I am a longtime lurker on Lit and just decided to post for the first time.
I would appreciate some thought and perspective, specifically from females on this issue.
I am happily married. I love my wife very much. She is extremely attractive. I love our child. And I do not want to do anything to jeopardize it...which is why I am writing, maybe for someone to bring me to my senses or at least provide fair perspective.
I have found myself thinking more and more about having an affair. I highly doubt I would do it in the end, but the thoughts are there.
One of the biggest issues we have is that my wife suffers from endometriosis, which makes sex painful for her. We only have sex her her on top and rarely can she take me completely inside her. The biggest issue is that during sex all I am thinking about is how I am creating pain. We have been to many doctors and it seems there is little that can be done.
I do not blame my wife's endometriosis for these thoughts I am having and if I was to act on them, it would be my decision alone.
And to be fair, some of this goes beyond the endometriosis issue. The bottom line, for a lack of a better word, I just want to fuck. It has been so long since I had completely unihibitted, animalistic sex.
Now I know most good perspective will simply mention Tiger Woods, but that does not change my desire.
The way I rationalize all of this is that I would meet a confident, uninhibitted, attractive married woman...someone who would have as much to loose as I would...
Again, I am writing to gain perspective...How bad is this? Seriously?
Look forward to getting your replies.
I would appreciate some thought and perspective, specifically from females on this issue.
I am happily married. I love my wife very much. She is extremely attractive. I love our child. And I do not want to do anything to jeopardize it...which is why I am writing, maybe for someone to bring me to my senses or at least provide fair perspective.
I have found myself thinking more and more about having an affair. I highly doubt I would do it in the end, but the thoughts are there.
One of the biggest issues we have is that my wife suffers from endometriosis, which makes sex painful for her. We only have sex her her on top and rarely can she take me completely inside her. The biggest issue is that during sex all I am thinking about is how I am creating pain. We have been to many doctors and it seems there is little that can be done.
I do not blame my wife's endometriosis for these thoughts I am having and if I was to act on them, it would be my decision alone.
And to be fair, some of this goes beyond the endometriosis issue. The bottom line, for a lack of a better word, I just want to fuck. It has been so long since I had completely unihibitted, animalistic sex.
Now I know most good perspective will simply mention Tiger Woods, but that does not change my desire.
The way I rationalize all of this is that I would meet a confident, uninhibitted, attractive married woman...someone who would have as much to loose as I would...
Again, I am writing to gain perspective...How bad is this? Seriously?
Look forward to getting your replies.
