I don't think I ever envisioned writing a personal ad in my life, but I guess sometimes the road twists and all you can do is either follow it or get cut to ribbons trying to avoid reality.
That being said - forgive me if I'm truly bad at this.
I'm 33 and been interested in BDSM, D/s all of my life although of course it was years before I could put words to it - and more years before I got over the initial sense of shame and stigma that go with it, in other words before I could accept it in myself. As a woman with self-respect figuring out that I'm a sub was something like a shock to my system.
Despite the fact that I have been interested for years and know people involved in the practice I've never really been in this sort of relationship, either online or IRL, and its left a part of me hollow, I think, as if there's something just plain missing.
I should put the disclaimer here so that I get right past the depressing parts: My life is a mess. I won't lie about that, it wouldn't be fair. I have a variety of medical conditions that make every aspect of my life tricky to manage. More than that is personal and I'd rather share it on an individual basis to people who earn my trust.
Personally - outside of my sexual interests - I enjoy reading, a variety of gaming (table top, online play by post RP, video games), writing of course, politics, philosophy, debate...anything that is intellectually engaging.
My kinks are hard to define practically since the fantasy and the reality are far apart and I've had little practical experience so that's another conversation I think best left to one-on-one where actual explanations can be given and responses received.
What I'm looking for is equally difficult to define - an male Dom, online at least at first; I'm not adverse to the idea of something spilling into the real world but I do want to be careful. Someone I can talk to first, learn about and let them learn about me - and see if something develops beyond that. I prefer to chat via messengers, and right now while I have Skype/AIM/Trillian the last allows me to add nearly anything. Vid chat is something I prefer to ease towards since I can be initially very shy with new people.
That being said - forgive me if I'm truly bad at this.
I'm 33 and been interested in BDSM, D/s all of my life although of course it was years before I could put words to it - and more years before I got over the initial sense of shame and stigma that go with it, in other words before I could accept it in myself. As a woman with self-respect figuring out that I'm a sub was something like a shock to my system.
Despite the fact that I have been interested for years and know people involved in the practice I've never really been in this sort of relationship, either online or IRL, and its left a part of me hollow, I think, as if there's something just plain missing.
I should put the disclaimer here so that I get right past the depressing parts: My life is a mess. I won't lie about that, it wouldn't be fair. I have a variety of medical conditions that make every aspect of my life tricky to manage. More than that is personal and I'd rather share it on an individual basis to people who earn my trust.
Personally - outside of my sexual interests - I enjoy reading, a variety of gaming (table top, online play by post RP, video games), writing of course, politics, philosophy, debate...anything that is intellectually engaging.
My kinks are hard to define practically since the fantasy and the reality are far apart and I've had little practical experience so that's another conversation I think best left to one-on-one where actual explanations can be given and responses received.
What I'm looking for is equally difficult to define - an male Dom, online at least at first; I'm not adverse to the idea of something spilling into the real world but I do want to be careful. Someone I can talk to first, learn about and let them learn about me - and see if something develops beyond that. I prefer to chat via messengers, and right now while I have Skype/AIM/Trillian the last allows me to add nearly anything. Vid chat is something I prefer to ease towards since I can be initially very shy with new people.
