Dare I look for her?

[StrentWriter]

Back story: I’m widowed.

It’s been a few years. It’s not something you get over, it’s something you live with.

I’m in a better, happier place but it’ll never be the same.

There’s this girl I knew, always loved. She was the love of my life. She was always in the back of my head.

She lived abroad, somewhere. I’m not saying where in case she’s recognisable.

Do I dare look and see what’s going on in her life?

Did she go and have the big life she always deserved - husband, 2.5 children, the sports car, the high flying job?

Do I leave her be - always not to know and always to wonder?

Is it selfish to want to know, maybe for closure? Or not?

How have other people handled this? Or not?

Does it happen to other people?

Is this all a reaction to loneliness?

I did think about telling my therapist about all of this but - hey - I figured. Maybe we’d all get some writing material out of this, or not.

Or a laugh, at my expense or not. It doesn’t matter.

It just felt good to write it out and not be in my own, lonely head, for five minutes.

 

[Stephie02]

 

[Mike130]

I think it’s kind of normal to wonder about the well being of people that you once cared about. I’m still married and love my wife, but I find myself checking up on ex girlfriends once in a while.

One was very kinky. Liked her a lot, but I was in my early twenties and wasn’t ready for marriage. She moved on, met a millionaire with a sailboat, married him, moved across the country. I’m happy for her.

Another ex, was a girl I took to the prom. Still communicate with her. Her husband recently passed away. I offer her words of encouragement and support. She would like to get together but I’m married, so no.

Another was my ex girlfriend before I met my wife. She was extremely kinky. Always wondered what happened to her but can’t find any social media presence. I might have married her, if not for my wife coming along.

Always curious about how others are doing, but not enough to physically stalk them. Just enough to browse their socials if you can find them….