Depression. Anxiety. Panic Attacks. etc

[Quoll]

I'm so depressed tonight I can't do anything but cry.......

{{{{{{{{{{{Peg}}}}}}}}}}}}Peg hon, if that`s all you can do then that is fine, it`s not such a bad thing, you will feel better afterwards and you should sleep ok too, just let it all go, it will stop.

 

[JustSkye]

I'm so depressed tonight I can't do anything but cry.......

I know it seems bad babydoll. And you just feel awful. But let yourself cry. I have been doing it lots too. Even at the drop of a hat. I feel most times I just cannot stop. I think I'd rather just lay down and stay there and never get up. But we care about you. We don't want anything to happen to you.

And when we cry, its our bodies way of telling us it's feeling things, hurting, and you're alive. It's when you're absolutely numb to everything that it gets terribly frightening. If you need someone to talk to, I'll be here for you. Just let me know.

 

[Shotokan07]

Feeling numb is the worst. Take it from me. I've been doing it for a long time. Out of the whole year, I have one day (St. Pats) where I end up getting drunk and cry about my father. The point isn't about I get drunk because of my father, but about crying. It gives me this good feeling afterwards. Its like crying til you fall asleep. ...Best feeling.

Hope everyone feels good today.

~

 

[JustSkye]

Feeling numb is the worst. Take it from me. I've been doing it for a long time. Out of the whole year, I have one day (St. Pats) where I end up getting drunk and cry about my father. The point isn't about I get drunk because of my father, but about crying. It gives me this good feeling afterwards. Its like crying til you fall asleep. ...Best feeling.

Hope everyone feels good today.

~

 

[Quoll]

When did that happen, when did I stop seeing ahead, cant even see tomorrow let alone the future.
Just feel like this bubble is getting smaller and smaller, got to break out some how, but it is very comfortable in here.

 

[Shotokan07]

That is definitely me. But I wouldn't use the bubble analogy. However, you're new AV. You see that bright light? If you see it from the darkness, it only looks like a small dot of bright light... on the contrast, looking from the bright light to the darkness, it looks very bright.

Very good AV. Do you by any chance have the full screen version? I would love to have that as my wallpaper.

 

[Quoll]

That is definitely me. But I wouldn't use the bubble analogy. However, you're new AV. You see that bright light? If you see it from the darkness, it only looks like a small dot of bright light... on the contrast, looking from the bright light to the darkness, it looks very bright.

Very good AV. Do you by any chance have the full screen version? I would love to have that as my wallpaper.

I used the bubble analogy, as I can still see what`s happening, but not really feeling a part of it. I guess it`s better than blank walls.

The av was a one off. However here is a larger version, the light is further back in the corner, but it looks good as a wallpaper.

 

[MercyMia]

Mia... that was the best advice I ever got in my life... thank you. I will definitely remember it for the rest of my life.


Now... for today's news. This day out of the rest of the year, for the last 17-18 years has been the worst day of my life. It is a great day for all the Irish decendants, don't get me wrong, but for me... it bring nothing but sadness.

Ugh... fuck this. *Going back to drinking*


Will talk about it later...

Cheers...

Hey Shotokan, I'm sorry you had a bad St. Paddy's Day. I hope you're feeling more lighthearted today.

Hugs,
Mia

 

[MercyMia]

Looks to have some good info for anybody willing to learn.

DepNet

Society

Help for depression

Help for relatives

DepNet Community

About depression

Thank you, quoll...another place for me to learn from. I'm getting so tired of walking on eggshells with my husband who is still depressed but won't get professional help. He acts pleasant on most days but beneath that thin veneer lie many landmines and all I have to do is say the wrong word and he explodes...

 

[MercyMia]

I'm so depressed tonight I can't do anything but cry.......

I'm really sorry to hear that, babydoll. Sometimes it's good to cry and relieve the pent up emotions. Just leave some energy so you can get up tomorrow and start fresh.

Hugs to you,
Mia

 

[Quoll]

Thank you, quoll...another place for me to learn from. I'm getting so tired of walking on eggshells with my husband who is still depressed but won't get professional help. He acts pleasant on most days but beneath that thin veneer lie many landmines and all I have to do is say the wrong word and he explodes...

Thank you, Mia.....you want to learn, you are not closed minded, as many others are.
*sigh* I wish I could offer some help on your landmines, but from personal experience, we may not even know the triggers ourselves until we hear it, plus it is constantly changing, what set us off one day will have no effect the next.
I hope one day he will be able to see that "this" is not the person he used to be. Perhaps then he may try to bring back what has been lost.


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When will people realise that this damned illness is as varied as life itself, and that one or two peoples experiences (good, bad or otherwise) do not encompass the whole sphere of depression, but just one infinitesimal part.

Depression can range from constanly feeling slighty sad, to quite happily putting a gun to your head.
The medications used, run to basically the same scale, some do nothing at all, others help wonderfully and then there are those that multiply symptons tenfold and bring about true psychosis.

 

[Shotokan07]

Hey Shotokan, I'm sorry you had a bad St. Paddy's Day. I hope you're feeling more lighthearted today.

Hugs,
Mia

Hey Mia, thanks for the concerns. Unfortunately, every St. Pat's is a bad day for me...

How's everyone doing?

Sorry I haven't been around, had to take care of a friend.

Comment/Suggestions:

This friend of mine (Let's call him, patient X)
Stats: 14 years old, oldest son of two, very bright kid
Bio: Chinese/Caribean, his father lost 18 year old daughter when he (X) was 5. Kinda scrawny, thin, quiet, weak.

I don't know if it has anything to do with his father, but the father usually gets a little aggressive when the son doesn't listen to him. Basically one minded ideas (father's) which must be followed.

Anyways, this kid has been coming to karate for a couple of years now, that's how I know him. He isn't big or grow into one (like I did), but he has the flexibility and speed on his side. He is very bright and intelligent. His past time is reading books (which I can never do). Recently he's been slacking off, cutting school, sleeping more. Parents thought he was having a bad influence, but found that he has no influence. He doesn't hang out with anybody, but goes to Barnes&Nobles and reads books, literally. He has went to couple of psychology-therapist, and they can't happen to break him. He always has the right words for them to hear. Yesterday, his father once again found out that he hasn't gone to school for the last month. They got into an arguement and got into a fist fight. Prior to that, the mother breaks the fight and the kid walks out.

I know the father pretty well, and he is not the abusive type of father. Anyways, I was notified that he walked out, so I immediately went to search for him. His mom told me that he'd be in Barnes&Noble... I really thought that he won't be there because that'd be the first place his parents would look for and also... I assumed he wouldn't go in search for books at this time (my mistake). He was in Barnes&Noble, his cousin found him there before me.

When I finally met up with them, the cousin let me know that he found him in the youth section reading about youth problems. (Smart, hmm?) -Was he really trying to find out what's wrong with him or was he trying to articulate the answers that would free him when he gets caught? Nonetheless, very smart.

Concerned, because for one he sounds like the little version of me, I ask him what is wrong with him, why is he doing this, what is his goal, what does want to do, etc. For all of it, it was "I don't know & I don't care". He is sad, that for a fact. But what's wrong?

Can anybody give me some feedback?

 

[Quoll]

Australia's entertainment industry was in mourning today for former Crowded House drummer Paul Hester who hanged himself in a Melbourne park.

The 46-year-old father-of-two was found dead at Elsternwick Park in Brighton on Saturday afternoon, after last being seen walking his two dogs on Friday evening.

Neil Finn, who formed Crowded House with Hester after they played together in Split Enz, today spoke of his grief at losing one of his best friends.

Finn and his brother Tim have reportedly cancelled performances at London's Royal Albert Hall to travel to Melbourne to be with friends.

"I am deeply saddened by the loss of a close friend," the former Crowded House frontman said from London.

Hester played in several Melbourne bands before Finn gave him his big break with Split Enz in 1983.

The pair formed Crowded House with bassist Nick Seymour in the mid-1980s and went on to notch up a string of hits in Australia and overseas, including Don't Dream It's Over and Something So Strong.

Music historian Glenn A Baker today said Hester was a born entertainer.


"He was just one of those guys who filled a stage," Baker said.
"He was an active musician. He was much admired. He was well liked and will be very, very sorely missed."

Hester was known for his crazy on-stage antics but there have been suggestions the drummer struggled with depression.

Entertainment reporter Richard Wilkins said he enjoyed a working relationship with Hester, particularly during the Crowded House days.

"I was a big fan and liked him enormously," Wilkins said.

"He was just a great guy and it would appear that he is another one of those witty, funny guys who obviously had some sort of equal and opposite depressed side that he was dealing with."

Hester quit Crowded House in 1994, two years before the band broke up, reinventing himself as a drummer-for-hire in Melbourne and owner of an Elwood Beach tea-house.

He had his own music chat show, Hessie's Shed, on ABC TV in the late 1990s, and was most recently the host of MusicMax Sessions on Foxtel.

He lived in the Melbourne suburb of Elwood with his girlfriend Mardi Somerfeld and their two daughters, aged eight and 10.

Metropolitan Ambulance Service spokeswoman Liraje Memishi today said ambulance officers arrived at Elsternwick Park on Saturday afternoon, and reported Hester had "attempted suicide" and suffered "strangulation".

It is believed his body was found hanging from a tree.

Ambulance officers declared Hester dead about 20 minutes after they reached the park.

Crowded House fans flooded websites to express their sadness today.

"He is the one memory I have from skipping school when I was 15 to go to a soundcheck on the 'Enz with a Bang' tour," one fan wrote on the frenz.com website.

"The only thing I remember about that day is Paul, wearing pointy black suede boots, black jeans and a bright pink shirt, which he lifted to flash his stomach and chest at me."

Another fan, Dean, said he felt as though he had lost a member of his own family.

"Feels like I lost a part of my family," the Crowded House devotee said.

"I know the last few years of Crowded House were hard on him (Hester), but I figured everything since was going all right."

 

[Quoll]

Hey Mia, thanks for the concerns. Unfortunately, every St. Pat's is a bad day for me...

How's everyone doing?

Sorry I haven't been around, had to take care of a friend.

Comment/Suggestions:

This friend of mine (Let's call him, patient X)
Stats: 14 years old, oldest son of two, very bright kid
Bio: Chinese/Caribean, his father lost 18 year old daughter when he (X) was 5. Kinda scrawny, thin, quiet, weak.

I don't know if it has anything to do with his father, but the father usually gets a little aggressive when the son doesn't listen to him. Basically one minded ideas (father's) which must be followed.

Anyways, this kid has been coming to karate for a couple of years now, that's how I know him. He isn't big or grow into one (like I did), but he has the flexibility and speed on his side. He is very bright and intelligent. His past time is reading books (which I can never do). Recently he's been slacking off, cutting school, sleeping more. Parents thought he was having a bad influence, but found that he has no influence. He doesn't hang out with anybody, but goes to Barnes&Nobles and reads books, literally. He has went to couple of psychology-therapist, and they can't happen to break him. He always has the right words for them to hear. Yesterday, his father once again found out that he hasn't gone to school for the last month. They got into an arguement and got into a fist fight. Prior to that, the mother breaks the fight and the kid walks out.

I know the father pretty well, and he is not the abusive type of father. Anyways, I was notified that he walked out, so I immediately went to search for him. His mom told me that he'd be in Barnes&Noble... I really thought that he won't be there because that'd be the first place his parents would look for and also... I assumed he wouldn't go in search for books at this time (my mistake). He was in Barnes&Noble, his cousin found him there before me.

When I finally met up with them, the cousin let me know that he found him in the youth section reading about youth problems. (Smart, hmm?) -Was he really trying to find out what's wrong with him or was he trying to articulate the answers that would free him when he gets caught? Nonetheless, very smart.

Concerned, because for one he sounds like the little version of me, I ask him what is wrong with him, why is he doing this, what is his goal, what does want to do, etc. For all of it, it was "I don't know & I don't care". He is sad, that for a fact. But what's wrong?

Can anybody give me some feedback?

Sho, he certainly sounds like a very smart kid, and yeah I understand the "little version" too, it sounds very familiar.
I would suggest to just be a friend he can talk to, don`t try to get anything out of him, let him get around to it in his own time, I suspect if he is pushed you will get the same sort of results that the therapists got.
"I don`t know and I don`t care" How many of us are still saying that!
Good luck.

 

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[Shotokan07]

Thanks quoll. I've actually decide to go your route. He'll end up throwing me in with his parents and just put a wall infront of me. I don't want that from him, but I don't want him to also see that I am here to help him. It'll be hard for me with my own cases of problems, but another life in my hands to be helped might direct myself to the right direction...

Recent news, I found out by an old highschool friend that a girl that I grew up in Highschool with commited suicide. I was in shock and complete awe to hear about her. She was the smart type in school, and very popular as well. She was known in the journalism field and also a very demanding english student. I've always wanted to know her more and also be-friend her, but low-self-esteemed myself not to. Now I feel sorry that I couldn't be a part of her life to change this happening. I later spoke to one of my friends who was very close to her. She had been secretly medicating herself for Bipolar D/O. Financially, her styphen was taken away from her on the last year of her class and she panicked. Her mother and father split up, and she lived with her mother for awhile. Then she and her mother disagreed on things in life I guess, and so she moved out and started to struggle for a living... I guess she had lost all hopes of living, because she couldn't see how to survive...

A smart girl like her didn't deserve this.

Damn... melancholy floats like a river around me.

 

[Ibsen]

I'm so depressed tonight I can't do anything but cry.......

Atleast you can cry, I cannot even do that, as I do not see what good it would do for my situation...

I live in a familly with one mother and 2, sometimes 3 brothers, and I still feel really lonely I want to run away and sign up as a sailor on a freight or something, but is stopped by the fact that I lack the proper education.

I also get so tired to hear my mother whining on about money that dad gonna pay and bla bla bla. I dont give a SHIT about that, the same goes for my younger brother who is old enough to understand anything of it. I also realizes that my mother have a need to talk to someone about it, but then I´d suggest she´d talk it over with her own friends.

I try to think positivly, but as soon as I open a news-paper I can read something about how bad and evil men are eritten by a feminist-bi#ch that probably havent had sex for a whery long time, I find it kinda hard. The same goes when I turning on the TV, sweden is just as bad when it comes to equalness between sexes as taliban Afghanistan, they claim. Yet, I´ve read a serious english article about a swedish politician that gonna start a feminist-party (read: Nazi-party... :-/ ) that states that sweden is among the world-leading when it coems to eqvalness. What a strange world...

Something that has "helped" me in my depression is that when I was at the draft-office, I got a section 8 (technicly, officially it is called educational reserve, wich means that if sweden ever enters a war, then I will be called in). I gonna join the Home Guard, but it still is humiliating that people half my weight and strength get to be rangers (Not that I want to be a ranger, but you get my point).

Nah... Just feel really down.

*Edit*

I AM melancholy itself.

 

[Quoll]

Must be the fucking day for it huh

 

[Bandit58]

My mother suffers from anxiety and panic attacks. She is taking oxazepam which I know is a tranquilliser and is addictive but she tries only to take it in very small doses as needed.

My father passed away almost two weeks ago and what with the funeral and everything she has been very stressed, so has been taking a bit more than she usually does. I am staying with her for a few days and she has told me she has had a couple of panic attacks since the funeral. I have had them before a couple of times myself, both times during a visit to the dentist (not one of my favourite places ) A friend of mine gave me a couple of polished white quartz crystals to hold in my hand the next time I went and they certainly had a calming effect. Also used them on my first plane trip to meet Gil and was much calmer during takeoff and landing than I thought I would be.

This morning I got up and found Mum sitting in her chair. She said she felt like she was having palpitations and was going to have another panic attack. I went to my bag and gave her the two crystals I had in the side pocket. Almost immediately she said she noticed her heart slowing and she was able to breathe more normally. She sat there holding the crystals for about 20 minutes until she felt ok again. She did not have to take any of the tranquilliser.

I'm leaving the crystals with her, she needs them more than I do right now. People might scoff at the idea of a couple of polished stones being able to have that effect on the body but I've seen it work And if it avoids the need to take drugs then it'll be better for her health.....

 

[Quoll]

My mother suffers from anxiety and panic attacks. She is taking oxazepam which I know is a tranquilliser and is addictive but she tries only to take it in very small doses as needed.

My father passed away almost two weeks ago and what with the funeral and everything she has been very stressed, so has been taking a bit more than she usually does. I am staying with her for a few days and she has told me she has had a couple of panic attacks since the funeral. I have had them before a couple of times myself, both times during a visit to the dentist (not one of my favourite places ) A friend of mine gave me a couple of polished white quartz crystals to hold in my hand the next time I went and they certainly had a calming effect. Also used them on my first plane trip to meet Gil and was much calmer during takeoff and landing than I thought I would be.

This morning I got up and found Mum sitting in her chair. She said she felt like she was having palpitations and was going to have another panic attack. I went to my bag and gave her the two crystals I had in the side pocket. Almost immediately she said she noticed her heart slowing and she was able to breathe more normally. She sat there holding the crystals for about 20 minutes until she felt ok again. She did not have to take any of the tranquilliser.

I'm leaving the crystals with her, she needs them more than I do right now. People might scoff at the idea of a couple of polished stones being able to have that effect on the body but I've seen it work And if it avoids the need to take drugs then it'll be better for her health.....

Thanks Bandit, I understand the pain of losing a parent/s so I will keep you in my thoughts, as I know there is nothing one can say to ease the pain.

A very good friend gave me an amethyst crystal last week, I am somewhat sceptical about these things but after reading your post I will give it a try, after all if nothing else, the very fact that it is a gift from someone who cares
can make one feel better.
Thank you.

 

[Ibsen]

@Bandit58: My condoleances (spell). I havent lost a parent so I dont know what you are going through.

@Quoll: Did I say something wrong?

I recently got this headech...

 

[Quoll]

@Bandit58: My condoleances (spell). I havent lost a parent so I dont know what you are going through.

@Quoll: Did I say something wrong?

I recently got this headech...

Ibsen, no you said nothing wrong my friend, I just happened to post at a very bad time for me.
I had no real words I could say at the time, so I just posted for me.
You are not alone in your melancholy.

 

[Ibsen]

Ok, I know how it is.

It´s just that... I have NO idea what I want to work with after school. The education I attend on dont give me the jobs I want to have... Not that I can choose... I sometimes want to be a chef, another time a police officer, yet another I want to work as a salesman in a sport-store. I have no clue! I might go on a chef-education after school. If there is any such. Dunno. I know a girl who is chef, gonna call her now actually.

 

[sxylegs]

Ok, I know how it is.

It´s just that... I have NO idea what I want to work with after school. The education I attend on dont give me the jobs I want to have... Not that I can choose... I sometimes want to be a chef, another time a police officer, yet another I want to work as a salesman in a sport-store. I have no clue! I might go on a chef-education after school. If there is any such. Dunno. I know a girl who is chef, gonna call her now actually.

Hi.....since you dont know what you want to do.....maybe just try what they have to offer......you never know.......you may like it......or if you dont ....then you have some experience in something........it is really hard to get a job without some sort of experience....

Good luck in whatever you do!!!

 

[Shotokan07]

Heh... I had to trigger that word.