times because the physical release of crying may be just what you need. It is also an emotional release. You may want to go down and wallow in it for awhile just as cym has said, but just try not to stay there for too long. Talk to people. Get whatever is bothering you out. You may find that there are people on this board that are more than willing to talk with you. I've met several great people who can probably chat with you. Myself included. This board is a nice place with very nice people in it. The support is unparalled. I'm sorry you are not feeling well. We fall down Yes, but we get back up again. When you get up, you are stronger than you were before the fall. So be encouraged. Sorrow lasts but for a little while, Joy does come in the morning. Be of good cheer, Let the Spirit of Christmas catch you and find the real meaning of it. Family, friends and one Special litte baby boy. I truly hope you Have a Very Merry Christmas.

" Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, Start all over again."


kgboot

 

[Black_Bird]

Re: Thank you and Merry Christmas

Hope we all have a better year next year!

Thanks Wiggles, I will send him a polite email, later, saying
"Thanks, but no thanks"

But later, when I feel more polite, he can wait!
And yes, he is not worth my time!
His loss. LOL

Merry Christmas to all, may wishes come true and next year we the start of better things.

Sorry to hear about your latest love interest, hon...

Also - about the story! The same thing happened to me, D. They are just very busy with all the Christmas stories. They are only human, you know? Send Laurel a little note so she'll remember to check out your story, and be patient.

 

[Black_Bird]

Have you ever felt like curling up and crying, but you had no tears to cry?

Misery, hon. We've all been there. Hold in there. "The only way out is through."

 

[MissTaken]

Ahhh yes, Misery.

I am sorry to hear you are in such pain.

I, too, have found where "rock bottom " is and couldn't find the tears to cry. Embrace pain as it is a reminder that we are still living and feeling human beings. Without pain and suffering, how would we know the glory of happiness and joy?

Do for yourself what you need to do.

Healing takes time. Find comfort where you can and be patient with yourself.

It will come and you will smile again.

*hugs to you*

 

[Dragonette]

Thanks BB

It's posted now.

Merry Christmas

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