Finally feel like I'm normal.

[Ashsmith99]

For the longest time I would get urges to go down on a guy. Not all the time, but every once in awhile I'd find myself starring more at a guys cock then the women when I would watch porn. Then I found that I started watching porn between mature men and younger women just so I can see mature mens package.

Now I still can't get all the way where I need to be from watching men, so gay porn doesn't do anything for me, but bisexual male porn is incredibly hot. Based on this I experimented with a few guys but always feel really weird and uncomfortable after I get off. It seems like I'm not alone though.

 

[stickygirl]

For the longest time I would get urges to go down on a guy. Not all the time, but every once in awhile I'd find myself starring more at a guys cock then the women when I would watch porn. Then I found that I started watching porn between mature men and younger women just so I can see mature mens package.

Now I still can't get all the way where I need to be from watching men, so gay porn doesn't do anything for me, but bisexual male porn is incredibly hot. Based on this I experimented with a few guys but always feel really weird and uncomfortable after I get off. It seems like I'm not alone though.

Hi and welcome to Lit Ash.
Take a look around Lit and let me know if you find ANYTHING normal Seriously - what you find hot is the important thing. Comparing yourself to what other people think or looking for a label to describe your own feelings is a non-starter and will just confuse you more. Accept what you are and throw your feelings of guilt out the window.
You're certainly not alone

 

[whyaskwhy]

For the longest time I would get urges to go down on a guy. Not all the time, but every once in awhile I'd find myself starring more at a guys cock then the women when I would watch porn. Then I found that I started watching porn between mature men and younger women just so I can see mature mens package.

Now I still can't get all the way where I need to be from watching men, so gay porn doesn't do anything for me, but bisexual male porn is incredibly hot. Based on this I experimented with a few guys but always feel really weird and uncomfortable after I get off. It seems like I'm not alone though.

Welcome aboard. And yeah, don't worry about labeling yourself or putting your desires or fetishes into neat little boxes. What you enjoy is what you enjoy, end of story. As for your views on gay porn, I have to agree. I've watched it and didn't really get off on it, but bi-porn, yeah that's a different story. I find that extremely erotic and a huge turn on. As it happens, in all of my fantasies of sucking a cock include the presence of a woman in a threeway scenario, so I think that's why the strictly male on male stuff leaves me feeling nothing. And if you think bi-porn is hot, try looking at some of the shemale stuff out there. A lot of it is red hot. That's kind of where I started out, before I wanted to admit my bisexuality to myself, thinking if the cock belonged to a beautiful woman (and wow, some of them are truly beautiful), then hey, that doesn't make me gay or bi, does it? Not that any of it matters any more. It's all pleasure, and although all of it may not meet everybody's tastes, having it to yourself is sometimes what makes it special...

 

[whyaskwhy]

Hi and welcome to Lit Ash.
Take a look around Lit and let me know if you find ANYTHING normal Seriously - what you find hot is the important thing. Comparing yourself to what other people think or looking for a label to describe your own feelings is a non-starter and will just confuse you more. Accept what you are and throw your feelings of guilt out the window.
You're certainly not alone

Well said, stickygirl!

 

[Ashsmith99]

True about not needing to out myself into a neat box. I was doing research and found all these examples of gay and bi sex in history when it came to Romans, or the famous Spartans and all of that helped with the "if it feels good, do it" mind set.

 

[PleasePeesMe]

This is not a rehearsal, Ash

Don't die wondering or wishing....

 

[t1m1d1]

Don't die wondering or wishing....

Great quote PPM! Guess I took far far too long to take the step , but I didn't want to die wondering or wishing! I finally conquered all my shackles etc. I now recognise I'm a bit " off-piste" but like many on Lit! Go with your imagination and heart ! No regrets

 

[StacyTG]

Hi and welcome to Lit Ash.
Take a look around Lit and let me know if you find ANYTHING normal Seriously - what you find hot is the important thing. Comparing yourself to what other people think or looking for a label to describe your own feelings is a non-starter and will just confuse you more. Accept what you are and throw your feelings of guilt out the window.
You're certainly not alone

Very well said, sister!!!!

*hugs*