O'Mac
Literotica Guru
- Joined
- Dec 28, 2004
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...And boy do I have a story to tell.
It's been about 6 month or so since I last posted here, and before them I was a semi-regular forums submitter I'd say. I didn't stop because I wasn't finding the answers I needed or because I thought I didn't need to talk about how I fit into the lifestyle. You see the relationship I've been in for the past year or so has been the focus of so much in my life. For one special person, I changed jobs, left most of my friends and family, moved to a new city with her and her husband, and pretty well started a new life all over together with her. So much of me went into the whole relationship and for the longest time I thought it couldn't possibly end. In the end though, we've just both realised that maybe we're better off as friends.
She talked to me the other night about starting things up again with her husband. I don't know why it's affected me so much, though. I said all along that if she did want to take another shot at her marriage again, I would support the two of them as much as I could. The reality of not having her there for me has come as a total shock. I'm not feeling angry or upset at her, if fact I'm so happy for the both of them that they are going to work together and maybe fix whatever they had broken between them. For me, the feelings are mostly of fear and loss. I saw my partner as so much more than my sub. She was the person I could protect and care for. She was the most valuble possession that I, as a Master could ever have. More to the point, she was a women that I loved very much.
So here I am again. I'm back from the hinterlands and ready to get back into the scene once again. I'm readying myself to go on the hunt again for another special person, but I know I need a little time to myself first before jumping into things again. I just wanted to let some of you know where I've been, what I've been doing, and what sort of things I want to start doing again.
It's been about 6 month or so since I last posted here, and before them I was a semi-regular forums submitter I'd say. I didn't stop because I wasn't finding the answers I needed or because I thought I didn't need to talk about how I fit into the lifestyle. You see the relationship I've been in for the past year or so has been the focus of so much in my life. For one special person, I changed jobs, left most of my friends and family, moved to a new city with her and her husband, and pretty well started a new life all over together with her. So much of me went into the whole relationship and for the longest time I thought it couldn't possibly end. In the end though, we've just both realised that maybe we're better off as friends.
She talked to me the other night about starting things up again with her husband. I don't know why it's affected me so much, though. I said all along that if she did want to take another shot at her marriage again, I would support the two of them as much as I could. The reality of not having her there for me has come as a total shock. I'm not feeling angry or upset at her, if fact I'm so happy for the both of them that they are going to work together and maybe fix whatever they had broken between them. For me, the feelings are mostly of fear and loss. I saw my partner as so much more than my sub. She was the person I could protect and care for. She was the most valuble possession that I, as a Master could ever have. More to the point, she was a women that I loved very much.
So here I am again. I'm back from the hinterlands and ready to get back into the scene once again. I'm readying myself to go on the hunt again for another special person, but I know I need a little time to myself first before jumping into things again. I just wanted to let some of you know where I've been, what I've been doing, and what sort of things I want to start doing again.
