Darkness stirs my soul

shirleyann

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I was looking at someone's ad from a few years ago, and he suggested that we read a story on the site to see if we might be a good fit for him. The title of my ad was in that story, and it kind of 'spoke' to me. There is night in me...that was in the story too.

About me...
I'm married with children. I am emotionally happy with my husband, but sexually frustrated. I didn't find out until YEARS into the relationship that I was on the submissive side. He has tried to become a dominant (for me), but it hasn't been working out too well. He doesn't know what he's doing. And the thrill of being lovingly controlled is lost when I have to walk him through it. So, here I am. I would never cheat on my husband. This is the next best thing for me. Chatting with men who are like minded. I have yahoo messenger, but not skype. Because I am married, I won't be sending anyone my pictures or doing phone calls until the school year starts and I have the kind of privacy I would need to talk to someone. Two of my kids still live at home, so the summer is a bit restrictive for me.

What I'm looking for...
I like a man to be dominant, but in a loving way. Because of my home situation, I won't always be able to do what I'm told. After all, I'm not the only one in the house. I also want a chat 'friend' who knows the difference between taking charge and being a jerk. Above all else, I want to start small like 'normal' people do...with the kind of conversations that you would initiate with any other woman you were meeting for the first time. My submission has to be earned. I'm an erotica author, so my sexual imagination is practically limitless. I have no doubt that I won't click with most of the men who contact me. But I'm hoping that someone will end up being what I need.

What I don't like...
No humiliation of any kind. I don't want to be treated badly. No name calling. I will be saying no if you ask me to do something that I either can't or don't want to do. I have never pursued this kind of relationship before, so it is new to me. And I will need patience and understanding. Everything else will fall into place if it's meant to be. I have already chatted with a few men who were great. So, there's hope for all of us who embrace a bit of darkness.
 
I hope you find what you're looking for. I wanted to say, also, that I think it is interesting that you seem to compare submission to embracing darkness. I get it, in a relative sense, particularly if the person in question is into rougher things or edgeplay. Personally, the sub head space is one of the best, most addictive feelings ever. If you've had that opportunity, I bet you know what I'm talking about. If not, I'm a little jealous that you still have your first time ahead of you.
 
Shirley,

Officially ...Welcome here ... A person with limitless imagination is rare. Above all, thanks for being honest about your home situation. Your search for the right one will come true.
 
Hi ShirleyAnn - sent you a PM.

Hope you find happiness, wherever it's hiding! ;)

Dan
 
No subspace yet

I've definitely never experienced subspace. And there isn't much chance of it ever happening, short of actually cheating on my husband. I think if it happened with him, that he would be freaked out enough to call an ambulance or something...lol
 
Shirley,

He would call an ambulance and then the attorney. We all know it. If you ever decide to cross the line, here are the three tips:

1) do it away from home
2) do it with a master who knows your situation currently and won't be able to interfere your marriage. Like being from the same town or just a few suburbs away. Avoid all of that . Avoid any old acquaintances from work or friends or an old bf.
3) once you surrender to your lover, keep one thing in mind and be emotionally prepared that you would want it one more time. You won't be able to stop
 
Welcome Shirley! PM coming your way soon... Hope you find what you're looking for!
 
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