Crushed

[april-wine]

The world outside keeps moving, spinning, exploding...

I have no will, no energy, no desire to be there in the mix....Everything is crazy, fragmented, I ache from the inside out....

It hurts to breathe, to think, to feel....

 

[sexy-girl]

ohh april are you ok

*hugs* please pm me tell me whats wrong im always here for you as a friend

 

[KinkyKandy]

whats wrong april are you gonna be okay??

 

[Cath!]

The world outside keeps moving, spinning, exploding...

I have no will, no energy, no desire to be there in the mix....Everything is crazy, fragmented, I ache from the inside out....

It hurts to breathe, to think, to feel....

april? msn?

huggggggs, honey.

 

[lilminx]

Sorry to hear that you're hurting. I hope that you feel better soon.

 

[alltherage]

Find a quiet place inside you and hang on. Find a person in need and give. Volunteer at a homeless shelter, walk dogs at the asacp. Be kind to a stranger. Make some peace for yourself even if it is in a tiny space in the crazy world. The world will always be in chaos, create peace and calm.

I know this sounds simple. It is. It has worked for me when I felt as you do now. All I really know comes from my experience, and my experience tells me you have to swim hard just now.


Be well.

 

[Fly_On_Wall]

April if that is a reflection of your feelings I hope you feel well soon
but I'm curious and have to ask this. Is that part of a poem your writeing?

 

[SweetBrat73]

Just wanted to say I hope you feel better soon...it hurts me when I know other ppl are hurting so much...

*hugs*

 

[MissTaken]

*hugs*

 

[PacificBlue]

{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}} I'm here if you need me.

 

[LukkyKnight]

crushing is against the rules

so is being crushed, for that matter, so come on in and let us uncrush you again, eh?

 

[cymbidia]

It hurts to breathe, to think, to feel....

I know, i know, i know, i know, i know... baby, i know.

But you do. You continue to breath, your autonomous nervous system insures it, even though you don't know how it's possible through the pain... and if you could could consciously control your breathing, well, you might not choose to continue it.

You cannot help but think, even though your soul cries for mercy and tries hard to turn aside from the thoughts that hammer relentlessly. But they won't stop, won't let up, though you toss and turn and seek a way out from beneath the awful weight of them. They're relentless. They won't leave you alone.

And feeling?
All the world is feeling, in bursts of pain and grief and unconsolable agony. Every atom of energy in your environment presses in on you and makes you feel until you think you'll cry forever with the awful ragged intensity of it.

I know, baby.
And there's no shortcut through this part, either.

I'm so sorry.
b.

 

[patient1]

Find a quiet place inside you and hang on. Find a person in need and give. Volunteer at a homeless shelter, walk dogs at the asacp. Be kind to a stranger. Make some peace for yourself even if it is in a tiny space in the crazy world. The world will always be in chaos, create peace and calm.

I know this sounds simple. It is. It has worked for me when I felt as you do now. All I really know comes from my experience, and my experience tells me you have to swim hard just now.


Be well.

Bake some brownies or buy some donughts and take them to the emergency room waiting area of your local hospital. There are going to be people there on new years eve who need distractions & kind gestures. They'll appreciate anything , and make you feel better about yourself, or better about your problems as a result.

 

[Simply Me]

Sweetie, you have mail.. * Hugs*

 

[Desert Amazon]

 

[Herbie Handcock]

Have you been using that damn Ab Blaster again?

 

[Laurel]

*hugs*

You're sweet and beautiful and have everything going for you. Drink hot cocoa, take a hot bath, and read a good book. That helps sometimes.

 

[cymbidia]

I know that some of you offer jokes to lighten april's mood but i have to ask you to treat this with more care, more sensitivity - more somber attention to simply offering your presence and affection. The situation asks that from us, whether or not the details are forthcoming.

Please trust me on this.
Thank you.

 

[april-wine]

Thank-you all for your kind words. Beyond anything what I needed today was a connection many of you reached out, again I thank-you.....

I lost someone today, someone who I was prepared to lose in many ways....I just didn't expect this......

There are things we take for granted, things we think we know, affairs of the heart are never what we expect.......

I have talked to a few close to me, I don't choke on the words quite so hard....When someone is ill you expect, prepare for the worst....It's a shock, it's a blow, it's all of those things and more....

But worse is losing love in instant, with no control, no cushion, no sign....I was holding on so tightly, I didn't see it slip through my fingers.........

 

[sigh]

But worse is losing love in instant, with no control, no cushion, no sign....I was holding on so tightly, I didn't see it slip through my fingers.........

oh god, april...i am so very, very sorry

i don't know why i chose today to come back to the board, but after reading this i think maybe i knew all along

my love, i can't tell you how much i'm aching for you

she was a beauty, and now she's gone...april, take solice in knowing that in no small way you made her life better

i cry for you

 

[Angel]

-sighs-

Is it something in the air? I'm sorry.

I hope you're okay...

 

[Debbie]

april-wine I am so sorry for your loss. One can never truly be prepared till it happens and we find we wanted so much more time that we no longer have.
I have whispered softly to those I have loved and lost. Believing that they know and feel my love and that there loss will never be forgotten.
I shed tears at your sadness and a small tender *kiss* that I cannot give to you in person but comes from my heart.

 

[april-wine]

No one has died, just feels like someone did..............

 

[sigh]

No one has died, just feels like someone did..............

i read your pm...thanks

i still cry for you

 

[Debbie]

sorry april-wine. Now I understand the crushed heading. Sending you that tender *kiss*.