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Curtis71

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I have on and off again-gf with whom I had/have a very volatile relationship. Lots of passion, lots of fighting. Not normally my thing at all. I’m not generally ever jealous but was/am with her.

She went out late one night and ended up in some guy’s hotel room at 3am. Of course “nothing happened”….whatever…

I proceeded to fill in the blanks of what probably happened that night and it was/is an incredible turn on. Because she lied, I know it and I was jealous. But why does it turn me on?

Mind you, we both had and have multiple other lovers (together and apart), so it’s not just a case of wanting to see her with someone else. It’s more specific to the lying and the jealousy…

Sometimes I have to imagine that scenario to even cum… What is the hook?
 
I have on and off again-gf with whom I had/have a very volatile relationship. Lots of passion, lots of fighting. Not normally my thing at all. I’m not generally ever jealous but was/am with her.

She went out late one night and ended up in some guy’s hotel room at 3am. Of course “nothing happened”….whatever…

I proceeded to fill in the blanks of what probably happened that night and it was/is an incredible turn on. Because she lied, I know it and I was jealous. But why does it turn me on?

Mind you, we both had and have multiple other lovers (together and apart), so it’s not just a case of wanting to see her with someone else. It’s more specific to the lying and the jealousy…

Sometimes I have to imagine that scenario to even cum… What is the hook?

Are you a big drinker?
 
you are a pervert.

I think it has to do with base, animal drives & emotions. angry/jealous sex is usually great sex, because the heat of those emotions makes all the lines come into sharp, sharp focus.

also, you are a slut.
 
I have on and off again-gf with whom I had/have a very volatile relationship. Lots of passion, lots of fighting. Not normally my thing at all. I’m not generally ever jealous but was/am with her.

She went out late one night and ended up in some guy’s hotel room at 3am. Of course “nothing happened”….whatever…

I proceeded to fill in the blanks of what probably happened that night and it was/is an incredible turn on. Because she lied, I know it and I was jealous. But why does it turn me on?

Mind you, we both had and have multiple other lovers (together and apart), so it’s not just a case of wanting to see her with someone else. It’s more specific to the lying and the jealousy…

Sometimes I have to imagine that scenario to even cum… What is the hook?

you are a cuckold bro!

Stew
 
you are a pervert.

I think it has to do with base, animal drives & emotions. angry/jealous sex is usually great sex, because the heat of those emotions makes all the lines come into sharp, sharp focus.

also, you are a slut.

Yes.

I think you are correct, it's just not a motivator that I've ever recognized in myself...

Yes.
 
Some people get turned on thinking about their lover being with another partner.


Some people find themselves turned on by the thoughts of slippery, wet,
juicy, sweet Piscis Piscis ...

We are all different and have different kinks.

Different strokes for different folks. :)
 
I have on and off again-gf with whom I had/have a very volatile relationship. Lots of passion, lots of fighting. Not normally my thing at all. I’m not generally ever jealous but was/am with her.

She went out late one night and ended up in some guy’s hotel room at 3am. Of course “nothing happened”….whatever…

I proceeded to fill in the blanks of what probably happened that night and it was/is an incredible turn on. Because she lied, I know it and I was jealous. But why does it turn me on?

Mind you, we both had and have multiple other lovers (together and apart), so it’s not just a case of wanting to see her with someone else. It’s more specific to the lying and the jealousy…

Sometimes I have to imagine that scenario to even cum… What is the hook?

Could be part compersion, part that you feel inadequate, part that you're happy she's seeing other people... You could get off on the jealousy , the lies, the deception.

I had an encounter with a very lovely french woman who was utterly batshit crazy. She dragged me under a table at a crowded bar and whispered in my ear in French (which started a fetish for me), and then I threw her in the trunk of my car and brought her home and fucked her. She lied about how she lost my virginity 3 times that night, and lied about a tremendous amount of other things... she had fire, and was quite a hot mess.

I still think fondly of her.

Maybe you get off on the chaos?
 
That could just be denial. I don't get the whole cuckolding thing either. You should explore it.

I do drink. But I don't have a problem, I have a lot of experience with alcoholics and know the difference.

The cuckolding thing is interesting. My initial instinct is to deny it but perhaps it bears examination. There is definitely something different about this trigger...
 
Could be part compersion, part that you feel inadequate, part that you're happy she's seeing other people... You could get off on the jealousy , the lies, the deception.

I had an encounter with a very lovely french woman who was utterly batshit crazy. She dragged me under a table at a crowded bar and whispered in my ear in French (which started a fetish for me), and then I threw her in the trunk of my car and brought her home and fucked her. She lied about how she lost my virginity 3 times that night, and lied about a tremendous amount of other things... she had fire, and was quite a hot mess.

I still think fondly of her.

Maybe you get off on the chaos?

I like the chaos theory quite a bit. She is indeed a hot mess...
 
i'm no pervert like these other degenerates, but is this a cuckold thing?
 
I have on and off again-gf with whom I had/have a very volatile relationship. Lots of passion, lots of fighting. Not normally my thing at all. I’m not generally ever jealous but was/am with her.

She went out late one night and ended up in some guy’s hotel room at 3am. Of course “nothing happened”….whatever…

I proceeded to fill in the blanks of what probably happened that night and it was/is an incredible turn on. Because she lied, I know it and I was jealous. But why does it turn me on?

Mind you, we both had and have multiple other lovers (together and apart), so it’s not just a case of wanting to see her with someone else. It’s more specific to the lying and the jealousy…

Sometimes I have to imagine that scenario to even cum… What is the hook?

You like women who don't need you?

Sounds like something I would have been in the middle of at 20 something.
 
I have on and off again-gf with whom I had/have a very volatile relationship. Lots of passion, lots of fighting. Not normally my thing at all. I’m not generally ever jealous but was/am with her.

She went out late one night and ended up in some guy’s hotel room at 3am. Of course “nothing happened”….whatever…

I proceeded to fill in the blanks of what probably happened that night and it was/is an incredible turn on. Because she lied, I know it and I was jealous. But why does it turn me on?

Mind you, we both had and have multiple other lovers (together and apart), so it’s not just a case of wanting to see her with someone else. It’s more specific to the lying and the jealousy…

Sometimes I have to imagine that scenario to even cum… What is the hook?

It may be as simple as knowing other men want what you've got.
 
You like women who don't need you?

Sounds like something I would have been in the middle of at 20 something.

Yes. I do not like being needed at all. I want to be wanted, but not needed. Nice point....


And I agree, that's why this bothers me. I'm in my 40's, I don't do high-school drama and volatility.... My life is orderly and mature.

And this feels like some immature bs.
 
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