No, this isn't a "feel sorry for me, beg me to stay" thread. This is just me saying a few things that are on my mind. Okay, more than a few things.
First and foremost, I am extremely disappointed and hurt. I have done nothing wrong, yet it seems our illustrious webmistress, or any of the other moderators for that matter don't have enough respect for me as a human being to come forward and prove it, yet everyone else is willing to believe the people who think I have? Why is that? Feel free to e-mail me with an answer.
I have another question for you as well. It's basically 2 people's words against another's. Deborah, who I will forever remain convinced, needs counseling more than I do, and Dixon, who for some reason unknown to me and many others, is totally infallible in the eyes of most of you. My question is simply this...would you have believed me if Deborah hadn't said anything? Why don't you believe she was looking for the wrong fucking person? Scratch that...why the hell don't you believe anything I say? I have no reason to lie. The only reason I am still here is because I never DID lie about any of it, so I didn't have a reason to leave.
We've also had people here who posted as the opposite sex, under 3 or 4 different names, on and on and on...they're still here and loved. How's that any different?
Somehow, it seems, I've become the board's proverbial whipping boy. I thought it had blown over and we'd all moved on. Then Slut Boy comes crawling out of the shadows and starts it up again. I just don't need it. Simple as that. And there's no reason I should have to put up with it, although I do wonder how the hell it happened anyway.
So, to clear the air, here's the last and final time I'm going over the only "proof" that's been presented so far. I e-mailed Dixon once. It was to ask his suggestions on a story. He replied. I replied. He never wrote back. That's all. I never got any "sorry if I stepped on your toes" e-mail, though I'm sure Raven did. I couldn't have possibly replied, because I never got any such message.
And then you have Deborah. Dear, sweet Deborah. Dear lord. She went so far as to say I was Raven because we once used the same word in a post. You think I'm lying? Search. Then she started stalking "me", though it was actually Raven she was stalking, who then had to put up with Dixon's harrassment.
Now it seems every thread I start is found by a troll. I think the BBS could do without that, so I'm just going to vanish into thin air. Deborah's going to have to find someone else she thinks is Raven now. Or me. Or whoever.
Have any of you stopped to think that there is an actual person behind the monitor, reading what you say? Someone who's flesh and blood? Would you say it to my face if I were standing in front of you?
I have things in my real life that need to be dealt with, and real people to spend time with. I came here because I thought it was a fun, intelligent place to be and discuss damn near anything. Little did I know it was the adult site version of the KKK.
To those of you who have either respected or had enough sense to ignore me if you don't, thank you very much.
Somebody let me know if Laurel ever has enough human compassion to post those IPs. I'd say I'd hold my breathe, but I have the feeling I'd turn pretty damn blue waiting.
I always will wonder how long after I post this will my name still come up, and who the poor soul is that's going to fall under suspicion next. I pity that person...maybe it'll be you, Slut Boy. Or you, Deborah. Then I have the feeling it won't seem so entertaining.
Take care all, and happy holidays.
First and foremost, I am extremely disappointed and hurt. I have done nothing wrong, yet it seems our illustrious webmistress, or any of the other moderators for that matter don't have enough respect for me as a human being to come forward and prove it, yet everyone else is willing to believe the people who think I have? Why is that? Feel free to e-mail me with an answer.
I have another question for you as well. It's basically 2 people's words against another's. Deborah, who I will forever remain convinced, needs counseling more than I do, and Dixon, who for some reason unknown to me and many others, is totally infallible in the eyes of most of you. My question is simply this...would you have believed me if Deborah hadn't said anything? Why don't you believe she was looking for the wrong fucking person? Scratch that...why the hell don't you believe anything I say? I have no reason to lie. The only reason I am still here is because I never DID lie about any of it, so I didn't have a reason to leave.
We've also had people here who posted as the opposite sex, under 3 or 4 different names, on and on and on...they're still here and loved. How's that any different?
Somehow, it seems, I've become the board's proverbial whipping boy. I thought it had blown over and we'd all moved on. Then Slut Boy comes crawling out of the shadows and starts it up again. I just don't need it. Simple as that. And there's no reason I should have to put up with it, although I do wonder how the hell it happened anyway.
So, to clear the air, here's the last and final time I'm going over the only "proof" that's been presented so far. I e-mailed Dixon once. It was to ask his suggestions on a story. He replied. I replied. He never wrote back. That's all. I never got any "sorry if I stepped on your toes" e-mail, though I'm sure Raven did. I couldn't have possibly replied, because I never got any such message.
And then you have Deborah. Dear, sweet Deborah. Dear lord. She went so far as to say I was Raven because we once used the same word in a post. You think I'm lying? Search. Then she started stalking "me", though it was actually Raven she was stalking, who then had to put up with Dixon's harrassment.
Now it seems every thread I start is found by a troll. I think the BBS could do without that, so I'm just going to vanish into thin air. Deborah's going to have to find someone else she thinks is Raven now. Or me. Or whoever.
Have any of you stopped to think that there is an actual person behind the monitor, reading what you say? Someone who's flesh and blood? Would you say it to my face if I were standing in front of you?
I have things in my real life that need to be dealt with, and real people to spend time with. I came here because I thought it was a fun, intelligent place to be and discuss damn near anything. Little did I know it was the adult site version of the KKK.
To those of you who have either respected or had enough sense to ignore me if you don't, thank you very much.
Somebody let me know if Laurel ever has enough human compassion to post those IPs. I'd say I'd hold my breathe, but I have the feeling I'd turn pretty damn blue waiting.
I always will wonder how long after I post this will my name still come up, and who the poor soul is that's going to fall under suspicion next. I pity that person...maybe it'll be you, Slut Boy. Or you, Deborah. Then I have the feeling it won't seem so entertaining.
Take care all, and happy holidays.
