NighttimeFling
Experienced
- Joined
- Oct 21, 2011
- Posts
- 81
First of all, to the Mods, sorry if I am putting in the wrong section. If it is wrong, just delete it. Dont bother moving it.
Secondly, to all those that read this, I am sorry. But I needed a public outlet where I don't know too many of y'all in the real world. I needed a place to write out my emotions and my journal is full. Once again I am sorry.
I never asked for perfection. I just wanted you.
I accepted all your flaws, because you seemed to accept mine.
I didnt want a storybook romance like they have. I wanted simplicity.
I wanted you to...
Hold my hand. Hold me tightly.
Make the first damn move. Dont depend on me to take charge.
I never complained all those times I was on my knees for you. I did it because I loved you.
Strangely enough I still do. Maybe because I am crazy or stupid or both.
Yet, I am not crazy enough to try it again. Not now, maybe never.
But you are still in my heart. Mainly because you were the first crush I ever acted on. You was first in everything. All you had to do was say the word and I would have gone all the way with you. No questions asked. That was probably silly of me but it is the truth.
Here I am, sad, lonely, and missing you. And all you can do is build a wall to block me out. Oh yeah, I noticed all low, rude comments you keeping throwing out there. I am too nice to say anything in front everybody. So I will keep smiling while mentally telling you to go fuck yourself. Why do I have to be so fucking nice to you?
Either way I hope you find happiness. I really do. Because I know I will eventually let go and move on. I will find someone who will erase every bad memory of you out of my heart and replace it with a glorious feelings of love and true devotion.
Okay, I feel better now!!! Feel free to ignore, comment, or flame me. I dont give a s*** what you do.
Goodnight Listers!!
Secondly, to all those that read this, I am sorry. But I needed a public outlet where I don't know too many of y'all in the real world. I needed a place to write out my emotions and my journal is full. Once again I am sorry.
I never asked for perfection. I just wanted you.
I accepted all your flaws, because you seemed to accept mine.
I didnt want a storybook romance like they have. I wanted simplicity.
I wanted you to...
Hold my hand. Hold me tightly.
Make the first damn move. Dont depend on me to take charge.
I never complained all those times I was on my knees for you. I did it because I loved you.
Strangely enough I still do. Maybe because I am crazy or stupid or both.
Yet, I am not crazy enough to try it again. Not now, maybe never.
But you are still in my heart. Mainly because you were the first crush I ever acted on. You was first in everything. All you had to do was say the word and I would have gone all the way with you. No questions asked. That was probably silly of me but it is the truth.
Here I am, sad, lonely, and missing you. And all you can do is build a wall to block me out. Oh yeah, I noticed all low, rude comments you keeping throwing out there. I am too nice to say anything in front everybody. So I will keep smiling while mentally telling you to go fuck yourself. Why do I have to be so fucking nice to you?
Either way I hope you find happiness. I really do. Because I know I will eventually let go and move on. I will find someone who will erase every bad memory of you out of my heart and replace it with a glorious feelings of love and true devotion.
Okay, I feel better now!!! Feel free to ignore, comment, or flame me. I dont give a s*** what you do.
Goodnight Listers!!