CarolineOh
Newbie Phase Two
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- Feb 12, 2002
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Most of you know, I was hit by a car a few weeks ago and suffered a number of injuries.
I have been gradually backing off my dosage of pain medication, and occasionally as I make these adjustments, the pain will flare beyond the meds ability to handle it.
On these occasions I have several times been able to concentrate on the sensation of the pain, and mentally isolate it, almost separating it from the physical realm and turning it into something almost abstract.
I don't know if I am describing this in a way that makes sense, but what I have found is that I am able to manipulate my pain to some degree. It's like I can step away from it and examine it, poke at it, prod it, let it wash over me or hold it at bay.
None of this pain is in any way erotic to me. The worst of it is in the side of my face and feels like an intense toothache (I have a broken jaw). But I wonder, if it was eroticized pain, if this is similar to how people in bdsm process really intense sensation play, or if anyone has insight into it's application in bdsm.
I have been gradually backing off my dosage of pain medication, and occasionally as I make these adjustments, the pain will flare beyond the meds ability to handle it.
On these occasions I have several times been able to concentrate on the sensation of the pain, and mentally isolate it, almost separating it from the physical realm and turning it into something almost abstract.
I don't know if I am describing this in a way that makes sense, but what I have found is that I am able to manipulate my pain to some degree. It's like I can step away from it and examine it, poke at it, prod it, let it wash over me or hold it at bay.
None of this pain is in any way erotic to me. The worst of it is in the side of my face and feels like an intense toothache (I have a broken jaw). But I wonder, if it was eroticized pain, if this is similar to how people in bdsm process really intense sensation play, or if anyone has insight into it's application in bdsm.