Been away forever.

[JohnnyA]

Hi all. My computer died a long time ago and I was without access to anything.
If anyone remembers me my life is still spiraling out of control and I can't get a grip on it and I still havent met a transgendered person here in Cleveland. I have my license back, but I have negative money at the moment. Still totally addicted to drugs(dxm) and slowly dying. I see rays of hope though. I've been working out for the past 6 days. and also im going to call the 1 single person in my 26 years of living that i had a relationship with. I havent talked to her in 7 years and I havent even had a kiss on the cheek since she left my life. this lack of human contact and bonding is killing me and forcing me deeper into drugs. i so desperately want to pull myself out. at the root of it all i still havent seen a psychitrist about my gender dysphoria either. ok im rambling, thanks for listening

off to the gym, its the one thing that will keep me going!
sorry to be a bummer with my first post back since like 5 months. ill add cherrier things later.
love john

 

[Tymeless]

hun your killing yourself and your issues aren't bad enough for you to do such a thing. No matter how bad things killing yourself isn't the answer. Please find a way to see a therapist one that specializes in gender issues would be best. John/Jenny do it for us please we are all supporting you. There is light at the end of the tunnel but you have to take it into your own hands and make it happen you can't keep waiting for things to get better you have to make them better yourself!

 

[naughtyinsilk]

To put it bluntly, get your act together before your habit kills you, no body male or female wants to date a junkie, if you cant cope with yourself, you will have no chance of building a relationship with someone else.

You admit you have a problem, well stop the selfpity and go and find a treatment program that will solve your issues and take away your dependency on drugs.

Dont throw away your life, we only get one shot at it.

Best wishes and good luck, if you really want to quit, myself and others here will support you.

 

[Etoile]

Do you still have that PM I sent with Cleveland-area people who can help you? If not let me know and I will find the info again.