Drunk and disordelry

[Betticus]

Okay,

So far since the docs have said it's not my liver but a blood immunotology that is to blame I have experimented with drinking alcohol. I do not have even one positive thing to say about the whole experience even though i am stupid drunk right now. it feels like a loss of control, of self. I do not like it at all.

I'm going to have some dinner and watch a movie and sober up. Alcohol should be used as fuel, not a beverage.

 

[catalina_francisco]

I'm sorry you are having such a bad time with your health...doesn't seem fair. The good thing is you have found alcohol is not your friend and been smart enough to recognise that. Now all we have to hope for is that doctors can actually pinpoint the problem and fix it so you are back to your wonderful muscle bound cheekiness we adore.

Catalina

 

[Betticus]

I'm sorry you are having such a bad time with your health...doesn't seem fair. The good thing is you have found alcohol is not your friend and been smart enough to recognise that. Now all we have to hope for is that doctors can actually pinpoint the problem and fix it so you are back to your wonderful muscle bound cheekiness we adore.

Catalina

The sad thing is that I am so exhausted, so tired that I don't care about waking up anymore. I'm not suicidal or self destructive, I don't try to make it worse. There is just no joy anymore. everything feels old.

 

[Betticus]

in case anyone wonders. sometimes I wake up with strange bruises on my abdomen, black or purple ones like Ilve been shot or hit with a club. I have almost constant fatigue, I'm tired all of the time. I forget things. Except for a few moment in time during the day I just want to be held, hugged, cuddles and I want to fall asleep in the arms of someone who cares.


Sei la vie

 

[catalina_francisco]

The sad thing is that I am so exhausted, so tired that I don't care about waking up anymore. I'm not suicidal or self destructive, I don't try to make it worse. There is just no joy anymore. everything feels old.

If I were closer, I would offer to come give you a massage. Nothing worse than feeling tired all the time...and worse when you can't seem to do anything about it.

Catalina

 

[kiten69]

Except for a few moment in time during the day I just want to be held, hugged, cuddles and I want to fall asleep in the arms of someone who cares.

*sigh* I know how you feel. I have a queen size bed and would give nearly anything at times to have a special someone laying next to me. Holding me close, feeling his heartbeat against my back, his breath on my neck. Waking up in the same secure comfort of the night before. . .

Well that or I just need a smaller bed. . .

***Hugs, cuddles and belly rubs*** for you, you sexy beast!

 

[brioche]

in case anyone wonders. sometimes I wake up with strange bruises on my abdomen, black or purple ones like Ilve been shot or hit with a club. I have almost constant fatigue, I'm tired all of the time. I forget things. Except for a few moment in time during the day I just want to be held, hugged, cuddles and I want to fall asleep in the arms of someone who cares.


Sei la vie

Awww. Too bad you don't live closer, sweetie.
I know how frustrating it is to have health problems and not know what or why. I was relieved to finally get some answers, but depressed when I got the diagnosis of psoriatic arthritis...I had two weeks of depression over not being a relatively healthy person any more.
If you're getting big bruises you probably have anemia as a result as well as whatever they're figuring out. That will make you tired on top of whatever this is. It also can make you forgetful. Did they put you on iron pills? Trouble is they take 6 weeks to work...

 

[catalina_francisco]

Did they put you on iron pills? Trouble is they take 6 weeks to work...

Injections are quicker working...fortunately I didn't end up with the black spots they say some people wear for the rest of their life as a result of the injections.

Catalina

 

[myinnerslut]

big hug for you

i hope things start feeling better soon

 

[Yasashii_Kaze]

http://oh100.pc163.com.cn/teach/shucaiku/pic/gwmh-0042/big/hug.jpg
I'll hold you, Bett. I care.

 

[graceanne]

Okay,

So far since the docs have said it's not my liver but a blood immunotology that is to blame I have experimented with drinking alcohol. I do not have even one positive thing to say about the whole experience even though i am stupid drunk right now. it feels like a loss of control, of self. I do not like it at all.

I'm going to have some dinner and watch a movie and sober up. Alcohol should be used as fuel, not a beverage.

 

[kiten69]

*sings softly. . .somebody's in trouble. . .*

 

[Andraste]

isn't it bad that i want to kick you while you're down...

you've got my number if you ever need a sarcastic ear

 

[graceanne]

isn't it bad that i want to kick you while you're down...

you've got my number if you ever need a sarcastic ear

As if that isn't bad enough, now he's growing grass. *sigh*