Are you interested?

[DarkDesire81]

I am not looking for a thrill or a quick fix. I want a relationship but before I go on I should explain my situation. Yes, I am married; but we live like house-mates. My husband wanted a companion and I wanted a lover and soul mate. Things did not come to light until after we were married. I know there are quite a few people who are just looking for sex or someone to just sweep them off their feet, I am looking for neither. I know my situation and I am willing to put everything up front. My husband does not really care for sex; I don’t know if he just does not care for it with me or what his hang up is, but my feelings at this point is-it really does not matter anymore. We have been together for almost 5 years and this has been going on for almost 4 of the 5.I am finished trying to fix it or looking for ways to make it better, its just not worth it anymore.

I am not trying to make excuses for myself and I know what I am doing might seem not right; but being honest I respect my husband but I do not love him. I want is a real relationship where it goes will only come with time.

So why don’t I just not leave? Because I am not financially prepared to; No! I am not looking for a hand out or someone to support me nor am I looking for someone to take me away. I work and I am quite capable of supporting myself, you see I have lived from check to check before and I am not doing it again. I have already made up my mind that I am going to leave it is only a matter of when.

I may seem stupid to some; to others out right desperate, but I assure you I am neither. Why am I posting on the internet? Because I know there is someone who feels the same way I do. He may not be in the situation that I am in but he does know exactly what I am talking about.

Please do not reply if you have not fully considered my words, this is not a game and tricks are for kids.

So to tell you about myself, I am 5’10, medium length hair which is black. I have brown eyes and I am a woman of color. I don’t really know my measurements because to be honest I have just lost over 20 lbs and I don’t know them any more but I can tell you that I wear size 16-18 pants now where I use to wear 20-22. I am a good cook, I have a smooth complexion and I detest drama. I like to read, and window shop. I am mostly a loner, I don’t really like crowds-I would prefer to cuddle up with a love one and watch a movie or hold hands while take a walk in the park. I want you to tell me what your dreams are and how I can help you make them come true. My mission will be to make your happiness become a reality. I can assure you, your decision of me will not be regretted not for a single moment.

 

[tythisredheadup]

Bravo

Bravo for your truthful post. You and I are in the similar situation. Best wishes to you. I hope you find what you seek.

 

[DarkDesire81]

Re: Bravo

Bravo for your truthful post. You and I are in the similar situation. Best wishes to you. I hope you find what you seek.

I hope so to....maybe I was to truthful or everyone is just looking for a sexual encounter.

How do you deal with your situation? If you don't mind me asking.

 

[docsnore]

Re: Re: Bravo

I hope so to....maybe I was to truthful or everyone is just looking for a sexual encounter.

How do you deal with your situation? If you don't mind me asking.

Dark, you are not too truthful. I think it's refreshing to hear a woman speak as openly as you have. Yes there are many looking for just an encounter, and then there are many that just want it in their heads, and still there are those that are in similar positions as you. Don't give up hope. Or you "tythisredheadisup"
don't give up hope. It may take some time but it will happen. I sound like the many that have spoken to me, I'm lonly and seperated, she walked out not me, Been a long time too. But enought of me except that after many friendly meeting there may be a special one out there. Only time will tell, even thought i don't feel i got time to waste, it makes me answer the deep questions of what I'd like in my next partner. So i say use this time wisely, and make that partner interveiw questionaire that you need answered for you.
Good luck and remember Honest and open is always best. makes it easier to remeber what you've said.

Doc

 

[DarkDesire81]

Re: Re: Re: Bravo

Dark, you are not too truthful. I think it's refreshing to hear a woman speak as openly as you have. Yes there are many looking for just an encounter, and then there are many that just want it in their heads, and still there are those that are in similar positions as you. Don't give up hope. Or you "tythisredheadisup"
don't give up hope. It may take some time but it will happen. I sound like the many that have spoken to me, I'm lonly and seperated, she walked out not me, Been a long time too. But enought of me except that after many friendly meeting there may be a special one out there. Only time will tell, even thought i don't feel i got time to waste, it makes me answer the deep questions of what I'd like in my next partner. So i say use this time wisely, and make that partner interveiw questionaire that you need answered for you.
Good luck and remember Honest and open is always best. makes it easier to remeber what you've said.

Doc

Maybe most people are looking for fantasy and not interested in real life. Or they could think "what type of person would post themself on Lit and be real about it'?