Argh!

DarKirby

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I don't post on here often, but I kind of wanted to get this off my chest.
I'm a bisexual male who has never had a sexual experience with another man. I don't call myself bicurious because I just know I'm bisexual, and I'm really happy to be bisexual.
The fact that I've never done anything with another man is starting to bother me. I haven't done that much sexually period, but man, what I've done has been AMAZING. I'm a very sexual person (which should be kind of obvious...I mean, I'm on Lit), and I don't think desires should go unfulfilled for to long. I just can't seem to find an experience that I think would be comfortable. I don't want to just meet up with some person I met on the internet just for sex. While sex is awesome and I don't think there's anything bad about doing something like that, I just don't feel like I'd be as comfortable, and I don't want to just be viewed as some kind of object by whoever I'm with. It can be fun to talk like that, but I want to know that he actually sees me as a human being, too.
But then, I'm not particularly interested in a relationship, either. I'm polyamorous, and until I meet people who are accepting of that, relationships are sort of out of the question. Even then, I'm not that romantically inclined...I have very strong connections with my close friends and I'm often really excited to be with them, and to me, that's basically the same thing as romance, but I don't get that "I really want to be with this person all the time and I can't stop thinking about him/her" feeling.
I guess I want that sort of connection (the kind I have with my close friends) to have a sexual component also. It occasionally happens with female friends, but I wish it would happen with a guy. I want to discover and explore that side of myself, you know? But it's hard. It's hard for me to relate to guys in general, and it's hard to find people who want to explore sex outside of a monogamous commitment, but who also see me as a human being instead of just a fuck. It's not that I'm shy about meeting people off the internet, it's just that I'd rather have more of a connection than "Oh, I like gay sex, you do too."
I guess I just came on here to rant. Other than that, life is good. I hope everyone else on here is doing well.
 
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