Doomed!

cactiphile

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I'm doomed I tell ya. Dooooooooomed.

Something hit me last night like a slap in the face.

I like to be dominated and teased a bit by my lady wife
as part of our sex play, and I hadn't really thought too much
about why or where this came from.

Last night it hit me. My first semi-sexual experiences
were at the age of about 7-8. I had this 'girl friend;
who used to wear a sort of brown navel style uniform dress,
who used to dominate me and use me as a footstool
while I looked up her skirt.
I didnt know at the time why I was looking up her skirt
just that it was exciting for some reason. She had yellow
knickers :)

I haven't seen this girl for about 16 years now, but I still
dream about her at least once a month and think about every
so often in the daytime. I sort of can't escape her.

Am I doomed to repeat my first sexual experiences?

Do other people find their current sexual preferences are
'haunted' by their earliest childhood ones?


Cactiphile
 
You're doomed to get a W-I-D-E first post!

Accept it, you'll be better!

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I suppose you could see a psychiatrist.
Or.. maybe it's deeper then that. What if you let her use you as a footstool because you enjoyed that, too?
When I was about that age I had a friend that liked to pretend he was that slave girl in Return of the Jedi, the one that danced semi-nude for Jabba the Hutt and got eaten by the monster. ::laughs:: And we used to watch movies with that sort of gruesome stuff. It was exciting. I think that sort of desire is something your born with, or pick up at a very very early age.
 
It's a weird age for most people I believe. at 8 I was becoming sexually aware, and aroused, and I guess that what I enjoy in sex now has a lot to do with how I felt back then.

It's made me wonder now you've brought it up, I'm going to have to go and think about this!
 
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