Chasing the Words and Trying to Get Home. CB's Final Thread.

[CarnivalBarker]

All,

It has been a wonderful ride here, and the Lit community is amazing. When we started posting here it was me and a guy I was with, and we used it as a place to spice up our bedroom lives. He's since gone, but I kept the handle in the divorce! Since then, I have made friends and written stories that I am very proud of. I have written with some wonderful writers, and I encourage you all to go forth and write for real....many of you are that good.

Recently, I had something happen that is not okay, and it is unhealthy for me to stick around here...it's triggering at the moment, and I need some help. So I am going to get it, beginning tomorrow. This will be a good thing - weep not for me.

But also, many of you have sent me notes and messages encouraging me to write, which is something that I have forever WANTED to do. I've set up a writing studio office and I am going to make it a practice each day to see what springs forth from my mind and onto the page. I find the English language to be beautiful, diverse, and evocative unlike any other, when correctly used. And writing is a passion that I know remains afire within me without fail. I am going to chase that dream until I land it. I am going to chase it until I track it down or it wrestles me into submission. I am going to chase it all the way home, wherever that finds me to be.

Evolutions - you have been a worthy co-author, keep doing what you do and push yourself each day to be better. Trucken - you are so sweet and kind and also a wonderful partner with whom to write. You're very good and don't let others say you're not. ArcticAvenue - I always loved our story and wish we could have pushed it further along in the little time we had....it was the sweetest of the stories I did and the one that warmed my heart the most because it was hopeful. I appreciate that.

I appreciate you all and look forward to the next chapter, which starts tomorrow. Keep being creative, keep having fun, and keep indulging your fantasies. And as you do, support each other...for you are all wonderful people, wonderful writers, and a bunch of friends among friends. Thank you all a final time.

CarnivalBarker

 

[marauder13]

Carnival,

We started writing together, and things didn't work out with the game. These things happen, and there are times that two people just don't click. Which in this case sucked because I do like how you write and looked forward to creating something with you. But I am sorry to hear that life has dealt you something unpleasant, but I am glad to hear that you have a good plan to deal with it.

May you have success at everything you do, and may you defeat the most recent setback that has occurred. My best wishes to you for your future, and may you have a great time finding your way, and getting to where you want to be.


All the best,

M13

 

[LadyVer]

Good luck!

 

[maverick74656]

Carnival,

Only today did I stumble upon your stories, and actually just commented on how much I liked one of them. Then I read "Regrettable Sex", and now this thread. I am so sorry to read about that, regrettable indeed, but at least worse didn't happen. I'm sad to read you won't be around anymore, but thank you for sharing your obvious writing talents with Lit.

Best of luck with your next chapter. I hope it brings you joy, and peace.

-Maverick

 

[Evolutions]

I'm not really sure what to say. I'm used to writing 3 or 4k word replies and here I'm speechless. I'll write something more when I've had a chance to let this news sink in...

 

[Evolutions]

CB, I'm not sure if you're still around or not, regardless I wanted to say that I've been writing for a few years now and you're definitely one of the best writing partners I've ever had. It was great writing with someone who likes to write as much as I do, as well as someone who is great at the plot, smut, as well as character development. I found that we had a great balance to where the smut was great, but we didn't have to sacrifice the plot or character development in the way.

You were my only active writing partner and honestly I don't even feel like searching for more partners. I think what I might end up doing is to write a conclusion to our Reporter thread for some kind of closure, afterwards I might just take a long break from roleplaying.

Its sad to see you go, it truly is. But you gotta do what ya gotta do. If you ever decide to return and start writing again let me know, even if the theme is different. You are an amazing writer, and you will be missed. Good luck with your writing endeavor, I have no doubt at all that you will be a success.

E.

 

[CarnivalBarker]

Hello all. I wanted to say thank you for everyone's kind words and support. Many have sent DMs and all of those have been uplifting. I have been talking to someone and even filed a police report, though it won't likely result in anything. It did make me feel strong.

I have had an urge to get back to normal and to write the stories with characters i love again. I wont be starting any new threads, but do hope to pick up some of those I had left behind...if my co-authors will have me. It will be good to flesh out some things running through my head and to maybe tread some new ground.

Thanks agin, all. And I'll be with you here, real soon.

CB