I didn't have innocent crushes either. I always wanted to do something nasty with them, even if I wasn't sure what it was--maybe have them play Doctor with me.
I was obsessed with the girls in the skating chorus line of some Holiday On Ice show my parents took me to. They wore green-sequined bathing suits and had green eathers in their hair, and I used to fantasize about finding one tied to the railroad tracks as I drove my roller-coaster jet-train. I'd stop and rescue her and bring her inside and nurse her back to health.
I don't know what happened after that but it was my favorite fantasy, her walking around in her bathing suit and skates and admiring the way I drove that train.
