I don't know why I really posted this here. Not even sure why I'm here. I'm in one of these moods which is happening more and more often of late. I just sort of 'blank out' and just a bunch of depressing thoughts just swoop into my mind. My mood darkens and my demeanor becomes harsh and aloof and pretty much nothing can make me happy for hours on end, sometimes days. Its like nothing has meaning anymore, its just...there. Something to look at but never have, as it always has been. Its just so depressing, like everything it seems. Over and over again, I think, I'll get out of it, I know I will, but the more I try, the more bitter I get. Again, I don't know why I'm posting it here, in this forum or even at this board. Not even sure what I expect to get out of this by posting this. I just am, it seems....