my wife recently had a miscarriage. while we were "messing around" I noticed she was bleeding, we called her the local hospital and they told her to come right up. We got there registered and waited in the ER for four hours before we were seen. They did a pelvic exam and took some blood, everything appeared fine. When they did an ultrasound, however, there was no heartbeat or vital signs of any sort. We've both had a tough time getting over this. The fetus was only 2 and a half months along but it still hurts like hell. We had all these plans and dreams. If we didnt have our two old I dont know what I'd do. I suppose it will hurt less as time passes but for now I just need to express myself, that always makes me feel better.
I don't know if this is any good, but it helps me to fell better and i guess that's all that matters.
Dreams
Were you ever really alive?
Gone before given the chance.
The dreams I had,
shattered on cotton sheets.
The stains washed away with your memory,
Tears replaced the blood.
Taken before you could fly,
Not even allowed to try.
You had a brother, so sweet and innocent.
He doesn’t know the loss.
Too young to feel the cost.
I dreamed a perfect life,
full of puppy dogs and family picnics.
Warm hugs and hot chocolate mugs.
Building snowmen, is how it should have been.
Sleepless nights full of reflection.
Hopeless dreams with no direction.
When I never knew why,
how do I say goodbye.
I don't know if this is any good, but it helps me to fell better and i guess that's all that matters.
Dreams
Were you ever really alive?
Gone before given the chance.
The dreams I had,
shattered on cotton sheets.
The stains washed away with your memory,
Tears replaced the blood.
Taken before you could fly,
Not even allowed to try.
You had a brother, so sweet and innocent.
He doesn’t know the loss.
Too young to feel the cost.
I dreamed a perfect life,
full of puppy dogs and family picnics.
Warm hugs and hot chocolate mugs.
Building snowmen, is how it should have been.
Sleepless nights full of reflection.
Hopeless dreams with no direction.
When I never knew why,
how do I say goodbye.
