Blast from the past

[MasterPhoenix]

OK, from the strange random shit category.... I recently got in contact with this chick I knew from High School. (It started in one of those randomme "I'm bored, I wonder what ever happened to..." kind of moments.) Well, she was on f-book, and exchanged a couple emails... then texts and phone calls... its cool..

anyway, I had a bit of a crush on her way back when... and in the course of talking, I admitted that, and HOLY FUCKING HELL, this girl had it really bad for me, and I didn't even realize it. I found out a lot of crap that I had no clue, like that she used to follow me between classes, and hide if I looked away...

We were close, but I just had no idea...

What is weird is that it completely rewrites my senior year of high school, becuase I really didn't have any idea on all this...

She wants to get together next time she is in the state, (She currently lives elsewhere) which I am totally cool with...

It has been a real mindfuck for me, becuase

a) There is NOONE in my close circle of friends who knew me pre-Phoenix, and well... she can truly say she knew me when...
b) I had no frigging idea back then she felt like this... had I even a clue, I would have made a move and that would have destroyed many issues I wrestled with for many years.
c) This is the kind of shit that just does NOT happen to me.

Somewhere, the universe said: just kidding

Oh yeah, and this contact is the first contact since high school which was during the Bush I administration....

 

[catalina_francisco]

Good luck with it all. Moments like this can be good, and sometimes change a lot of perceptions we had formed. At the least, it will give you closure to a confusing chapter, with a renewed freedom to begin another.

Catalina

 

[Homburg]

I remember finding out a few surprising things along the same vein, but my realisations happened much sooner after I graduated. It was still pretty amazing, and just as aggravating.

Good on ya for making the connection. The only folks I've found on F-book from high schools were guys

 

[satindesire]

We're never as ugly or awkward or socially hopeless in high school as we think we are. ^_^

 

[FurryFury]

That's pretty cool!

I have a reunion coming up. There are so many people I miss and would like to know what happened to them but they are not listed as coming.

It makes me wonder who does go? People who think back fondly on high school?

Cause I still have nightmares that I'm back in high school again. LOL.

Then again, I'll see someone working while I'm out and they'll be all like "Hey, FF, we went to high school together." I'm thinking WTF?!? If we were close I'd know who you were. They seem so delighted to see me and it makes me wonder why? Did they secretly like me? I did do a lot of shit at my high schools. I did plays, newspaper, just about ever extra curricular thing that didn't require peer group love. LOL.

So IDK if I care to go. I don't want to hang out with people that enjoyed high school and were all popular and shit, but I sure do wish those people that are still in my heart but which have dropped out of my life would be there. I'd just like to hear what they have been up to.

A lot of them turned out to be gay. It kind of hurts that I wasn't allowed to support them and that they went off somewhere but whatever. I loved em then (not romantically) and I'll always love them regardless.

 

[Homburg]

My 20 year reunion came... and went. I didn't show. I really could not find it in myself to be even remotely interested.

 

[Kojote]

We're never as ugly or awkward or socially hopeless in high school as we think we are. ^_^

Never say never...
I was. I can tell. I investigated on this.
And wishing to change what I have been fueled my struggle to achieve the change.

But in most cases you are right, I think...

 

[MasterPhoenix]

I have no desire to go to any reunions. Egad!

What has been really interesting is that the 37 year old me is getting a fresh look at the 18 year old me, and it is totally diff than I expected.

 

[Etoile]

I went to my ten year reunion a few years back. I was excited to see how everybody had changed, because this was before Facebook was open to everyone, so I knew nothing about them. Of course I was still the social outcast I was originally...no, not as bad as I was back then, but it was awkward. I had fun though, it was educational if nothing else.