i have always considered myself straight. I’ve been lucky enough to have several great girlfriends, and I look at women as the pinnacle of all things beautiful. When I’m alone and horny however, I think of a man behind me, pumping deep in my bowels. I don’t want to kiss a man, and if I’m doing the fucking, I want my partner to be female. In my profile, I entered my sexuality as bisexual, but I don’t know what I am. Does anyone else have cravings like this? It’s a hard subject to chat about with my friends.
Confused about sexuality
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I think many if not all people have a bi-sexual side to them. What you are feeling is normal, since in my opinion there is nothing abnormal about human sexuality. Whether or not you chose to give into any of these thoughts is also normal. I am and have known for many decades that I am a bi man who loves the company of a woman as much as a man. My bi-sexual urges run the gamut of almost complete gay when I in the past have been with a man, as well my hetrosexual desires when I am with a woman run about as straight as they come. Nothing wrong with your urges or thoughts of a man filling you up and if you someday allow yourself to give into those you may find you have opened you mind and body to complete sexual happiness! Good luck my friend whichever path you chose.
Thank you so much for your message. If I was assured of discretion, I would have taken the plunge already. I have had a few opportunities but declined them all, only to regret my decision later. Maybe… if I get another chance, I’ll be brave enough to do it.
Don’t beat yourself up about it. It took me ten years to accept my desires before I finally found a transgender woman as a lover who could top me. Even then I basically forced myself to go through with it. Everything in its own time.
I thought it was wonderful my 1st time, awkward at 1st maybe from nerves or anticipation but none the less it was wonderful. It did live up to mine but these questions answered by another alas will be of their experiences and can only truly be answered by only one person and that is you.
Actually it was better than my fantasies! The week I spent with my first lover I was fucked 24 times and I loved it. Now I have a long distance relationship with a different transgender woman but I love being with her in every way when we are together.
Yes, I’m sure that is true. I grow up thinking there are boys and girls but it isn’t so black and white. I would surely love to be in a man’s lap right now.
Omg - 24 times.
I grew up in a Catholic Italian family, boys were only with girls it was sacrilegious a boy with a boy or a girl with a girl. I had 2 older very macho brothers and one sister. My brothers, still not knowing of my inclinations, are 2 of the most homophobic guys you could ever meet. I did have encounters with guys on the downlow, which in the 1970's was all I could do being it was taboo with almost everyone I knew. Once I gave into it, at least for me I do know everyone may feel different, I felt like someone had lifted a very heavy weight from my chest and each and every 1st after that seemed more and more orgasmic.
Well, I don’t have those restraints, but North Carolina is conservative and many people are homophobic. I work in a construction related field, and if there are any gays, they are well disguised. I’m thankful to Lit for providing a safe platform to discuss matters like this.
I’m going to lunch with a friend, so I’ll be gone for a bit. Thank you for being so open - it’s quite refreshing.
With that first girl, I fucked her twice. With my girlfriend I never fuck her - she always fucks me or I suck her off.
She fucked me five times the first day I was with her. In fact she came in my ass twice without pulling out the first time she fucked me. She had a small cock but that girl had a lot of sexual energy - she was a wonderful top.
My girlfriend has a fairly big cock - 7 1/2 inches hard - and she is good about getting it in slowly before fucking me hard. There might be a little pain at first but afterwards it’s all pleasure especially when she cums.
The first girl had a cock about 4 1/2 inches or so hard but she just rammed that thing up my ass in one go whenever she fucked me. Good thing she didn’t have a big one!
The bigger dick always sounds better, but I guess it’s how you use it. I have seen some videos on Taiwanese transgender women who are stunningly beautiful, and with nice size cocks as well. I think it would be confusing to be honest, but very exciting. Sounds like what you are experiencing. I have never really thought much about giving blowjobs, but I guess that’s part of it. I’d like to try that as well - maybe both at once
haha - I better start slow.It’s definitely a bit strange to see a beautiful woman with a cock between her legs. After a while you get used to it though and it just seems normal.The bigger dick always sounds better, but I guess it’s how you use it. I have seen some videos on Taiwanese transgender women who are stunningly beautiful, and with nice size cocks as well. I think it would be confusing to be honest, but very exciting. Sounds like what you are experiencing. I have never really thought much about giving blowjobs, but I guess that’s part of it. I’d like to try that as well - maybe both at once
I had sucked many women but I really had to learn to give a good blowjob to a cock. My poor girlfriend! I had to learn how to hide my teeth and the techniques for sucking a cock to completion. Lucky for me, my girl’s cum tastes slightly sweet so it’s not hard to swallow. Sometimes she cums a lot but I never spill a drop.
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No one can tell you what your sexual orientation is. If you desire a label, you can choose a label that fits you. Also, your fantasies are completely normal.
Looking at your original post, I can definitely relate to some of it. I have never considered myself anything except straight because I am only attracted to women. However when I saw my first woman with a cock, I knew exactly what I wanted.
Most people would not consider me straight but at this point I don’t really care. My relationship with my girlfriend is great and the sex is out of this world.
I understand what you mean. It’s good that you’re comfortable enough with yourself that it doesn’t matter what others think. If it was generally known around here that I was taking a dick up my ass, I’d probably have to move… but I want it anyway.
Thank you for all your help.
It’s not a question of desire really, it’s a question of how. If I knew where I could get it at midnight on Halloween, I’d be in the car right now. Thank you for sharing your experience with me. Maybe someday I’ll be able to share mine with others.
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The first thing to do is figure out your sexuality and then own it - don't let shame be a part of that. Next is finding a supportive, friendly environment in which to live. idk much about N Carolina except what I read in the media and I couldn't live there and wouldn't even feel safe passing through, but I'm at the bottom of the safety scale.
You present as a guy, I assume you're white, got no ties and have life skills ie. you have options, so take them to another state where you can be yourself and not hide.
Your testosterone-powered sexuality is potent and plenty of guys project a kinda self-adsorbed sexuality onto other people. Guys are fascinated, obsessed even, with their dicks, so why not be interested in other dicks as well? Nothing wrong in that, but you say you're not interested in kissing a guy, so that's a boundary you've set yourself though I'd guess you've never tried. There are plenty of guys with your mindset - keen to get their rocks off and worship dick but not comfortable with an amorous relationship. Now you need to find a place to live safely, meet like-minded dudes and be accepted for who you are.
The only good thing about Carolina is James Taylor's song. That's made me think more than once about James Taylor, because he sounds like a nice guy. "In my mind I'm gone to Carolina, but I'm living in NY because it's safer".
