best near....hits?

[akade]

as king of the missed opportunities, i think we should share those times when we shoulda, coulda, woulda. here's one of the many.

it was the early eighties, it was college, and i had finally admitted to myself that the preoccupation with men was not fading but growing more tangible.
(as we speak). a friend, who idolized my older brother while i idolized him,
whose dick i saw as he bathed in our tub when he left his home because of differing philosophies, whose girlfriend loved me in the way that i loved him, had this back-ache. (i know, the musical is coming out next month :-0)

i told him that i gave a great back-rub (which is no lie.....a reason to touch him, yes, but not a lie) his particular problem was in the lower back and so i began by gently manipulating the lower muscles, working firmly but gently from the spine to the outer frame...i worked my way up to his rib cage and used both open-palmed hands to run up and down the ridges of his upright chest from behind.

meanwhile, my dick has posted north and i was blissfully consumed by the fire of his closeness, his acceptance of me ( i was so young), his real and earnest innocence of my desire.


next....

 

[College_geek]

Hmmm...not sure if this would count, as it's not sexual, but here is a little story that is kind of a miss.

In 8th grade (I hope I can discuss this since it has nothing to do sexually, just about a crush I had...if this is bad, forgive me moderators) I had a crush on this guy who had been in my classes the year before. When the school's semi-formal dance happened, I wanted to ask him, but was too shy. So...I did what any shy 8th grade girl would do...asked a friend to ask him. Well, he said yes and I was all happy.

When the dance rolled around, he didn't show up to it till about 15 minutes after it started. By that point, I was nervous, frustrated, and giddy all in one. I ended up talking to a friend of mine while I was waiting, but when he showed up, I didn't go up to him. I stayed with my friend. Part of it was because I was way too nervous around him (as crushes usually are) and part of it was that I didn't want to ditch my friend and leave her all alone for a guy. At one point he came up to me, but I was still so nervous and awkward and he ended up going elsewhere alone. I felt horrible, but didn't have the guts to go up to him.

At the end of the night, I went up to him finally and wanted to ask him to dance...but I just made small talk. At the time I had the crush, I always fantasized about dating him. I had a crush on him still for 2 years after that. In my time liking him, a friend of mine also liked him, but had the ability to ask him out once (apparently they went on one date and she decided she didn't like him that much ^^() ). I still feel bad about and always wanted to apologize later on. For all I know, he doesn't remember, but I always regretted ignoring him.

Still...had I spent the night talking to him and maybe dancing, who knows how I would've ended up. Would I have dated him? Would I have done sexual things before I was ready? If I had dated him, would I still be with him? Would I have never dated the current love of my life three years ago? Would I be where I am now? Who knows. All I do know is that I am happy with how everything turned out in the end.

 

[akade]

exactly

how is it that we can be so afraid of one another? so cool that your friend was more important than the illusive boy......thanks for the literate response.


xoxoxoxoxo ak

 

[College_geek]

how is it that we can be so afraid of one another? so cool that your friend was more important than the illusive boy......thanks for the literate response.


xoxoxoxoxo ak

I was always shy around guys, unless they were my friends. I was sort of friends with him, as he was in the band with me, but when he was in different classes than me and I didn't get to interact with him on a regular basis, I got more shy. Of course, after dating Zerg, the next fall he actually dated a different friend on mine for about two months and it's interesting how comfortable I was around him at that point. It was a bit awkward since I had liked him for a long time and was never really sure if he liked me back (maybe he was just being nice by saying yes?), but since I had moved on, it was all good. And I ended up with the sweet kind of shy geek.

 

[akade]

but and still

so cool when they can be near and not suck your control. am usually good at brushing disaster...xo a

 

[Xectxny19X]

eeeh...I think this is more of a gaydar and rejection problem for me. Hell, I'm shy, too. This VeRy VeRy cute girl in my physics class asked for my phone number, and I somehow managed to steer the conversation another direction. *shakes head* Everytime she flirted w/ me...again, I'm the expert in changing the subject. Finally, I was helping the guy in our group b/c he was failing the class. I think she took it the wrong way and yeah... There's my 2 cents!