Going for it, finally.

[DeLaFaye]

Do you remember your first dirty writing? Did you start out gently, slowly? Or was it balls to the wall kinky? Do you remember finally letting your kink flag fly and writing the stuff that really does it for you and just hoping against hope that your dad never finds out? (There is absolutely no reason why he ever would, but it's still a thought going through my head. )

 

[onehitwanda]

Do you remember your first dirty writing? Did you start out gently, slowly? Or was it balls to the wall kinky? Do you remember finally letting your kink flag fly and writing the stuff that really does it for you and just hoping against hope that your dad never finds out? (There is absolutely no reason why he ever would, but it's still a thought going through my head. )

Get in front of it!
"Hi dad! No, everything's great, I just wanted to tell you that I'm writing smut for fun now! 'kay, love you, bye!"

Demolitions 101 aka how to engender awkward silences at family get togethers.

 

[DeLaFaye]

Get in front of it!
"Hi dad! No, everything's great, I just wanted to tell you that I'm writing smut for fun now! 'kay, love you, bye!"

Demolitions 101 aka how to engender awkward silences at family get togethers.

Oh, no no. He would not care. His response would be, 'Alright, let me know when there's audio.' He hates to sit and read. But thank you, that's so sweet of you.

Anyway, no, I mean like I'm blushing as I'm writing. That's...different for me. (The new antidepressants must be kicking in, finally. )

 

[SeraphNocturne]

It’s been a long time, so no, I don’t remember when exactly I started writing erotica. I do remember some of the premises and where though, literary role play on a forum hosting site called Avidgamers. It no longer exists.

To the day I still get the full on giggling, ridiculously embarrassed response writing erotica and sometimes I’ve gotta take a break with those steamy scenes. I’ve written everything under the sun but I still can’t kick the “oooh this is naaaughty!” mental response that comes with penning erotica.

 

[DeLaFaye]

To the day I still get the full on giggling, ridiculously embarrassed response writing erotica and sometimes I’ve gotta take a break with those steamy scenes. I’ve written everything under the sun but I still can’t kick the “oooh this is naaaughty!” mental response that comes with penning erotica.

I love that! That makes me so happy to hear! It is just fun on a bun and I'd hate to get jaded to that.

 

[onehitwanda]

sometimes I’ve gotta take a break with those steamy scenes.

There's one particular scene in "Death and the Maiden".

Yeah. I had to take some time out during that one

 

[MetaBob]

Do you remember your first dirty writing? Did you start out gently, slowly? Or was it balls to the wall kinky? Do you remember finally letting your kink flag fly and writing the stuff that really does it for you and just hoping against hope that your dad never finds out? (There is absolutely no reason why he ever would, but it's still a thought going through my head. )

I had no idea, I just started writing. Well, OK, I had some idea, since a lot of what I'd been reading before was here and at another site with similar leanings. But when I started writing again, I just wrote. When the characters found their voices, they started telling me what their story should be, and it just so happened that some of them liked sex, even kinky sex. So I went with it. Now I have three published novels plus three more (almost four) posted here.

The beginning of the first of those books (the prologue to Were-Tigress) is hardly erotic at all. Well, it might be if you're into foreshadowing and circumlocution. It's also almost all true: imagine being given the keys to the home of a man of culture, an enthusiast for great music and literature, and being told to take anything you want. Happened to me. Then I built a story around it, which turned to another and another, and ... look where we are today.

 

[alohadave]

just hoping against hope that your dad never finds out?

My dad would probably appreciate it, but I don't think I could ever tell him, that would be really weird.

 

[DeLaFaye]

My first dirty writing was in AOL chatrooms, yahoo board for fanfics and I online game rooms.


My dad doesn't read, so I'm not too worried about him coming across anything. Cousins, an uncle, siblings, and friends, however....

Most of what I've put up so far I wouldn't care about. As I'm debating posting some kinkier stuff, family like that is in the back, way, way back, of my mind. But none of them are big readers. I'm the nerdy black sheep of the family they're all okay forgetting about, until they need something of course. There's no good reason it should be a thought in my mind. And yet... Conditioning is super hard to break free from. It's the only thing I can think of to make sense of it.

 

[_krista_]

Dad or family never knew
The story was relatively benign in setup, and ramped from there....its not even completed

 

[DeLaFaye]

My dad would probably appreciate it, but I don't think I could ever tell him, that would be really weird.

Samesies. My family is a bit odd. High libidos being genetic and all. For example, I'm very well aware, having been told the story multiple times, that I was conceived in an apple tree. I even know which one. So that's fun.

 

[SeraphNocturne]

There's one particular scene in "Death and the Maiden".

Yeah. I had to take some time out during that one

Too hot to compute, right? I’m gonna have to have a read. The flood of naughty embarrassment isn’t usually so bad from a reader angle.

As a writer though… yeah… I still have to stop and take a break… because my face/panties/everything is on fire.

My Mama is no longer here to judge, not that she ever would. I’m sure my interests stemmed from her light erotica romance novels on the base level. My Dad probably wouldn’t be too pressed about it either, namely because we didn’t form a relationship until I was an adult. My siblings are all artsy farts as well so they’d probably be exceptionally supportive but… idk, I’m really not trying to let them read the smutty nonsense I write. Maybe my non-erotic work?

 

[onehitwanda]

because my face/panties/everything is on fire.

there's a cream for that, hon.

I'm sorry. I'll show myself out

 

[onehitwanda]

For example, I'm very well aware, having been told the story multiple times, that I was conceived in an apple tree. I even know which one. So that's fun.

The physics of this worries me.

 

[DeLaFaye]

The physics of this worries me.

Well, teen pregnancy. The likes of which don't exist in the world of Lit. Young people can do stupid things in trees. Plus, have you ever climbed an apple tree? Some are quite stable, have good sturdy limbs. I'd like to stop thinking about this now, please.

 

[onehitwanda]

I'd like to stop thinking about this now, please.

too late, I'm well into the free-body diagram and harmonic analysis.

 

[SimonDoom]

I do, well. I didn't write a lick of erotica until after the age of 50. By that time I'd been reading erotica, here and on other sites, since around the turn of the millennium. Female exhibitionism was a particularly erotic topic for me, so I started with that. I decided to write a story about a woman who went running (something I liked to do) and took off all her clothes on the run. Unfortunately, I completely lost that story in a hard drive crash, and I stopped writing erotica for a while. Years later, long after I started writing here, I took up that story again, and it became Nude Day Running Adventure.

The first story I actually wrote and finished, once I resumed writing in 2016, was In The Hallway, a light BDSM-power exchange mind game story that took place in an office building, a setting very familiar to me.

I didn't tell my dad.

 

[SeraphNocturne]

Well, teen pregnancy. The likes of which don't exist in the world of Lit. Young people can do stupid things in trees. Plus, have you ever climbed an apple tree? Some are quite stable, have good sturdy limbs. I'd like to stop thinking about this now, please.

It seems so uncomfortable, though… but I suppose that might depend on the position? Definitely not a missionary location.

 

[DeLaFaye]

too late, I'm well into the free-body diagram and harmonic analysis.

Next time I'm out that way I'll take a picture for you. Of the tree! Just the fucking tree...

 

[DeLaFaye]

It seems so uncomfortable, though… but I suppose that might depend on the position? Definitely not a missionary location.

They were horny teenagers. For a plethora of reasons they weren't about to be doing it at home. Idk. Again, I'd like to stop thinking about this now, please.

 

[DeLaFaye]

I took up that story again, and it became Nude Day Running Adventure.

I'm so glad you took up that story again! It kills me when people lose stuff like that.

And yeah, I have no plans to tell my dad. But hey, you never know.

 

[SeraphNocturne]

They were horny teenagers. For a plethora of reasons they weren't about to be doing it at home. Idk. Again, I'd like to stop thinking about this now, please.

I rest my case.

I’m not particularly fond of pondering my own conception either, to be honest… the fact that my Mama kept trying until she got a boy is a bit depressing . If my older sister had been male I wouldn’t be here, and likewise for my baby sis.

 

[DeLaFaye]

I rest my case.

I’m not particularly fond of pondering my own conception either, to be honest… the fact that my Mama kept trying until she got a boy is a bit depressing . If my older sister had been male I wouldn’t be here, and likewise for my baby sis.

I know so many people that have done that. Or at least intended to and stopped after 3 or 4. It's bananas to me. What on earth does it really matter?! Humans...flippin' weirdos. I'm sorry you have that story and that you don't really have any way to discuss it with her. It's not something that can always help, but it simply not being available hurts all the more.

 

[alohadave]

It seems so uncomfortable, though… but I suppose that might depend on the position? Definitely not a missionary location.

Probably not any worse than in the back of a car.

 

[DeLaFaye]

Well, hello fellow nerdy black sheep conditioned to be self-censoring around family, lol.

It's fun, isn't it? If you change the definition of the word fun. Where do you feel that anxiety? For me it's the back of the neck. Great way to justify massages, professional and otherwise.