God damn it to hell.

[SeaCat]

I got a phone call from a co-worker today.

I think I mentioned before about a young lady. She is 24 years old and dealing with Abdominal Cancer. She had a Colostomy and scarring like you never saw. Her prognosis was better than good. She was discharged from the hospital ysterday afternoon. She hugged me as she was wheeled out.

I have worked with this young woman for almost a year. I have dealt with hr husband leaving her and her family pulling away. I have helped her fight her disease. I have held her in my arms and cleaned her ass after she took a shit. I pushed her to walk and move when she didn't want to. I hugged her and wiped away her tears when she got her colostomy.

She was discharged yesterday afternoon. Last night she was struck by a drunk driver. She was killed instantly.

The man that hit her? A multiple count drunk dirver. He had no liscence and yet he was still driving.

As muc as I don't let myself get close to my patients this one did. Now I'm hurting.

Cat

 

[rgraham666]

Crap!

*HUGS* Cat.

 

[jomar]

Ahh, jeez. So, so sorry. Much support to you, and her family.

 

[Selena_Kitt]

I'm so sorry

 

[feeeriek]

 

[FatDino]

Impaired driving is just unforgivable.

A to her. RIP.

And you, drunk driver. You BURN IN HELL...someday.

 

[The_Fool]

There is no such thing as fair. There is no love in the world that we don't add. You've done good things with this young lady. Don't even begin to think that you haven't or that it isn't worth something. We know nothing of our future, so must live in the present. You did a great deal to make her present a better place. I grieve with you Cat.

 

[jeninflorida]

I got a phone call from a co-worker today.

I think I mentioned before about a young lady. She is 24 years old and dealing with Abdominal Cancer. She had a Colostomy and scarring like you never saw. Her prognosis was better than good. She was discharged from the hospital ysterday afternoon. She hugged me as she was wheeled out.

I have worked with this young woman for almost a year. I have dealt with hr husband leaving her and her family pulling away. I have helped her fight her disease. I have held her in my arms and cleaned her ass after she took a shit. I pushed her to walk and move when she didn't want to. I hugged her and wiped away her tears when she got her colostomy.

She was discharged yesterday afternoon. Last night she was struck by a drunk driver. She was killed instantly.

The man that hit her? A multiple count drunk dirver. He had no liscence and yet he was still driving.

As muc as I don't let myself get close to my patients this one did. Now I'm hurting.

Cat

Sorry to hear that, that just sucks!

 

[glynndah]

for you and for her loved ones.

 

[Guest]

Oh, Cat. I'm so sorry.

 

[cantdog]

Love is still good, even where there isn't justice.

 

[SCcreampieLvr]

omg

you know, that story just made my heart fall to the bottom of my chest. Im sorryto hear it and it makes me feel so very sad.

We all want to believe that that things will "work out in the end". But the cruel fact is they often do not and indeed work out for the unforeen worst.

This week has proven that in spades.

But... Every kindness makes more of a difference than those who give it can understand. Love to you and thank you for making a difference.

 

[SeaCat]

Thanks all. I will be going to her Wake when it is held.

It wouldn't be so bad if her life hadn't been so shitty.

Like I said she was all of 24 years old. When she had been diagnosed her husband and family pulled away from her. Her Cancer was such that she needed to have a section of her lower Intestine remoed and she had to have a Colostomy. She lost her Ovaries and her ability t become pregnant and have children and yet she was willing to keep fighting. She was doing well until she had an infection, which was what brought her in this time.

Now this.

No I did not love her although I did respect her. I considered her a friend, a valued friend. She often called my wife on her cell phone. They talked a lot.

I would truly love to get my hands not only on the drunk who took her life but on her family. What would ensue would not be nice, it would not be pretty and it wouldn't bring her back but it would allow me to know they had paid.

Cat

 

[Sherry Hawk]

I'm so sorry, Cat.

 

[wishfulthinking]

That hurts.

 

[cantdog]

Wishful! You're back!

 

[TE999]

Damnation!

My condolences to that poor woman's family.

You did your best, cat. Fate took it out of your hands, buddy.

 

[starrkers]

Oh, that's just awful.
At least she had one good thing in her recent past, Cat - you.
I'll help hold down the driver for you.

 

[Liar]

Damn.

 

[SeaCat]

Oh, that's just awful.
At least she had one good thing in her recent past, Cat - you.
I'll help hold down the driver for you.

Am I a good thing Starrkers?

Am I truly?

I push people to give their best. I push people to think and to question. I push people to fight.

I pushed her to fight, I pushed her to continue living.

She had given up, she could have gone through much less suffering. She could have passed on without the pain and suffering she had gone through. She listened to me. I had pushed her because of her age. I made her fight damn it. I wouldn't let her give up.

Okay damn it I did feel for her. I allowed her inside. I allowed myself to feel. I couldn't help myself. She was too damned oun to have to go through this.

Yes I held her when she lost her insides and was told she could no longer have children. Yes I was there when her husband left her and her family faded away. I wiped the tars away from her face and pushed her. Yes I did hold hr in y arms as I washed her after she shit herself and pissed herself. Yes I id carry her when she couldn't walk any further. Yes I did allow her to strike out at me when she was upset, I ignored what she called me. I kept after her and made her angry. I directed her anger against her disease.

I tunrned her damn it. She was healing, she was doing well. She was going to get better. She had maybe another six months before her Colostomy was reversed.

She was released and killed by a damn drunk driver.

Okay I admit that in my own way I loved her. I loved her becaue of her strength. I loved her because she didn't give up. I loved her god damn it because she refused to think she was flawed.

I have a CD of pictures of her, a CD she and her parents made for me. These are pictures of her before and after her being diagnosed. These are picturs taken of her before during and after her surgeries. The most important one of these is a picture taken of her as she was being discharged. It is a picture of her standing nude with her Colostomy and scars clearly visible. She is smiling at the camera.

I shall forever cherish this disk. Just as I shall forever mourn her death. Yes, I have to admit that I loved her. I loved her as I love my wife and I can only hope that she felt that love in her final moments.

To those of you who feel that this is/was wrong, Fuck you. May you never deal with this.

Cat

 

[starrkers]

Yes, Cat. You are a good thing.
Without any shadow of a doubt.

 

[scriptordelecto]

Am I a good thing Starrkers?

Am I truly?

I push people to give their best. I push people to think and to question. I push people to fight.

I pushed her to fight, I pushed her to continue living.

She had given up, she could have gone through much less suffering. She could have passed on without the pain and suffering she had gone through. She listened to me. I had pushed her because of her age. I made her fight damn it. I wouldn't let her give up.

Okay damn it I did feel for her. I allowed her inside. I allowed myself to feel. I couldn't help myself. She was too damned oun to have to go through this.

Yes I held her when she lost her insides and was told she could no longer have children. Yes I was there when her husband left her and her family faded away. I wiped the tars away from her face and pushed her. Yes I did hold hr in y arms as I washed her after she shit herself and pissed herself. Yes I id carry her when she couldn't walk any further. Yes I did allow her to strike out at me when she was upset, I ignored what she called me. I kept after her and made her angry. I directed her anger against her disease.

I tunrned her damn it. She was healing, she was doing well. She was going to get better. She had maybe another six months before her Colostomy was reversed.

She was released and killed by a damn drunk driver.

Okay I admit that in my own way I loved her. I loved her becaue of her strength. I loved her because she didn't give up. I loved her god damn it because she refused to think she was flawed.

I have a CD of pictures of her, a CD she and her parents made for me. These are pictures of her before and after her being diagnosed. These are picturs taken of her before during and after her surgeries. The most important one of these is a picture taken of her as she was being discharged. It is a picture of her standing nude with her Colostomy and scars clearly visible. She is smiling at the camera.

I shall forever cherish this disk. Just as I shall forever mourn her death. Yes, I have to admit that I loved her. I loved her as I love my wife and I can only hope that she felt that love in her final moments.

To those of you who feel that this is/was wrong, Fuck you. May you never deal with this.

Cat

Without a doubt, Cat, you are one of the best people I know. I still say you're beautiful. I'm so very sorry for your pain.

 

[joeys-game]

So sorry man.

 

[inlovewithyourghost]

 

[Penelope Street]

Wow. I'm so sorry.