Samuelx
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People, I've got something I want to share with you.
I've realized something about myself. All of my life, I felt different.
I was attracted to girls and boys but grew up in a system where it was taught that it's wrong to love someone of your own
gender. I realize that the deepest kind of love I've ever felt
was for a man. A man who now lives far away. I've had relations with both sexes. Sex is just sex. Love is a whole different matter.
I justified my actions with both sexes because I thought I could simply swing back and forth between the sexes. Be with a girl and then be with a guy. Sometimes, the woman in my life has been in the same room with the man in my life and not known it !
I'm single right now. I'm working on what I need to work on.
School. My upcoming book. My legal papers. Someday, I will have them.
I used to think that I would simply swing back between females and males and someday settle down with a female and lead a normal, comfortable life. That was very prejudiced and limited of me. I think that the person who will end up sharing my life
as my life partner could be a man. Even after I admitted to myself that I was a bisexual black man, and even after I had come out to a few people, I still refused to accept that someday
I might be with a man in a permanent relationship. A marriage.
Now, I don't feel that way.
I just want someone to love. If there's a woman out there who can love me and not try to hurt me and just want to be with me, that's okay. If I find a man and I love him and he loves me, then I will welcome him into my heart and we can build a life together.
I just wanted to share this with you.
I've realized something about myself. All of my life, I felt different.
I was attracted to girls and boys but grew up in a system where it was taught that it's wrong to love someone of your own
gender. I realize that the deepest kind of love I've ever felt
was for a man. A man who now lives far away. I've had relations with both sexes. Sex is just sex. Love is a whole different matter.
I justified my actions with both sexes because I thought I could simply swing back and forth between the sexes. Be with a girl and then be with a guy. Sometimes, the woman in my life has been in the same room with the man in my life and not known it !
I'm single right now. I'm working on what I need to work on.
School. My upcoming book. My legal papers. Someday, I will have them.
I used to think that I would simply swing back between females and males and someday settle down with a female and lead a normal, comfortable life. That was very prejudiced and limited of me. I think that the person who will end up sharing my life
as my life partner could be a man. Even after I admitted to myself that I was a bisexual black man, and even after I had come out to a few people, I still refused to accept that someday
I might be with a man in a permanent relationship. A marriage.
Now, I don't feel that way.
I just want someone to love. If there's a woman out there who can love me and not try to hurt me and just want to be with me, that's okay. If I find a man and I love him and he loves me, then I will welcome him into my heart and we can build a life together.
I just wanted to share this with you.
