Confession/be nice please

[simpledude]

Sorry that I'm taking up a separate thread for this.

I am(have been?) a straight guy all my life, but with bicurious tendencies as my post history and signature would indicate. Now obviously, guys like me surely have phases that go through like this.
For example, in my case, I've played with cross dressing while at home alone. Used to be thrilling, masturbate and then go back to my baseline straight life.

Then there was toys- well, the dildo found it's way into my ass more than a couple of times. Made me cum, and then back to straight life.

Then I started watching bisexual videos MMF. Probably gave me the most exciting orgasms ever, no way to measure though. Again, jerk off to it and back..

All through these, I tried to be aroused by men in real life just to see whatsup with me but it never happened. When I think of guys after I cum and clean up, I would never be able to get aroused again.

Then the gay videos- now this was something I never could get into except very very passingly. Except till today.
Guys, I have been watching gay porn without averting my eyes and even came this morning to guys fucking and the sight of semen spurting out of dickholes(used to turn me off). I have also this strong urge today to suck a guy and have this skin to skin contact indicating intimacy with a guy. I can picture it. I can feel the different skin texture and I am not turned off by the thought. Quite the contrary.

And all of this has persisted after I already came once today and had to go outside, run some errands- previously this would be where I would be back to my "baseline" of being straight.

I don't know how long this would last, or if this is how a bisexual feels or is but just wanted to get it off my chest and put it in writing.
If I had some courage, I wouldn't have much problem pursuing this and getting off a guy tonight, being based in las vegas and all..

 

[AlphaLyon]

Nothing wrong with exploring, and "coming out" takes a lot of guts, so good on you for doing so.
Just remember that sexuality is a spectrum, and doesn't necessarily stay the same throughout your life. To quote the great candy bar commercial, "Sometimes you feel like a nut; sometimes you don't."
It's also possible to be romantically oriented one way and sexually oriented another. For example, I'm hetero-romantic (date women) but a bi-sexual top (I'll fuck and receive head from guys).

The fun is in learning about yourself, so welcome to the club. We have bi-annual meetings and membership fees are due on February 31. (waka-waka!)

 

[simpledude]

Thank you, kind reply.

Just took a nap and woke up. And I still feel the same and would love to experience male body. Naps used to be another barrier which would send me back to the baseline straighness.

I can only pray now that I come across some good people.

 

[gary04]

I was a straitht guy all my life until i retired. Then one day i was watching porn and got more excited when the guy was being sucked. So i wondered how come the ladys and guys like sucking cock. I loved to get blowjobs from the wife but then i wanted to give a guy a blowjob. So i chatted jokingly with a friend and we gave each other a blowjob. Best experience i have had in a long time. Now thats all i think about as a bi male wanting to suck and feel the hard cock in my mouth. Your are normal go for it you only live once you will enjoy it

 

[simpledude]

Thank you my friend.

Also took me a long long long time(mentally speaking) to get over about what would people think if and when they find this aspect of me. Not much of family but even the social circle. Hopefully, it won't be as constraining as it has been all these years.

 

[simpledude]

Thank you for the kind words.

Easy to say "to hell with anyone who doesn't approve" But i'm sure you understand it's not that easy for everyone. But yea hopefully I'll find some discreet peole who understand.

 

[simpledude]

It wasn't flippant. I see that attitude works for many people and in other areas for me too. It's just that it's much more easier if there's acceptance and no such issues, at least in my current state of mind.

Very kind replies in this thread and in PMs. Makes me feel good about posting the thread. Cheers to you all.

 

[Teecee15]

For me I almost have a separation between a fetish for men, cocks and being submissive but still romantically and sexually attracted to women.

Also walking around in the real world I don’t feel attracted to guys I meet.

We’re all a little different lol. Thank goodness life would be boring if we weren’t.

 

[simpledude]

For me I almost have a separation between a fetish for men, cocks and being submissive but still romantically and sexually attracted to women.

Also walking around in the real world I don’t feel attracted to guys I meet.

We’re all a little different lol. Thank goodness life would be boring if we weren’t.

This was me exactly for a major part of past 4-5 years. But I think yesterday things changed and I wouldn't mind a romantic coffee date with a guy. Someone older and caring and kind with smooth skin and well groomed.

 

[klippert]

Hope you feel better??!!.. now all the ?? Prepare yourself for the “493 Sexual identifier” gurus

Just live your life, don’t be a pedo and don’t force people to accept your “choice” in live.

That will be $250.

 

[simpledude]

Hope you feel better??!!.. now all the ?? Prepare yourself for the “493 Sexual identifier” gurus

Just live your life, don’t be a pedo and don’t force people to accept your “choice” in live.

That will be $250.

493 sexual identifier gurus?

 

[stargame]

simple, enjoy your days, the human body is beautiful

 

[ornyguy32]

simple, enjoy your days, the human body is beautiful

Very true

 

[TallOne]

Certainly does sound like you are bi and that your "straight baseline" is more conformance to societal pressure/homophobia.

I am selectively out to friends of ours and we do things like go to pride and attend gay(really all inclusive) bars for drag/burlesque/comedy shows. At this point not afraid of being outed, but not going to come out to parents/coworkers and others unless they find out somehow and outright ask.

 

[simpledude]

I'd love to go to those parades and rallies. Love to.

I was hoping to update you guys, as my diary or lit fam about this potential meetup with this guy I found online. But haven't heard yet from him since. Bummer.

 

[Eighty6ed]

Same direction

MWM, I’ve had some experience in my teens with my good friend but after that and most of my life until about five years ago, I’ve been completely heterosexual in my thoughts. Porn that would show cock would completely turn me off. I came across a picture of a gorgeous, sexy woman that, to my surprise, had a bulge. I became curious and decided to check out more pictures of trans women and couldn’t believe how much they turned me on. That discovery led to pictures of cocks and still the excitement was there. Before long I was looking at pictures of smooth, sexy men and jerking off. Like you, it would come and go in phases and I would actively stay away from anything to do with male parts, but would always go back. Now I accept that I love cock and some men really turn me on, although not in my everyday life, but guys I find online. I want and look forward one day to making the fantasy of hot sex with a guy come true.

 

[simpledude]

Now I accept that I love cock and some men really turn me on, although not in my everyday life, but guys I find online. I want and look forward one day to making the fantasy of hot sex with a guy come true.

Sitting in a lab for some blood work for my job, I just checked out this guy sitting across. I had no repulsion or aversion to him. This wouldn't be the case a few days ago.
Think all I need now is some confirmation with in person experience.

 

[Eighty6ed]

Sitting in a lab for some blood work for my job, I just checked out this guy sitting across. I had no repulsion or aversion to him. This wouldn't be the case a few days ago.
Think all I need now is some confirmation with in person experience.

Every once and a while I will come across some random guy and think he’s sexy and I’m able to picture myself with him. I would love some in person experience.

 

[Retnuhkcoc2020]

Straight

I call myself a straight guy that loves sucking cock. Everything about me is straight, except for the fact if the opportunity to suck cock presents its self i take advantage of it.

 

[simpledude]

I call myself a straight guy that loves sucking cock. Everything about me is straight, except for the fact if the opportunity to suck cock presents its self i take advantage of it.

Interesting

 

[jimmyipeek]

I know all guys are supposed to like girls.

I peek at other guys tho and it’s exciting. Like in the bathroom in the mall or in the showers after gym class.

When I was little dad and I took showers together and I liked that 2

 

[simpledude]

Ghosted by the guy, would've been my first. I guess the troubles are the same on the guys' side as with women. Sigh.

 

[AlphaLyon]

Ghosted by the guy, would've been my first. I guess the troubles are the same on the guys' side as with women. Sigh.

Nothing more normal than getting ghosted, so look at it this way: Now you're officially part of the club.

 

[Hitchiker69]

You're not alone or unique. So many of us could make similar confessions.

I am a frustrated bisexual, had gay sex in my youth, now married and 'faithful' for 26 years.

I play with dildos, fantasize about all kinds of non straight sex...gay, groups, exhibitionism, gay seduction and more.

And I belive I'm normal. In a perfect world I'd have sex with consenting adults, and explore all my desires. But we don't live in a perfect world, do we?

So I suspect you're normal too.

 

[bottomshooter]

Sorry that I'm taking up a separate thread for this.

I am(have been?) a straight guy all my life, but with bicurious tendencies as my post history and signature would indicate. Now obviously, guys like me surely have phases that go through like this.
For example, in my case, I've played with cross dressing while at home alone. Used to be thrilling, masturbate and then go back to my baseline straight life.

Then there was toys- well, the dildo found it's way into my ass more than a couple of times. Made me cum, and then back to straight life.

Then I started watching bisexual videos MMF. Probably gave me the most exciting orgasms ever, no way to measure though. Again, jerk off to it and back..

All through these, I tried to be aroused by men in real life just to see whatsup with me but it never happened. When I think of guys after I cum and clean up, I would never be able to get aroused again.

Then the gay videos- now this was something I never could get into except very very passingly. Except till today.
Guys, I have been watching gay porn without averting my eyes and even came this morning to guys fucking and the sight of semen spurting out of dickholes(used to turn me off). I have also this strong urge today to suck a guy and have this skin to skin contact indicating intimacy with a guy. I can picture it. I can feel the different skin texture and I am not turned off by the thought. Quite the contrary.

And all of this has persisted after I already came once today and had to go outside, run some errands- previously this would be where I would be back to my "baseline" of being straight.

I don't know how long this would last, or if this is how a bisexual feels or is but just wanted to get it off my chest and put it in writing.
If I had some courage, I wouldn't have much problem pursuing this and getting off a guy tonight, being based in las vegas and all..

A few years ago, I could have wrote the exact thing.