SlaveMasterUK
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OK, kinda wierd/difficult question to phrase I think...
I was working late last night until the early hours working on my novel. I was writing a simple summarising scene in which my main character is reflecting on the past year: much of her reflection is on her love for her partner, and how this has grown and developed, and how it helps her get by, day by day.
I really enjoy writing this kind of scene. I love going deep inside my character's mind, and pulling out all those little things that she loves about her companion. As I write about her imagining herself gazing at her lover's body, or caressing her as they fall asleep together, I can feel those little pangs of excitement, the warming of the heart, the unquenchable glow of love in myself. And damn, it feels good.
It's the first scene of that nature that I've written for some time, and I really enjoyed it. But I woke up feeling lonely, and that feeling hasn't gone away all day. I don't normally stress or moan about the single life, and I don't let it get to me that I've been without a partner for a little while now. I keep getting those little self-depreciating questions popping up, like - why haven't I got a partner? Why aren't girls attracted to me? Worse still, I'm getting the envious questions too - what does that girl see in her boyfriend, why does he deserve her and not me..?
I have to keep kicking myself and saying "STOP BEING SO FUCKING STUPID, YOU MORON!" I keep reminding myself that it's just a wierd mood shift, and that I'll feel alright soon enough.
But I keep thinking to myself - last night I fell asleep still dwelling on that warm glow I got from writing a tender scene, and this morning, when I awoke, it was gone. Gone, probably, because it wasn't a true feeling at all, only the recollection of one.
Does anyone else find that writing certain scenes or types of scene can affect your moods over the following day? Any kind of scene - perhaps you get grouchy the day after you write a scene set on a golden beach in glorious sunshine, when you realise you've got to go to work in the rain and wind? Perhaps you find yourself feeling sexually frustrated after writing a sex scene between two perfect romantic characters?*
Gimme thoughts and examples. And please, don't give me advice re: my loneliness - it's just a passing phase. I'll be fine tomorrow
*A reader once told me she stopped reading my novel because she was jealous of the characters, because they were getting what she wanted and couldn't have

I was working late last night until the early hours working on my novel. I was writing a simple summarising scene in which my main character is reflecting on the past year: much of her reflection is on her love for her partner, and how this has grown and developed, and how it helps her get by, day by day.
I really enjoy writing this kind of scene. I love going deep inside my character's mind, and pulling out all those little things that she loves about her companion. As I write about her imagining herself gazing at her lover's body, or caressing her as they fall asleep together, I can feel those little pangs of excitement, the warming of the heart, the unquenchable glow of love in myself. And damn, it feels good.
It's the first scene of that nature that I've written for some time, and I really enjoyed it. But I woke up feeling lonely, and that feeling hasn't gone away all day. I don't normally stress or moan about the single life, and I don't let it get to me that I've been without a partner for a little while now. I keep getting those little self-depreciating questions popping up, like - why haven't I got a partner? Why aren't girls attracted to me? Worse still, I'm getting the envious questions too - what does that girl see in her boyfriend, why does he deserve her and not me..?
I have to keep kicking myself and saying "STOP BEING SO FUCKING STUPID, YOU MORON!" I keep reminding myself that it's just a wierd mood shift, and that I'll feel alright soon enough.
But I keep thinking to myself - last night I fell asleep still dwelling on that warm glow I got from writing a tender scene, and this morning, when I awoke, it was gone. Gone, probably, because it wasn't a true feeling at all, only the recollection of one.
Does anyone else find that writing certain scenes or types of scene can affect your moods over the following day? Any kind of scene - perhaps you get grouchy the day after you write a scene set on a golden beach in glorious sunshine, when you realise you've got to go to work in the rain and wind? Perhaps you find yourself feeling sexually frustrated after writing a sex scene between two perfect romantic characters?*
Gimme thoughts and examples. And please, don't give me advice re: my loneliness - it's just a passing phase. I'll be fine tomorrow

*A reader once told me she stopped reading my novel because she was jealous of the characters, because they were getting what she wanted and couldn't have

