Desperation

[Dumba]

I guess when one is desparate nothing seems to work. I have been wanting to explore my sexual fantasies and learn more about sex and I guess at the age of 35 it is too late. One lesson learned in just one week after joining this site. I am not frustrated I am just realizing that only time will tell or as the old saying goes what is meant to be will happen. Any ladies or man out there who have gone through this spell where you are so honest about yourself and your feelings and you return empty handed. It is not like hunting in that era when the bush was fertile with all the wild animals. The human jungle has become more sophisticated as time goes by now internet courtship gives me and others that ego boost! I do not know what tricks I need to learn to get some serious friendship or relationship developing. I guess it takes two to tango and like a golf swing the timing has to be right otherwise I am either slicing or hooking, topping even shanking lol even laughing at myself. Thought would share with you guys that it is not easy out there even in this enviroment where one assumes you can get easily get anything you want. I am having a great time though at least my creativity with words is coming back and finding it easier to express myself. Have a good night !

Kaya
In Ontario

 

[hook848]

Hello Dumba and welcome to Lit.

I found this place about a year ago and it has opened my eyes to quite a bit. Nothing that shocked me but definitley a few things I had only imagined.

And its not to late for anything. I'm 36 and actually have more to look forward to than what's in the past. People do meet in real life after meeting here so anythings possible. I wouldn't mind getting together with a few of the ladies on these boards.

Desperation is not something most people find attractive though. Being confident and being yourself is the only thing you'll need to make friends here. So again welcome and happy hunting.

Hook

 

[Dumba]

aware

That desperation does not get you anywhere. Nice to know one soul out there understood

Dumba

 

[wildwesty]

Again, welcome. As a younger guy, this site really opened my eyes to everything that is out there. I have had lots of questions answered and been able to answer lots of them too. If you really want to make that leap into a serious relationship, work on losing the desperation and get your confidence back. There is something about a person that knows what they want and is not afraid to be let down, a person that walks with their head held high staring life in the face, a person that can fall off the bike and get right back up again. Women like confident men, as I have been told on more than 1 occasion, and men like confident women so it works both ways. In time, I'm sure things will work out your way though! Have a great day!

 

[Dumba]

thanks

Never thought I lacked self confidence thanks for your contribution I wish ladies will write something on this
Will interesting to hear their side of the story

Dumba

 

[sweetrapturedlight]

hi

I am 36 and a female and came to this site last November. I am not desperate but find I am lonely. My friends don't share my views and have their own things to do so I come here and post my stories and chat and answer personals..I have found that at 36, I'm more open with myself, I understand things better, and I'm very honest about everything. I am all about exploring one's sexuality. I think this site is great. There are so many different views and it's nice to share them with everyone..

Chelle

 

[Dumba]

the right words

See I am getting clarity all the way. Yes it is loneliness and it is not desparation wow thank you Here is how I expressed myself in my poem before I even came to this sight I used to write a lot! Let's communicate and share maybe that snall window will open until I find that friend who can really understand and willing to share who I am Read ON

 

[sweetrapturedlight]

hello

very nice poem...I really enjoyed it. I have written poetry about wanting someone and not being so alone...it's called The Knight..


I am sad, tis true
Something I cannot hide
For the tears do show.
For all the world to see
I am melancholy.
I have no hope
I have no dreams
I have no love
I lost it,
It seems.

To find love
Is but to dream
And dream I have
Of you,
My knight.

With strength
Unparallel to none
So finer
Looks beyond comparison
Who is the wiser?

Would you break my heart
Like so many have
Or would you hold me dearly
To your naked breast?

Would you love me
With lust
Passion
Or fury?

Would you trust me
Guide me
Help me through life's miseries?

Would you fight for me
Ease my mind
Take a stand
Against my foes?

Would you slay the beast
That cast it's spell
Would you bring heaven
To my hell?


Just thought I'd share

Have a great day!!

Chelle

 

[me oscar]

rapture...a pm for you

 

[Dumba]

Can I be your knight

Yes lets dance with words for a while and let emotions role and share this precious moment Chelle you are precious and I wil be your knight in words for now as we dive into emotions that we both know will make us grow!
Enjoying every second of this keep writing

 

[sweetrapturedlight]

hi again

A journey
Soul searching
Loneliness

Wanting
Longing
Waiting

Looking for someone
To ease the emptiness
Fill the soul

With soft spoken words
A kind thought
Sharing emotions

Life's greatest token
Friendship


That's what i came up with

Chelle

 

[Dumba]

can we make it for real

Impressive sure loneliness drives you into a place in your heart where those hidden feelings will come out within the right enviroment.

 

[Dumba]

amazing stuff

You are amazing Chelle in my heart somewhere I have a strong feeling there is someone out there ready to find you! I am sure that moment will happen someday to you. Your amazing way of expressing what you are longing for is powerful, who would marry someone like you and leave you lonely! I guess such is life I hope through this journey some nice things have happened in your life

Thank you for dancing with me

Dumba

 

[Ammo44]

Re: hi again

A journey
Soul searching
Loneliness

Wanting
Longing
Waiting

Looking for someone
To ease the emptiness
Fill the soul

With soft spoken words
A kind thought
Sharing emotions

Life's greatest token
Friendship


That's what i came up with

Chelle

Chelle.........both poems are excellent!! Please post more as you create...

 

[Dumba]

opening my heart to you

I am opening my heart to you maybe there is light at the end of the tunnel . I am so scared of recoiling into my shell again for I know how that pain feels like. Here I am Chelle searching for those emotions that I would otherwise deal in a different manner.

 

[sweetrapturedlight]

Changing

We learn from our life's obstacles. It makes us stronger and also makes us a better person, inside and out. I have dealt with many things in my life and there are some things I can change and some I can't and I've learned to accept that.

I think that with age comes a better understanding of the world we live in, our surroundings, our sexuality. I am an open and honest person, sometimes people get hurt because I am very honest..I don't mean to hurt anyone and yet I will never lie, what's the point in that? The world is so chaotic and yet love is everywhere, it's just a matter of finding it and cherishing it..and let it grow.. the same with friendship..no one should be lonely.


Chelle

By the way, ammo, thanks for your kind words...I tend to write about love alot...

 

[Dumba]

no one should be lonely

It is very true Chelle that no one should not be lonely I wish it was that simple. That knawing of seeking tender touch of being validated in a certain way makes seek partnership that helps us fullfill our human needs.

And in the process we ran into all kinds of problems we get hurt or we can find the love of our life. Sometimes we compromise and take what is available but given time we can never be able to surpress those needs that we end up calling fantasises for I believe they are real both in our mind and emotions. I guess to a certain extent that is why we are all here to satisfy a certain need. Or a knowing entity within our soul that needs fulfilment. How we learn from it, is another level.

I have learned a lot in my life too but I want to share who I am with someone I can grow to love and develop together! Sometimes love becomes stale and lacks an creativity of any personal vitality which I feel I end up stuck sometimes hence creates the loneliness I feel.

I hope you are doing well! One question though what does it take for anyone to find a way to your heart? And sometines when one falls in love do we process all these emotions that we are discussing now or the instinctive nature of being wanted ina certain way takes over and clouds us from looking at the whole picture!

Dumba

 

[sweetrapturedlight]

Finding a way to one's heart

For me, it's been difficult because I don't fall easily and my heart I tend not to give up..not because I don't want to, I have given my heart and married but in the end, got hurt and am going through some painful stuff right now...

I'd like to be able to trust someone and to love someone again..it just takes time and I need to heal most of my wounds...

I love creative people, I'm drawn to that, as I, myself, am creative. I like an honest, open minded person, who isn't afraid to share what they are feeling no matter if it seems silly or not...

Hope that helps a bit

Chelle

 

[Dumba]

how long have you been hurting

So how long have you been hurting? Coming out here sharing is it helping in any way Or you are still protecting yourself in a shell?

Dumba

 

[sweetrapturedlight]

Opening up

Opening up has helped. I'm still finding that I'm lonely. I like to get out and do things like go clubbing but my friends are fuddy duddies...LOL...I could go by myself.

I'm healing. My marriage wasn't all that great to begin with but I tried to keep it together...I hate Failure...I feel like I failed yet again...I know it's not entirely my fault, however, still feel like it is...I was married for 10 yrs...in today's world, that's quite a bit of time...should have called it quits after 6 months but I gave him another chance...silly me

Chelle

 

[docsnore]

Re: Opening up

Opening up has helped. I'm still finding that I'm lonely. I like to get out and do things like go clubbing but my friends are fuddy duddies...LOL...I could go by myself.

I'm healing. My marriage wasn't all that great to begin with but I tried to keep it together...I hate Failure...I feel like I failed yet again...I know it's not entirely my fault, however, still feel like it is...I was married for 10 yrs...in today's world, that's quite a bit of time...should have called it quits after 6 months but I gave him another chance...silly me

Chelle

Well Sweet, not to try and top you cause i'm not trying, but after 23 years and she walks away from everything, and had secretly messed up every bill, i felt and feel like a fool and failure. Not to have seen things better. So lighten up on your self and realize that you don't always have control of your own situations and the ones we trust the most can and sometimes do abuse that trust. We end up shocked and lonely. I understand you, and give yo ua hug of support! ((((((Sweet)))))))) You;re not alone, and there is where you can get the strenght to overcome the pain.
Doc

 

[JDredd711]

Re: hi

I am 36 and a female and came to this site last November. I am not desperate but find I am lonely. My friends don't share my views and have their own things to do so I come here and post my stories and chat and answer personals..I have found that at 36, I'm more open with myself, I understand things better, and I'm very honest about everything. I am all about exploring one's sexuality. I think this site is great. There are so many different views and it's nice to share them with everyone..

Chelle

i know just how you feel. i'm amazed that i can live in a house full of people and still feel lonely. nice to know there are others out there that feel the same.

thank you for commenting. and i love your avatar. gorgeous.

JD

 

[sweetrapturedlight]

ty doc and jd

I know it's hard being married all those years, doc...I know others went through a great deal more than I and I'm not sad or hurt all the time..I do smile sometimes.

JD, thanks. Loneliness is hard, it's not about sex, it's about friendship and being around other people...I miss that.

Have a great night!!

Chelle

 

[JDredd711]

i know what both of you mean. after almost 20 years of marriage, she tells me she doesn't want to be married anymore. we're still trying to patch things up, but it gets tougher with every argument.

nice to know i'm not alone going thru this.

 

[Dumba]

interesting

My question why do we choose to be lonely in a room full of people? Why does it end up that way? I completely understand what you are saying but in order for us to heal what do we need to do? Besides realizing the fact that we are lonely?
What can be your next step? Sometimes I ask myself am I a victim of myself choosing to live in this situation despite having tried everything!

I would love to hear how you are addressing these questions

Dumba