JinXed said:Shh lil' secret, I inflate them daily to keep the hype going about my breastages.
Killswitch said:
MissTaken said:And if you want to get hurt..................
JinXed said:
killallhippies said:
crysede said:You, on the other hand, are a force of pure evil and must be cast from this board in disgrace.
Or tied to my bed posts in disgrace.
Your call
It's_Me_Dammit said:And you people talk about me??
This is intrigued. It's interesting to me that no matter how many times I tried to submit this under my name, it wouldn't let me. I had to create a new ID to post at all.
Heavy, you mentioned a page or two back that when you continue to push someone over and over that they will eventually push back. You couldn't have summed up any better what happened to me before my burial and that was all offensive to you, yet you seem to understand this concept perfectly when it benefits you. No, I'm not suprised by this, almost this entire board reeks of the same smell coming off you.
What does suprise me about you is how quickly you turned on me, and did it on the board versus privately, when you promised me you would never do that to me. That stung, but ya know what really stings? The notion that something that happens at a lit function is somehow "sacred" and should never be spoken of. Too sorry, but it happened to *me* in a public place, that immediately removes any rights to privacy. That gives me the right to talk about it. Initially, I chose to not do so, I wanted it to go away and I wanted to move on as if nothing ever happened. But what you said about being pushed and pushed is very true and it was the final straw. I was already stressed enough because of my health, guileful managed to hit on the ONE thing that occupied my mind 100%---the biopsies I just had done. I was further stressed by all the other health issues and probably shouldn't even have been here, but I just needed a little break so I came here. What happened that day took the whole damn lid off things that normally I keep a strangle hold on, and I did go over the top.
My initial replies to guileful were all in fun, as I knew without doubt there was no way guileful could possibly know anything about the questions I asked because only a lover could possibly know those things. As I know my sexual history by heart, I knew not a soul here could answer any of those questions. But what'dyaknow, guileful managed to hit straight on something that I wasn't even thinking about when I asked the questions, because I was asking about markings on my privates that no one other than a lover could possibly know about, since the point of guilefuls thread to me was that he/she has fucked me. guileful got everything wrong EXCEPT for the fact that I have a mole on the back of my leg. I wasn't even thinking about that, I was thinking about the strawberry birthmarks on my breast, so when guileful mentioned my legs, I was stunned. This told me guileful had met me in person, and the only people that have met me in person that ALSO saw my bare legs were those at the St. Louis meet. Being as guileful had just told perks in another thread that he/she had met her and that is why they were dissing her appearance, it all led me to lobito as they did meet at the St. Louis meet as well.
I'm sorry I completely fell for the bait, but you have to admit, isn't it understandable why I did? There is so much more that led me to my reaction, but it's been rehashed enough now.
Though I know there is no point in telling Design what I think about what she did to me that led me to turn on lobito, I will say that what makes her act even more despicable is that she and I have never said a word to eachother prior to this. But thankfully, atleast now I know that guileful is Design; I can stop turturing myself over who would want to hurt me that badly. Design means nada to me, but damn, what a vicious person she is.
I do sincerely hope lo is OK.
Since my life turned on a dime within days of my Lit Burial, I can't be here even if I wanted to. I come here sometimes to see if lo ever came back, to see how long it would take for my burial to actually be completed, and sometimes, just to sit and read meaningless words to give my mind a break. I found this thread by searching my name. Since I'm here, I may as well say all the things that the revelations in this thread brought out in me, and a few other things I've been feeling that I need to dump somewhere.
First, Jinxed, I'm sorry T never responded to you in my lobito thread, he had just had enough. He was pissed and he was tired, and knew there was no point in arguing with idiots over something real that he experienced in his life offline. He thinks of you fondly, as do I. And damn do I miss you and emi! If you snoop enough, you can find an email addy for me, feel free to use it.
lavendar, I love your idea of how to fix all this. But you know the reality is that things will never change here. You have to strap your armor on to be here, plain and simple. This is the biggest reason I chose to go on and jump in my grave---there is no point being here if you don't talk to others and get to know/enjoy them. Debbie loves to speak of what a close community this is and I'm glad she has that experience, but even she admits that things revealed here have shocked her. Debbie, for many of us, this is how it's been for a long time. But bless you for always being the positive cheerleader.
Nora, you're a tough one to understand. You've always been good as gold to me and I've always enjoyed your humor and personality, yet, you've not spoken a word to me since the day the big drama unfolded, even though I stood up for you against trolls, was as kind as I could be to you in person, and have left you the ability to contact me, but you won't speak a word to me. Oh well, even though our experiences were real and ended with us meeting in person, I guess you didn't really care for me afterall.
And Eumie, what's the deal? You never spoke to me on the board, you always contacted me by PM, as though you were ashamed to be seen speaking to me. Then one night you all but beg me to come to Yahoo because you needed to talk to me. I made a huge sacrifice and caused my body a great deal of pain because I told you ahead of time that I don't do IM's because it's very painful for me to sit that long, but I did it for you because you seemed to need it. And so I sat and sat and sat and listened to your story of you and Bob and MWG, when it was all info I didn't need to know, but you were intent on telling me, and then questioning me about my knowlwdge/experiences with Bob. I did that for you because I cared for you, understood what it's like to need someone to talk to, and because you seemed so upset. Then later we talk by phone, and you begin to tell me lots of personal info about others, all which inflamed me and somewhat changed my opinion of these people, and then, we meet at the Litogether and you have virtually nothing at all to do with me. After telling me how excited you were to meet Trail and I, you spent all your time with you know who. You were sweet when we did bump into eachother, you even told me you loved me, but if that's true, why haven't I heard a word from you since the night we said goodbye in St. Louis?
Agent 99, thanks so much for lowering yourself to the correct position on the pedestal of life. I needed the reminder that people on the net are seldom as great as we think they are, and don't deserve the kindness and admiration we often extend them. Your not being able to rise above and not take that pot shot at me in Jinxed's thread about who plays what role on Lit was surely an eye popper for me. Thanks!
Hey Rex? Appreciate that nod you gave me when you called me a troll. Man, two years of friendship down the drain in the blink of an eye. Kudos!
SimplySouthern, you can go straight to hell for all I care. Your never ending babbling about me was some of the most laughable stuff I've ever read. You act as though you have both the ability and the credentials to psychoanalyze me when you know nothing about me and it is too mind boggling for words. People like you and islandman and Morgie that just pop in out of the blue and make these little summations of me and my character when you've never even held a conversation with me don't matter a lick to me. But I do give you points for eye popping posts. More kudos all around!
And now for you, MWG. I hope every single drop of pain you're causing your family and so many others comes back to you a thousand times over. You are a cunt of the highest order, and man is karma gonna slap you all over the place.
Ofcourse, that won't mean anything to anyone that doesn't know what I think of the word cunt. *sighs*
Freya, underneath your tough girl exterior lies a heart of gold. You really are a fair minded person and you have a pretty tender heart. Sorry, I call it like I see it. I'm glad I've taken the time to read you as much as I have.
estevie, I sure wish you would have given me the chance to clarify myself to you because I never meant things even remotely in the manner in which you took them. But since you chose your reaction, I decided to respect that and leave you alone. Didn't change my feelings for you one bit, though.
Lastly, I believe moderators are (or *someone*) able to do more than we realize or that they will admit to. I've been a non poster for about a month now, and even though I've changed my password repeatedly, when I log in, my options in my control panel are always different than how I've always set them. Further, I get logged out about every five minutes, so yeah---in this place anything is possible, as always.
And Lance, damn, I hope you're doing OK without me.
Well, for anyone that ever did care for me, you can do me a favor and be damn grateful for your real life blessings and focus more on them and less on Literotica. Leaving here was the best thing that could've happened, and now it's neccessity. I have a very ill child, and thats where my life is taking place right now. Thankfully, T and I have weathered our storms and are now finally beginning to reap the rewards of all the effort, and with his love and the grace of God, we're all going to be just fine now.
Take care everyone. Please know, it does give me a little smile to realize you guys probably won't ever stop talking about me. I kind of like what I've grown accustomed to calling myself lately. "Litlegend" has a nice little ring to it, lol.
Oh, Bent? You're far smarter than I ever gave you credit for. My apologies for being lost inside a lot of other stuff and not paying attention.
Really, you should ALL aspire to be more like Lasher. Except Cherry. I admire her just as she is.
Oh, one more thing. Jane, I honestly never meant you any harm. I was just tired of all the post that said I was lying. The more I read it, the more I felt the need to prove that I wasn't lying. Now, I realize that what people think about me doesn't matter anymore because as sincerely as I cared for many of you, you never cared for me. I've lost nothing but a lot of pain and insults; the truth is known to me, lobito, T and God. That's enough for me.
I'll take the very little good stuff I gained here with me, and leave this despiciable, vicious stuff to those of you that love to revel in it. Rip your hearts out.
Me
Bob_Bytchin said:
It's_Me_Dammit said:
I said that first. Nice to know you're thinking like me for a change.SleepingWarrior said:
It's_Me_Dammit said:
Hmmmmmmm. I haven't seen this swimmer caught in the whirlpool before...MorgaineLaFay said:
