Faux_Pas
Santa Baby...
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It still felt such a blur.
They had gone out for dinner, and everything seemed to be going just fine. Everything was the same as usual. Paul had his favorite drink, had ordered his favorite meal. A nice five month anniversary dinner. Sure, they still had spats once in awhile, but this was among one of her longest running relationships in years. Amy hadn't stopped smiling since the moment they took their table, cradling the glass of Red Cat she had ordered as they waited for the bill.
"How was everything?," She asked softly, smiling to him once more.
She should have noticed, really. Looking back at it now, she should have seen it. The way he never looked at her once. The way his drink had been so utterly fascinating through the salad. The way he found ways to skirt conversation, made things short.
"Fine." Paul cleared his throat, tapping the table as the bill was placed upon it, eyeing the little black folder and then back to her. "You've got this one, right? Seems I forgot my wallet."
He tended to forget that quite a bit.
One of his quirks, she chalked it up.
"Listen, Amy..." He paused, waiting until he saw her stick the $50 bill into the folder, quickly snatching it from her hand and setting it on his side of the table. "I've been thinking. There's been a few new job offers made at work, and I think I really want to apply for them. Now, we've talked about how furthering my career is the top priority. I really wish you would try to put just a bit more effort in improving yourself. It's rather embarrassing to make such improvements in my own life and you're simply skating by yourself."
Amy set her drink down with that, staring at him blankly. "But... Paul... My internship-"
"That internship is pointless. You're not making a dime, Amy. Rather silly, if you ask me." He sniffed with that, taking a drink of his scotch. "I don't see how you intend to support us in any form if you keep that up." the cup was set back down firmly with that, a stern look taking his features. "I'm sorry, Amy. But I don't believe this relationship is doing either of us any good. It just feels like you're holding me back, and just not holding the same plans for the future as me. I really think it's for the best if we just end things now."
End.. things?
"Are you- Are you breaking up with me?" Her voice nearly squeaked with that, a horrified look taking her face.
"Oh, Amy." His frown grew with that, leaning over to kiss her forehead. "You poor little thing. I feel so sorry for you sometimes."
Sorry.
He was sorry.
Not for breaking up with her.
But because of how pathetic she was.
It was 3 days ago. And she was still realizing how pathetic she truly was, how right he had been. Her eyes burned terribly from how much she had cried, her throat swollen from the sobs she had choked back.
Alcohol had helped to comfort, only a little. Enough to try and forget. Enough to make herself fall asleep. She needed someone to talk to, someone to help her deal with it.
She hated herself. Hated everyone. She hated how right people were about how wrong she was.
Paul was the same as the others.... All the ones who told her about her faults, the ones who made her see how badly she had ruined their lives. She had never noticed how much trouble she could create with what she thought was love. But they all did the same thing, they all found some reason to leave her... But at the same time, they also managed to take a giant chunk from her. Paul, it was money. Ted, it was her things. Markus left her with hospital bills after he found it fun to beat her up after going out with the guys.
They all had something else in common.
They had all been the kind of guys she was warned about.
All from the same guy.
She needed to talk to him. Now. To simply hear his voice, to get affirmation.
She picked up her phone from the night stand, sniffling softly as she wiped away her tears and scrolled through her contacts.
Bro.
Send.
She waited for it to ring, trying hard to keep the tears from coming through once more.
Voicemail.
She took a breath as his voice came through, fighting the waver that tried to develop. "H-Hey. It's Amy... I just- I need to talk to you. I..." It wasn't holding. She lost it. "You were right, you were so right," She started to sob, shaking her head as she held the phone. "Paul was- he's... We broke up, he said- I'm... I'm pathetic, I really am... Please... Call me back... I need you, please..."
She hung up, dropping the phone. Talking was too hard to a voice that couldn't answer.
They had gone out for dinner, and everything seemed to be going just fine. Everything was the same as usual. Paul had his favorite drink, had ordered his favorite meal. A nice five month anniversary dinner. Sure, they still had spats once in awhile, but this was among one of her longest running relationships in years. Amy hadn't stopped smiling since the moment they took their table, cradling the glass of Red Cat she had ordered as they waited for the bill.
"How was everything?," She asked softly, smiling to him once more.
She should have noticed, really. Looking back at it now, she should have seen it. The way he never looked at her once. The way his drink had been so utterly fascinating through the salad. The way he found ways to skirt conversation, made things short.
"Fine." Paul cleared his throat, tapping the table as the bill was placed upon it, eyeing the little black folder and then back to her. "You've got this one, right? Seems I forgot my wallet."
He tended to forget that quite a bit.
One of his quirks, she chalked it up.
"Listen, Amy..." He paused, waiting until he saw her stick the $50 bill into the folder, quickly snatching it from her hand and setting it on his side of the table. "I've been thinking. There's been a few new job offers made at work, and I think I really want to apply for them. Now, we've talked about how furthering my career is the top priority. I really wish you would try to put just a bit more effort in improving yourself. It's rather embarrassing to make such improvements in my own life and you're simply skating by yourself."
Amy set her drink down with that, staring at him blankly. "But... Paul... My internship-"
"That internship is pointless. You're not making a dime, Amy. Rather silly, if you ask me." He sniffed with that, taking a drink of his scotch. "I don't see how you intend to support us in any form if you keep that up." the cup was set back down firmly with that, a stern look taking his features. "I'm sorry, Amy. But I don't believe this relationship is doing either of us any good. It just feels like you're holding me back, and just not holding the same plans for the future as me. I really think it's for the best if we just end things now."
End.. things?
"Are you- Are you breaking up with me?" Her voice nearly squeaked with that, a horrified look taking her face.
"Oh, Amy." His frown grew with that, leaning over to kiss her forehead. "You poor little thing. I feel so sorry for you sometimes."
Sorry.
He was sorry.
Not for breaking up with her.
But because of how pathetic she was.
It was 3 days ago. And she was still realizing how pathetic she truly was, how right he had been. Her eyes burned terribly from how much she had cried, her throat swollen from the sobs she had choked back.
Alcohol had helped to comfort, only a little. Enough to try and forget. Enough to make herself fall asleep. She needed someone to talk to, someone to help her deal with it.
She hated herself. Hated everyone. She hated how right people were about how wrong she was.
Paul was the same as the others.... All the ones who told her about her faults, the ones who made her see how badly she had ruined their lives. She had never noticed how much trouble she could create with what she thought was love. But they all did the same thing, they all found some reason to leave her... But at the same time, they also managed to take a giant chunk from her. Paul, it was money. Ted, it was her things. Markus left her with hospital bills after he found it fun to beat her up after going out with the guys.
They all had something else in common.
They had all been the kind of guys she was warned about.
All from the same guy.
She needed to talk to him. Now. To simply hear his voice, to get affirmation.
She picked up her phone from the night stand, sniffling softly as she wiped away her tears and scrolled through her contacts.
Bro.
Send.
She waited for it to ring, trying hard to keep the tears from coming through once more.
Voicemail.
She took a breath as his voice came through, fighting the waver that tried to develop. "H-Hey. It's Amy... I just- I need to talk to you. I..." It wasn't holding. She lost it. "You were right, you were so right," She started to sob, shaking her head as she held the phone. "Paul was- he's... We broke up, he said- I'm... I'm pathetic, I really am... Please... Call me back... I need you, please..."
She hung up, dropping the phone. Talking was too hard to a voice that couldn't answer.