Fear of Rejection

[will68]

"I'm very pleased to meet you, Amanda," he said. "My name is Peter. Which way should we walk?" offering his arm.

She slipped her arm iside his and felt her pull in close. His thoughts started to race and he found it difficult not to stammer.

"I live about a mile from here," she rplied. "This way," steering him onto the path.

Strolling arm in arm he was very conscious of hear nearness, her perfume and the way she clung to his side. It was a new experience for him He had never been able to suggest a walk home to a girl before and he was wondering how he could handle this situation. Before he knew it they were at her home.

"Amanda," he stuttered, "I would really like to see you again?"

She looked up at him and could see how nervous he was. She stopped walking and turned to him, grasping both his hands.

"I would like that," she said. "What say I give you my phone number."

"Yes please," Peter almost begged. Amanda fished in her purse and handed him a slip of paper. "Here you are."

She then raised herself on tiptoe and gently offered him a chaste kiss. "Please do contact me, Peter." I would love to see you again."

As he walked away Peter was now very conscious of the painful ache he felt in his groin. A mile walk with an uncomfortable erection was a new experience for him.

 

[Tammi]

Amanda smiled walking inside her home. Her thoughts were of Peter and what a refreshing change he was. The walk home, although somewhat quiet, had made her feel comfortable and relaxed. She could tell he was nervous, but this had reassured her that he wasn’t going to get her alone and then go berserk, trying to maul her once they were alone.

She found his shyness cute, heightening her curiosity about him even more. She had even wanted to giggle at his reaction when she gave him her phone number, but hadn’t because being that shy, she was afraid he might think she was making fun of him instead of her finding his behavior cute, even sexy. She could almost see him blushing if she would have told him this and now she did giggle.

She hoped he would call her soon so that she could get to know him better, but wondered with him so shy, how long it would take before he actually called.

She undressed and got in the shower, letting the warm water spill over her body and a thought crossed her mind. “ Damn. I should have asked for his number, or at least his last name. “ She figured if she had called him, it might have saved him some needless worry when he went to make the call. Oh well, she thought, drying herself after her shower. After opening the window in her bedroom just a little, breathing in the fresh air, she quickly got under the covers. Ahhh, she thought, enjoying the feel of the sheets against her naked body.

It had been four days now and she still hadn’t heard from Peter. She was beginning to wonder if he would even call. Sunday morning she was enjoying a cup of coffee and reading the newspaper when the phone rang, startling her.

“ Hello. “ She answered and her heart fluttered when she heard it was Peter.

 

[will68]

Peter had been obcessed with his meeting with Amanda. He had never imagined himself as being the subject of a REAL girl wanting him to ring. It's a wonder that the paper with her phone number hadn't scorched, because it was burning a hole in his pocket

How long before it would be proper to ring?
Was hse just stringig him along to an ultimate humiliation?
No! It wasn't that, he was sure. She seemed too nice a girl to be in that sort of behaviour.

he pictured her in his mind. Those eyes with their faint laugh lines. The pretty face. The cute figure. And yes..that feeling when they danced and her breasts touched him. He could still feel the zap of the electricity.

Then the brief goodnight kiss and THAT phone number.

"Four days I'll wait," he thought. They passed like weeks instead of days.

Then he dialled the number. It took ages to answer. he nearly hung up but at Last came the words, "Hello!"

"Hi Amanda, this is Peter Walsh. How are you?."

 

[Tammi]

" Peter, so nice to hear from you. I'm doing well. " Amanda said and they talked for several minutes and she got the idea that he was trying to ask her something, but was having a problem doing so.

" Peter, I'm free later this evening. Would you like do get together and do something? " She finally asked grinning.

 

[will68]

Peter's heart skipped a beat! "I'd love to take you to dinner," he replied. "Could I pick you up anout 7?"
On Amanda's agreement peter said,"OK then. See you at 7."
Now Peter had a real quandry. Where would he take her? What should he wear? How would the conversation go? Would this be the end or, hope against hope, the start of a friendship and beyond?
He chose and reserved for two at a nice friendly seafood restarount he had used before. He then wondered if she liked seafood?
He dressed with slacks and nice clean cut casual shirt? He worried that this might not be the right way to dress on a date like this.
He started the car and drove towards Amanda's house. The butterflies were nearly driving crazy!

 

[Tammi]

It had taken Amanda most of the day to figure out what to wear and prepare for her date with Peter. She laughed to herself, wondering if maybe his shyness was the reason for her nervousness. She had planned on wearing something casual, but when she came across one particular dress in her closet, a wicked smile crossed her face. Shaking off her nervousness and throwing care to the wind, she decided this was the dress to wear.

When she was finished getting ready she looked in the mirror and smiled. At 22, her long blonde hair and tanned figure fit into the black backless dress nicely and the low v-neckline accentuated her breasts even more so. Pleased with how she looked, she grabbed a black shawl and draped it over her shoulders.

Peter had arrived on time looking extremely handsome and had not disappointed her in his reaction to how she looked. Although the perfect gentleman, complimenting her, she had seen his slight blush as his eyes gazed over her chest. This had immediately excited her, enjoying the affect she had on him. He continued to be a gentleman, opening all the doors for her and holding out her chair for her to sit when they were at the restaurant.

She let him know that she loved seafood and was delighted with the wine he had ordered to go with their dinner. Their conversation was light, getting to know one another better and she could tell he was relaxing some as he talked and opened up more.

She would also catch his gaze going to her breasts now and then, and she would smile, causing a soft blush to come across his face, knowing he had been caught. She was really enjoying the evening and began wondering what she would discover about him underneath all his shyness.

 

[will68]

Peter was just overwhelmed when he saw Amanda at the door. She looked beautiful! He had suspected that she had a nice figure but when she opened the door dressed in that black dress he found it extremely difficult to raise his eyes form the tops of her breasts showing above the v-line neck.
On the way to the restaraunt he glanced at her from time to time and found concentrating on his driving difficult.
Peter was so lost in thought about how to behave he overlooked the need for conversation until Amanda asked where they were going.
He replied that he had booked at a well-known seafood place and hoped she would enjoy that. During dinner he started to relax and enjoyed talking to Amanada and finding more about her. He still stole glances at those half exposed glances and could feel familiar reactions in his groin.
Peter started to reveal himself in their conversation. He explained that he had just finished 5 years in the army and was now about to start university. He had chosen the college in this town because they offered a course in chemical engineering in which he was most interested.
He gathered up courage and asked Amanda if she had a regular boyfriend. He was afraid of the answer because she had invaded his heart so thoroughly that he feared rejection as he would a bullet. If this was the beginning of love he wanted it to continue.

 

[Tammi]

“ No, Peter I’m not involved in a relationship. “ She smiled seeing the relieved expression on his face. “ I’ve been attending the same college for several years, I hope to be a lawyer someday. With going to school and working to pay for it, I don’t have much time to involve myself in a relationship. The men so far that I’ve been involved with, got tired of my schedule and moved on. “

She took a sip of her wine continuing to meet his gaze. She didn’t tell him that the actual reason most men moved on was because of her job and she wasn’t about to quit it. Being a well-paid dancer at one of the exclusive nightclubs in town was going to get her through college. She didn’t dance completely naked, but the small g-strings she wore left little for the imagination.

She knew he would probably ask about her job, and she was reluctant to tell him. It was the first time she had felt her job might offend a man she wanted to continue seeing, the thought of lying to him crossed her mind, but she had never been a very good liar. When he did ask her, she looked directly into his eyes, took a deep breath and responded.

“ I work at one of the local nightclubs, as a waitress sometimes. “

Well, it was true, she thought, it just wasn’t the entire truth. As shy as he seemed to be, she just hoped he didn’t attend those places. At least not before she told him about her dancing.

 

[will68]

Peter could not believe his fortune. Here was this gorgeous girl who seemed to like him and spend time with him. he was amazed that she was free and thought about a way he could make their acquaintance more permanent

He let his gaze drift down to her breasts again and all sorts of delicious thoughts entered his mind. What would they feel like? Would she let him, eventually, fondle them? Just how far would she let him go?

He gazed deeply into her eyes and asked her if she would consider going out with him on a more or less permanet basis. (shy equals "more or less") and while waiting for her answer
Peter thought for a minute and then asked, "Does waitressing pay enough to get you through college?"

 

[Tammi]

"Does waitressing pay enough to get you through college?"

She almost choked on her wine when he asked that question, and had to control the urge she had to laugh.

" People around here are very generous with there tips. " She said smiling, aware that his eyes seemed to be straying to her breasts, more so than earlier. She was really beginning to get excited by the looks he kept giving her. In the back of her mind she couldn't help but wonder what was going through his mind.

" I have no plans to see anyone else Peter, if that is what you're asking. I would very much like to continue seeing you. "

 

[will68]

Peter smiled at the response. he didn't want tonight to end, let alone the nights to follow.

"I imagine you must get a lot of keen looks when you are waitressing," he said. "I know I can't take my eyes away from you. You are the most attractive girl I have ever seen."

Dinner was now over and, fortified with a couple of wines, Peter was bold enough to suggest a walk out to the end of the pier. As they started walking they linked arms and strolled together in step. Peter was very aware of Amands's breast pressed against him and the skin contact on their arms.

 

[Tammi]

"I imagine you must get a lot of keen looks when you are waitressing," he said. "I know I can't take my eyes away from you. You are the most attractive girl I have ever seen."

Peter was capturing her heart with his gentleness, let alone the soft blush that had come across his face with his comment. He was so adorable when he said it that she had wanted to hug him right there, but refrained. But a warm tingling in her belly had begun, her desire for him growing.

She couldn’t help but lean her body against this man as they walked along the pier. When they reached the end of the pier, they both stood silent, looking out across the ocean, with the moonlight casting it’s soft rays against the waters. A soft breeze was in the air now that the evening grew later and she shivered slightly, pulling her shawl around her.

He had asked if she was cold, and she saw the sincere look in his eyes. His eyes, she thought, she could almost drowned in them now, so open and vulnerable.

Without answering, she turned to him, reaching her arms around his neck and pulling him to her, their lips meeting softly at first. She pressed her body against him, feeling the passion in her body rising. She took his hand, placing at her breast.

 

[will68]

Peter was astounded at the kiss and even more by her guiding his hand to her breast. His mind racing he gently caressed her breast and enjoyed her soft parted lips. He returned the kiss and his mouth parted also so that their tongues met.
Peter drew her closer to him and he enjoyed how she moulded to his bady. He felt her legs were parted and he slipped his leg between them, and feeling her groin pressed close to his thigh.
He gave a deep sigh and drew back slightly so that he could see her face. he stroked her cheek and then her hair and then returned to her mouth for another deep kiss.
"God, Amanda!" he muttered. "You are terrific and I just love you. I've never said that to any girl before!"

 

[Tammi]

Her breathing intensified as he pressed his leg between hers and hearing his words and feeling his lips on hers, her body melted against his. Their tongues dancing together in a heated dance.

She then let her lips gently kiss his neck and move to his ear. She wanted him, and she softly whispered in his ear.

" If you don't take me home now Peter, we shall be making love on this pier in any moment. "

 

[will68]

Peter was taken by surpise. This was more than he dared hope. he disengaged from the embrace and started them walking to his car.
"Amanda," he whispered, "Do you mean what I hope you mean?"
This shyness and feeling of rejection crept up on him agaian and he hoped against hope that she would lead him.

In the car he stole glances at her. She had a beautiful profile and he had trouble keeping his eyes on the road. Especially as her hand rested on his thigh.

When they arrived at Amanda's home he was relieved to hear her invite him in.

 

[Tammi]

Amanda dropped her shawl on the couch, slid off her heels and took Peter’s hand, leading him to her bedroom. It was dark other than the dim moonlight coming through the window. Leaving Peter standing just inside the doorway, she lit several candles, and without another word, she went back to him. She wrapped her arms around his neck and brought her lips to his. Her excitement grew as she felt his hand run gently through her hair while his other hand slowly caressed her bare back, pressing her closer to him.

She reveled in the taste of his mouth on hers and the gentleness of his hands on her body. She could feel the heat from his hands and pressing closer to him, she felt his erection through his pants against her body. Feeling he was slightly hesitant to move forward, breaking their kiss, she backed away from him.

Softly her eyes looked directly at his and she reached behind her back, unzipping her dress. She proceeded to slowly slide it down her body until she finally stepped out of it. As many times as she had done this for a living, doing it now for Peter was so much different. Her arousal stimulated by the affect this was having on him as he watched her.

Standing there with only her black panties and thigh high stockings on, with the dim lighting casting a soft shadow across her body, she smiled.

“ Does this tell you how much I want you? “ She asked in a low murmur.

 

[will68]

Peter was absolutely speechless. here he was with this amazingly beautiful girl who was nearly undressed in her bedroom and being told he was wanted.

He took a step towards her and kissed her fervently and his hands gently caressed her naked breasts. He ram his fingers around her nipples, amazed at their response to his touch. The softness but firmness amazed him.

It is a learning experience for Peter. being still a virgin he had no knowledge of where he should go from here except from instinct. He could feel his erection uncomforatable in his pants but didn't want to have his hands leave Amanda's breasts to adjust himself.

Instinct drove him to He lower his head and place his lips on her breast and draw a nipple into his mouth. This was an amazing experience. he felt Amanda moving against his mouth and her hand moving to his groin.

 

[Tammi]

Peter’s mouth on her nipples sent shivers through her body, her hand ran down his pants and gently stroked his cock. A slight shiver went through his body, and the thought that maybe this was all new to him crossed her mind.

Could it be possible that although several years older than her, he actually was a virgin, she thought. Considering how shy he was with her, she decided that this in fact might be true. She put her hands to his chest and softly pushed him away from her.

“ I want to see you Peter. Let me undress you. “

She proceeded to unbutton his shirt and slowly push it off him, allowing her lips to plant small kisses on his chest as she did this.

 

[will68]

Peter stood stock still as amanda started on the buttons of his shirt. He shivered in the pleasure of her ligh kisses on his chest and the sense of her undoing his belt and loosening his trousers.
This was all unfamiliar territory for him and he determined to burn into his mind every sweet moment.

As his trousers dropped to the groud he slipped off his shoes and socks, all the time keeping his eyes shifting from Amanda's to her breasts and then back again to her gleaming eyes.

As he stood there in his shorts only he drew her towards him again for another deep kiss, tongues entwined and breast to breast. The feel of her breasts agaist him was almost unbearable in the pleasure.

"Now you!" he muttered as he worked her to edge of the bed. He took hold of the top of her thigh high stocking and worked it down her leg. As she raised her leg to help he noticed the dampness in the crotch of her panties. He then worked the other stocking off, caressing her leg from thigh to toe as he did so.

 

[Tammi]

Amanda felt the wetness beginning between her legs at the same time she noticed Peter’s eyes glance in that direction. The feel of his lips moving slowly up her leg, made her pulse quicken, almost as if she was the virgin and not him.

Then with that thought, she decided what was needed to make sure their pleasure would last into the night. She lay back on the bed, grabbing his shoulders and pulled him with her. She gently pushed him on his back and leaning over him, she left a trail of kisses down his chest. When she reached his waist, putting her thumbs on each side of him, she slipped off his shorts. She heard him gasp slightly and she smiled, knowing that in a few minutes or so, he may do more than gasp.

Her hand traveled up the inside of his thigh, and as it reached to lightly stoke his balls, she put her mouth on his hardened erection. Her lips licked at the same time her mouth slid up and down his cock. Her hand gently grasped the base of his shaft, and she immediately felt his body jerk. She swallowed as he exploded in her mouth, enjoying immensely the taste of his seed, some even dripping from the corners or her mouth. Using her fingers, she wiped her mouth, licking her fingers afterwards, and leaning up she kissed him. She pressed her body against his, her hand gently caressing his arm.

“ The next time should be even better. “ She whispered. She leaned back on the bed where Peter leaned over her, kissing her passionately.

 

[will68]

Peter laid back on the bed, staring up at the ceiling. he tried to catch his breath and after succeeding he turned to amanda and held her close.

"That was the most amazing damn thing!" he said. "I guess you could tell I have never been with a girl before!" I'm sorry if I seem a bit clumsy and hesitant. I want to be everything you would want me to be."

He let his hand trail across her breasts, lingering at her nipples and then holding them in his hand. Never had he expected the great joy he got from just touching her. The soft but firm swelling, the hard nipples surrounded by rosy brown aureoles. He found the sight of her immensely exciting too. The flat belly disappearing down to the mound and spot between her legs.

he leaned down again to take her nipple into his mouth. Instictively he knew to run his his toungue around it and to nibble gently. Now he trailed his hand down her belly and between her thighs. The manner in which she made access poosible thrilled him and he felt her wetness before he found that valley he was seeking. He ran his fingers though her lips, enjoying her response and then he realised that he was hard again.

 

[Tammi]

“ Peter you are by no means clumsy. “ She whispered when his lips licked at her nipples, teasing them until they were so hard she could barely stand it.

As his lips traveled down her body, she felt her desire climb. Running his hand lightly across the outside of her panties between her legs, she urgently reached down and slid her panties off, giving him full access to her nearly shaven pussy. She felt his hand lightly stroke the outside of her folds and her body arched.

“ Oh yes, Peter! Don’t stop, that feels soooo good. “ She murmured pressing herself against the hand that was giving her such pleasure.

 

[will68]

Peter raised his head from her breast and gazed at Amanda's reclining form. His eyes took in the hair spread over the pillow; the face with eyes half closed and the smile;the slender neck; the shoulders moving slightly as she pressed her groin against his hand; the mounds of her breasts peaking to her hard nipples; the flat stomach with its cute belly button; the curves of hip and legs; the crease where her legs joined; the curve of her open thighs. All of this was new and exciting to him.
he moved his lips back to her breast and then slowly kised his way down to her navel. Further and further down he brushed his lips until he could detect her female aroma emanating form that sweet valley where his habd was caressing.

As he moved his lips towards her pussy he raised his eyes and whispered, "Is this OK?"

 

[Tammi]

"Is this OK?"

“ Oh God, yes! “

Whatever Peter lacked in experience, she felt he made up for with his overwhelming desire to please her. She saw the blaze radiated in his eyes when his hands and lips traveled over her body, knowing he was arousing such pleasure in her.

When she felt his lips kiss the outside of her swollen lips, she encouraged him with a soft ecstatic moan. She arched pressing her pussy closer to his mouth and at the first feel of his heated tongue when he vaguely licked at her slit, she moaned again. Her head turned to the side, her eyes closed, her breathing rapid, and her hands were pinching at her nipples.

“ Oh Peter, you’re driving me crazy! “

 

[will68]

Peter was amazed and turned on by her reaction to his attention. He explored her with his tongue and was amazed at the different reaction he got from different places.
he was particularly thrilled when his tongue found a small hard protuberance at the top of her lips. He ran his tongue around it and sucked it into his mouth then did more action with his tongue. Then he lapped down that valley again, finding her entrance and pushed his tongue in as far as he could.
Her taste and her movement transmitted electricity to his groin and he knew he had never been this hard before. So when her hand grasped his cock again he groaned low in his throat.
Once more he raised his head and revelled in the sight of her....head turned to the side, eyes closed, breasts with their erect nipples and her legs parted in invitation.