Have you ever been scared to write a story?

[rikaaim]

I know this may seem silly, but I have this story that I feel I need to write, but I'm scared. I'm scared because it'll bring out everything that I have to face and realize, and I'm not sure if I'm ready. It's one of those things I have to do to kinda grow up and move on, but it's still so damn hard. I don't even know if it's something I could post here on Lit or not. So, you ever have one of those stories?

 

[Colleen Thomas]

A Sperate Peace. It was something I had to say, but the political nature of the background was so controversial I was afraid of the reaction. I also had the qualms about Last fuck goodbye, since it is my only piece without a happy ending.

As you push your own borders as a writer you will occasionally find yourself on the ragged edge of what you think you can do or want to. the decision is personal, but I had great encouragement on mine from Laure, Lucky, mats, Min, Oggs, Lou. In each case where I have gone forward I think I have grown as a writer. I encourage you to do the same, we only grow when we leave the comfort zones we have established and wander uncharted territoriy.

-Colly

 

[rikaaim]

As you push your own borders as a writer you will occasionally find yourself on the ragged edge of what you think you can do or want to. the decision is personal, but I had great encouragement on mine from Laure, Lucky, mats, Min, Oggs, Lou. In each case where I have gone forward I think I have grown as a writer. I encourage you to do the same, we only grow when we leave the comfort zones we have established and wander uncharted territoriy.

-Colly

That makes sense, but what I feel I need to write is very personal and very troubling. I call it a need, because that's what it is. No one knows what I went through and I want to tell that story. Maybe by sharing my pain and hurt and hope I can somehow help someone who might feel the same thing now. It's tough though.

 

[Colleen Thomas]

That makes sense, but what I feel I need to write is very personal and very troubling. I call it a need, because that's what it is. No one knows what I went through and I want to tell that story. Maybe by sharing my pain and hurt and hope I can somehow help someone who might feel the same thing now. It's tough though.

the stories that are closest to home are always the most difficult to write. I would say write it. Decide wheter or not to post it afterwards.

 

[Belegon]

"Last Fuck Goodbye" is a wonderful piece of writing but, as Colly warned, is not a happy ending...

rikaaim, it sounds to me more like you are afraid of what wanting to write this story says about you then you being afraid to write a story of any kind. If that is the case, only you can choose when and where to face such things....I think we all have those moments when we may not want to admit something about ourself...
not said to downplay the apparent turmoil for you, but to let you know that you are not alone.

 

[rikaaim]

not said to downplay the apparent turmoil for you, but to let you know that you are not alone.

That's why I think I have to write this. I know I'm not alone, and that people with the same issues that I had are not alone. What I went through was really scarry and hard to deal with. Almost impossible. The problem about putting it all into a story is that it spans several years in time. This isn't something that took place in a week. I have to construct a concise and constructive timeframe for which to highlight and pinpoint the most compelling pieces of the story, my life.

 

[carsonshepherd]

A lot of people use writing to deal with things that have happened to them in their lives. I have realized I cannot write a completely true account of certain things in my past - I can only write about them if I make them fiction. But other people can be honest about themselves and their past without any filters.

If you are brave enough to do this, it's going to be a painful thing. It will bring up emotions and thoughts you'd rather put behind you. If you're sure you're ready to deal with that side of yourself, then you should absolutely write it to the best of your ability. It's cheaper than therapy!

If you decide to write this story, I hope you have the support of your wife, because you will need it during that time.

 

[rgraham666]

The next one in my writing queue is going to be hard for me to write.

I'm going to have to access a part of my personality that I would rather stays caged.

 

[amicus]

Catharsis...

Many great writers have written of personal tragedy with that in mind.

Aside from the emotional difficulties you may face, as others have pointed out, being intellectually honest with your deepest core is essential if the writing project is to have value to you.

It may not be important to post or publish, but to get the thoughts into words and down on paper, is the essential quest.

On a personal note, a divorce and ensuing abuse, neglect and trauma concerning my beloved children formed the basis for an entirely new direction in my writing.

Perhaps you can find the same.

Good luck and may the New Year bring a New YOU!


Amicus Veritas

 

[cookiejar]

"Survival of the Fittest" was my battle with depression and being bi-polar. I felt better after I wrote it though, it felt good to put my feelings down.

 

[oggbashan]

Yes.

One I have never posted and never will. It let me express emotions that I didn't want to face. Whether it helped? Not sure.

The others? Some of them you could guess from their content. 'Donna' was one I had to write. If I were to start that one again I'd produce a different story but the emotion that produced it was anger. I am still angry that some women are degraded and exploited by worthless men (and vice versa occurs).

Og

 

[sweetnpetite]

Yep.

Usually results in some of the best. (or chickening out)