Cancer and other Afflictions: Surviving Sensually

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I had prostate cancer years ago and it was "cured" surgically - meaning all the cancer came out with my prostate. Because of complications due to previous pelvic trauma, the nerves that signal an erection were lost.

So here I was, alive, cancer free, but completely impotent, and without a prostate, there is no ejaculate whatsoever with orgasm. Yes, you can orgasm without a prostate, and without an erection. It's not easy without the latter.

I played with various external penis pumps and cock rings and found a process that would give me a good sustainable erection, but it was a process. Later I opted for an inflatable implant (Google AMS 700 implant) and - it's okay. While it's more spontaneous than a big external pump (oh and try bringing that through a TSA checkpoint and see what happens) but it's still not as spontaneous as a natural erection. It also doesn't fill the penis with blood, so it's lighter and little less girthy, and there is some loss of sensation. All in all, it's a good second best. But people who have imagined having these things implanted for just the sake of enhancement are mistaken - there is a reason you just don't hear of this happening.

Today, I have a beautiful loving woman in my life, and our sex life is better than good. I miss being able to produce cum, but that's a small tradeoff for life.

Recently, I was diagnosed with liver cancer and underwent surgery for a liver resection. I have some nasty scars from life, but I am determined to be who I am - and one aspect of that person includes my sexuality.

As I posted my story on another board here, other people have come forward with various stories of what they've been through and how they are coping. I am amazed at the number of survivors here.

If you're reading this and have something similar to share, please share what you can.

If you are reading this and you are about to go through something like this and have questions, please ask. I was amazed at how little real discussion I could find regarding implants before I had that operation.

As we face these things, we can either give up or kick some ass. Let's kick ass.
 
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That seems to be more about fairly normal ED and less about complete medical impotence and esteem issues that stem from a lack of drive, scarring, missing parts, etc. Certainly, ED can be serious, but I'd love it if my dick "had a mind of it's own" as the OP stated.

Dealing with impotence, sex drive shifts, body image issues and a myriad of other health related issues is a matter I don't see addressed much. For example, how to you reassure a partner that your lack of drive is not a lack of interest in that person, but a lack of energy or a side effect of chemotherapy or some other treatment. How do you convey that something that hurts because of a physical change isn't because your partner did something wrong, or that you aren't just being difficult to please - especially when it's something pretty mundane and ordinarily enjoyable? How do you deal with the stark reality of your new limitations, accept them and make the most of everything? How do we cope with the underlying illness?
 
I too am a cancer survivor. I had throat cancer 10 years ago and no reoccurrence since. You can google laryngectomy if interested. The thing about my cancer is it's instantly obvious. I have no vocal cords.I speak with a mechanical devise called an electrolrynx. I sound like a robot. I can't sing or yell. I can't whisper in my lovers ear. I talk slowly and in social groups am not able to keep up with the conversation. I'm not able to speak above background noise so no talking in a bar or sporting event or even in the mall hallway.

I was in a ltr but we were already growing apart. I'm sure I was mostly responsible for the final end. I just withdrew. I was sure i'd be alone the rest of my life and I was ok with that. Who would want me when there are 7 billion whole and complete people on our planet? Well, turns out there was someone.

What I hope to do is change the conversation about "winning the battle against cancer". We will all die of something. The battle is not against survival but rather how we survive or die. How did we cope today? Did we transfer our anger about cancer to someone else? Did we find anything positive about life that makes surviving cancer worthwhile? Do we continue to be productive or do we embrace the darkness? The cancer battlefield is not in the hospitals or hospice or anyplace we can touch. The real battle in in our minds. I say if you survive and become bitter or afraid or just plain mean then you've lost your battle. Nobody chooses to get cancer but we do choose how we will react to it.

I was lucky and I know it. I found the love of a wonderful woman. I saw my child marry and have a family. I'm still here to take care of my parents. I even got to see the chiefs stomp the patriots last week.

For those of you having a rougher time than I am I'm truely sorry if I've made you feel bad. That is not my intention. I hope you can find something good and worthwhile to focus on. I hope you can find a way to win your battle.

I'm going to finish with one last thought. FUCK YOU CANCER!
 
That seems to be more about fairly normal ED and less about complete medical impotence and esteem issues that stem from a lack of drive, scarring, missing parts, etc. Certainly, ED can be serious, but I'd love it if my dick "had a mind of it's own" as the OP stated.

The earlier stuff in the thread isn't so relevant, but later it got into the sort of stuff you're discussing:

http://forum.literotica.com/showpost.php?p=75625008&postcount=253

(and apologies for not making that clear when I linked it above - I wasn't around for the start of the thread and hadn't noticed that it was originally about something different.)
 
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What I hope to do is change the conversation about "winning the battle against cancer". We will all die of something. The battle is not against survival but rather how we survive or die.

Thank you. This sums up my feeling about it all exactly. We're not dead yet, so why not pursue the best life we can have?

The earlier stuff in the thread isn't so relevant, but later it got into the sort of stuff you're discussing:

http://forum.literotica.com/showpost.php?p=75625008&postcount=253

(and apologies for not making that clear when I linked it above - I wasn't around for the start of the thread and hadn't noticed that it was originally about something different.)

Yeah, that post is a lot closer to the topic here. But I guess I didn't make it clearer that I wasn't taking about ED either; it's about more than just surviving hardships and disabilities; it's about thriving with them as sexual, whole people even parts of us aren't. It's about adjusting expectations more than lowering them.

Between wars, accidents and cancer and other diseases, people have some rough stuff to deal with and it can all be demoralizing. Prosthetics don't replace what you lose, they just help you cope. But you have to cope - and thrive.
 
... But I guess I didn't make it clearer that I wasn't taking about ED either; it's about more than just surviving hardships and disabilities; it's about thriving with them as sexual, whole people even parts of us aren't. It's about adjusting expectations more than lowering them.

I have not posted much about the emotional struggle I am dealing with as an aftermath of my prostate cancer treatment as I have a local support group that helps and I am often tired when I visit Lit and not much into writing out long posts dealing with the issues you address here. I think they are very important and am glad to see you making the effort to bring them forward here.

I sum up my struggle as trying to find a way to surrender to the "new normal" without giving up. So far I'm doing so-so...


:rose:
 
I have not posted much about the emotional struggle I am dealing with as an aftermath of my prostate cancer treatment as I have a local support group that helps and I am often tired when I visit Lit and not much into writing out long posts dealing with the issues you address here. I think they are very important and am glad to see you making the effort to bring them forward here.

I sum up my struggle as trying to find a way to surrender to the "new normal" without giving up. So far I'm doing so-so...


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Keep the faith. In time, you will adjust. Wholeness doesn't come from the sum of your parts, but from your mindset and the mindset of a good partner. You sound like you have the right attitude.
 
Keep the faith. In time, you will adjust. Wholeness doesn't come from the sum of your parts, but from your mindset and the mindset of a good partner. You sound like you have the right attitude.

thanks
 
bear

We all have burdens to bear and some are heavier than others.
A buddy had a prostatectomy a number of years ago and gets an erection by giving himself an injection. Don't know if that is a possibility for you. Best of luck.
 
We all have burdens to bear and some are heavier than others.
A buddy had a prostatectomy a number of years ago and gets an erection by giving himself an injection. Don't know if that is a possibility for you. Best of luck.

That's a good option for some guys, but not everyone. Some (including me) have painful side effects.
 
I'm sorry I don't have anything helpful to say, but I am glad you posted. It is good to know that an end to ejaculation/erections doesn't mean an end to sexual pleasure - as a woman I might have been inclined to give up or blame myself. I'm so glad you have a woman that understands that and can give you what you need (even though it might not be the same again).

Best of luck to you - I hope your treatments go well and you have good recovery.
 
I'm sorry I don't have anything helpful to say, but I am glad you posted. It is good to know that an end to ejaculation/erections doesn't mean an end to sexual pleasure - as a woman I might have been inclined to give up or blame myself. I'm so glad you have a woman that understands that and can give you what you need (even though it might not be the same again).

Best of luck to you - I hope your treatments go well and you have good recovery.

I share the same thoughts as above, also, this thread will help many in similar situations.
 
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