Feels empty today

[christcat69]

Today I feel hopeless. I'm at my lowest point today. Hopefully tomorrow will be better, but hey that's what I said yesterday.



My Danielle

Feels so empty without you,
What am I supposed to do?
Need to change my way of life,
Feeling helpless because I've lost my life,
Want to change for me and you,
But how can I if I don't have you?
Want to plead as you walk out our door,
But I know you don't need me anymore.
It would be selfish to beg you to stay,
Because I know you need to walk away.
Know that I respect what you need to do.
I will always love you.

 

[T.H. Oughts]

Today kind of feels empty here too..... no pm's from my Mapleman this morning cause he is busy with his weekend...

 

[christcat69]

My girl dumped me, My dad is sick, I have no emotion left. The tears have been flowing all night and day. I need to do some yoga or something.

 

[T.H. Oughts]

My girl dumped me, My dad is sick, I have no emotion left. The tears have been flowing all night and day. I need to do some yoga or something.

Life sucks some times.... go do some yoga and take time for yourself for a while....

 

[christcat69]

thanks T.H.

Boy do I need some chocolate.

 

[T.H. Oughts]

Re: thanks T.H.

Boy do I need some chocolate.

Yep, I could down a truck load of the stuff myself, lol

 

[OUTSIDER]

Re: thanks T.H.

Boy do I need some chocolate.

Theres always time for chocolate

 

[SweetCherry]

Some things, tho, even chocolate can't fix.

 

[christcat69]

sweet, cherry

How right you are. I don't think anything will fix it this time. She wants me to still live here but if she's going to go on with her life and me with mine then that just isn't healthy, right?

 

[SweetCherry]

I guess for me I can't see how 2 people who end a relationship like that can share the same space day in and day out and be happy. I wasn't capable of living with my husband when things started to deteriorate. He's out now, for nearly a year, and we're getting along better. Still getting divorced, but finally communicating. I feel for you, Christcat. It's not an easy situation to be in.

 

[intrigued]

Some things, tho, even chocolate can't fix.

There are some things nothing at all can fix, other than a voice, a word, a touch.

Christcat...so sorry. Damn. I wish I could help you somehow.

 

[intrigued]

I guess for me I can't see how 2 people who end a relationship like that can share the same space day in and day out and be happy. I wasn't capable of living with my husband when things started to deteriorate. He's out now, for nearly a year, and we're getting along better. Still getting divorced, but finally communicating. I feel for you, Christcat. It's not an easy situation to be in.

It is hard to imagine, but it happens. My ex and I did it for years. We spoke only when we had to. It was unbearable, unhealthy...quite destructive.
Somehow, we're close friends now.

 

[SweetCherry]

I lived like that for a year before mine finally left. It's been 2 years now since the major troubles started, and almost a year since he left. I'm finally able to be his friend. I still don't like spending too jmuch time with/around him, but I make the effort to keep things sane and stable for the children. In the end, it's all about what's best for them. Me living with him just plain never was best.

 

[intrigued]

I lived like that for a year before mine finally left. It's been 2 years now since the major troubles started, and almost a year since he left. I'm finally able to be his friend. I still don't like spending too jmuch time with/around him, but I make the effort to keep things sane and stable for the children. In the end, it's all about what's best for them. Me living with him just plain never was best.

Much the same here...I kept us together as long as I could, simply for my children....until I finally faced the fact that it was only tearing them apart more. They have handled us being apart much more quickly than they handled the falling apart.

I can't take being around him much because he still wants me, and that is extremely hard.

 

[SweetCherry]

I can't take being around him much because he still wants me, and that is extremely hard.

Now THIS I can so relate to. It sucks being told "But I still love you." Especially when there's no way in hell the feelings will EVER be there again. I might be lonely, but it's not EVER gonna be that bad.

 

[intrigued]

Now THIS I can so relate to. It sucks being told "But I still love you." Especially when there's no way in hell the feelings will EVER be there again. I might be lonely, but it's not EVER gonna be that bad.

Wow. Our similarities are amazing huh?

As much as I love him, the person, not him the husband, I hate what he did to us, to my children...I have so much anger towards him that he can never break through, even though I have forgiven him, in the sense that it is in the past. He is one of these "all talk, no action" people, so many empty promises, just trying to hold onto me. In the end...he is every bit as volatile today as he was our entire 8 year marriage, and I just can't live that way. He is the very opposite of me...I am a peaceful, non~confrontational person. I need peace and I will do most anything to achieve it. Not him. In ones home, there should be no war zone, but that is all I knew.

Sorry to derail.

 

[christcat69]

Well goodness

I guess I should just be glad I don't have any children to think about. But we do have 3 cats, a bunny, a snake, a turtle, 2 sugargliders, a saltwater tank and a beta. Now imagine trying to avoid confrontation in a one bedroom apartment. Hmmm.....