argh

[DustyWolfe]

*banging my head against the wall* Nope, that doesn't feel any better.

Have you ever really needed to do something for yourself for health reasons or just something really important and couldn't do it? Like you know you have to but you are just totally paralyzed with fear?

 

[LukkyKnight]

I cannot imagine you had to bang your head for health reasons, so can you just tell us what you need help with? Some of us are very persuasive if we know what you need to be talked into doing...

 

[Kitte]

Everyday...so just do it! If you need support we are here!

 

[DustyWolfe]

I cannot imagine you had to bang your head for health reasons, so can you just tell us what you need help with? Some of us are very persuasive if we know what you need to be talked into doing...

*sighs* I've been having a lot of health problems for several years. I went to the dr in November and they found that I had a precancerous condition. But I never knew it. No one ever followed up with me or anything. When I was supposed to go check back in with the dr my wicked ex turned off my alarm and I didn't get up. So I have been walking around around 7 months with this condition.

My symptoms are a bit worse now and I made some calls. Ended up talking to an oncologist that told me by now I have cancer. He got me in touch with a social worker and the social worker says I have to go to planned parenthood immediately.

I'm scared to death of doctors and of being touched by strangers, there are only a couple of people on this earth that can really get by with touching me, Jen and someone else on this board. I know I need to go but I am just too freaking scared. Scared to have the tests cause they are painful, and scared to know. Scared of dying alone.... Scared because with the type of cancer they think it is, it's about 95% deadly

 

[Kitte]

Dusty darlin, I know how hard it is... You have to go and get it checked...there is a chance it never advanced...Hon if I could hold your hand I would. But I will light a candle and put you in my thoughts...And I am always here to talk.

 

[RawHumor]

OMG!

Hon, you HAVE to go!

I don't even know the words to express my feelings right now, and you know how seldom THAT happens!

 

[LukkyKnight]

Not knowing is already consuming you with fear. Knowing will not be worse. If there's nobody else who'd go along, ask the social worker that called for help. Inaction is your greatest enemy.

 

[DustyWolfe]

Dusty darlin, I know how hard it is... You have to go and get it checked...there is a chance it never advanced...Hon if I could hold your hand I would. But I will light a candle and put you in my thoughts...And I am always here to talk.

Thank you...

 

[perks]

you're not going to stop the cancer by not knowing.

You will be able to start a course of action that might plausibly save your life if you go.

A moment of pain might save your life.

We don't want to lose you.

please go to the Dr.

 

[DustyWolfe]

Re: OMG!

Hon, you HAVE to go!

I don't even know the words to express my feelings right now, and you know how seldom THAT happens!

*writing this date on calendar "RawHumor speechless"* Seriously though...

I'm trying to go.. Jen asked me earlier "If you can't do it for yourself, will you do it for me?" My heart of course melted but it didn't take away the fear. I know I am breaking her heart but when it comes to hospitals I am just terrified because of a bad experience.

 

[DustyWolfe]

you're not going to stop the cancer by not knowing.

You will be able to start a course of action that might plausibly save your life if you go.

A moment of pain might save your life.

We don't want to lose you.

please go to the Dr.

*sighs* your right.. and thank you... I guess I am just really anxious. Last time I went to a dr like this I had a really bad experience, that's what is stopping me.. I know deep down that this much is true

 

[RawHumor]

Re: Re: OMG!

when it comes to hospitals I am just terrified because of a bad experience.

So tell her to dress up in a nurse's outfit and "play doctor" with you. That way, when you're at the hospital, you'll have all these wicked & sexy thoughts going through your head as a way to escape.

 

[LukkyKnight]

I understand and sympathize with the bad experience. The good news is NOT all doctors are the same, so the odds are your experience will be different when you set aside the very-reasonable anxiety and get to it.

 

[DustyWolfe]

Re: Re: Re: OMG!

So tell her to dress up in a nurse's outfit and "play doctor" with you. That way, when you're at the hospital, you'll have all these wicked & sexy thoughts going through your head as a way to escape.

LOL funny... dont think that would work though... she's thousands of miles away

 

[DustyWolfe]

I understand and sympathize with the bad experience. The good news is NOT all doctors are the same, so the odds are your experience will be different when you set aside the very-reasonable anxiety and get to it.

Thank you I will remember that and swallow my fear.... The friend I am staying with will be home soon... She's probably going to make me go when Jen tells her anyways.

 

[sabbathstorm]

I've had a similar experience and have been seeing a specialist for almost a year now. I had my yearly pap test come back as precancerous with severe dysplasia. I've been through the colposcopy and numerous pap test with the same specialist. It's very important that you go and get your tests and procedures done. I've been very lucky in that follow up tests haven't shown any further problems. I still have one more series of tests to go before I can consider myself in the clear.

The specialist I deal with has been great. I'm hoping you get someone equally as good.

 

[seXieleXie]

when you go to the doctor, have your friend come with you. tell the doctor straight up that you are terrified, have been the victim of abuse and have issues with being touched. tell the doctor you had a bad experiance.

the best way for you to die from cancer is just let it kill you. if you see a doctor there is a chance you can do something; if you don't, there isn't.

 

[DustyWolfe]

when you go to the doctor, have your friend come with you. tell the doctor straight up that you are terrified, have been the victim of abuse and have issues with being touched. tell the doctor you had a bad experiance.

the best way for you to die from cancer is just let it kill you. if you see a doctor there is a chance you can do something; if you don't, there isn't.

Jen and I had this discussion last night... Basically I am going to have to tell my friend (if she goes with me) what some of my stuff is that is going on so when the dr asks the difficult questions she can answer them for me.

Yes, I will have to explain my issues with abuse and being touched...

Thank you

 

[DustyWolfe]

I've had a similar experience and have been seeing a specialist for almost a year now. I had my yearly pap test come back as precancerous with severe dysplasia. I've been through the colposcopy and numerous pap test with the same specialist. It's very important that you go and get your tests and procedures done. I've been very lucky in that follow up tests haven't shown any further problems. I still have one more series of tests to go before I can consider myself in the clear.

The specialist I deal with has been great. I'm hoping you get someone equally as good.

Ooooh Good luck on your future round of tests I hope that they come back fine. Hopefully I can find someone good but I dont have ANY insurance AT ALL.

 

[Guest]

dustygrrl

keep you head up think positive hopefully it will all be finr i had a gf once that was told that se had a precancerous situation as it turned out she didnt after all so go see maybe its not . i know how drs and hospitals can be . my wife has a terminal auto ammune disease that they have not controled yet as a matter of fact we are trying to get into mayo clinic . good luck dustygrrl and i am sure if you need support there are many here to give you that

 

[Mr. Bootie]

Hello Dusty. You know you more than have my support Hon'.

I'll be available if you need another hand holding yours sweetie. You are not alone in this. You have many friends.


**Loving ((HUGS)) and **KISSES**



kgboot
aka "Mr. Bootie"

 

[DustyWolfe]

Re: Hello Dusty. You know you more than have my support Hon'.

I'll be available if you need another hand holding yours sweetie. You are not alone in this. You have many friends.
**Loving ((HUGS)) and **KISSES**
kgboot
aka "Mr. Bootie"

Thanks Mr. Bootie

 

[JenJ]

*sighs* I've been having a lot of health problems for several years. I went to the dr in November and they found that I had a precancerous condition. But I never knew it. No one ever followed up with me or anything. When I was supposed to go check back in with the dr my wicked ex turned off my alarm and I didn't get up. So I have been walking around around 7 months with this condition.

My symptoms are a bit worse now and I made some calls. Ended up talking to an oncologist that told me by now I have cancer. He got me in touch with a social worker and the social worker says I have to go to planned parenthood immediately.

I'm scared to death of doctors and of being touched by strangers, there are only a couple of people on this earth that can really get by with touching me, Jen and someone else on this board. I know I need to go but I am just too freaking scared. Scared to have the tests cause they are painful, and scared to know. Scared of dying alone.... Scared because with the type of cancer they think it is, it's about 95% deadly

*hugging you tight* It's going to be okay and I'm proud of you because you are going even though you are scared. Everything will be okay we just have to stay positive.

 

[DustyWolfe]

*hugging you tight* It's going to be okay and I'm proud of you because you are going even though you are scared. Everything will be okay we just have to stay positive.

Thank you baby, we have discussed my fears and now that I know you aren't going anywhere I am ok. I can deal with the rest as long as I have you.

 

[CarolineOh]

when you go to the doctor, have your friend come with you. tell the doctor straight up that you are terrified, have been the victim of abuse and have issues with being touched. tell the doctor you had a bad experiance.

the best way for you to die from cancer is just let it kill you. if you see a doctor there is a chance you can do something; if you don't, there isn't.

Lexie said it as well as anyone could. go for yourself, or tell yourself you are going for Jen, or tell yourself whatever it takes to motivate you, but GO!