Am I bi or gay, or?

[Jamie81]

Hi everyone

Im really sorry it took me half a bottle of vodka for the courage to write this, but the story is as follows...

I, at least I thought I was, am straight.

With my last partner, she hinted she was interested in some anal play, but starting small, so I ordered some smaller vibrators and butt plugs, before they arrived we broke up, and curiosity got the better of me, and I tried them on myself, and much to my suprise, I enjoyed nothing more than working it into my arse, putting it on full power and masturbating while thrusting it in and out, some of the best masturbation I've ever had...

since then, I've worked some larger object into myself, ie carrots, cucumbers, glass bottles, and have even effectivly given blow jobs to objects while thrusting someting into my arse, and I cum without fail in seconds (I even feel my arse clenching around whatever I happen to be using at the time)

And I've been, fighting I guess, the urge to post here, trying to arange a meet with another guy here (Melbourne, Australia....) to meet up and explore these avenues, and tonight, I was looking at a friend (Whom I think is Bi, but I'm not 100%) thinking that he was quite attractive, and I then found I'd been staring at his crotch, imaging giving him a blow job..

Has anyone else found the same in there life? I am Still very attracted to females, but the thought of been deep inside a man, stroking his penis on every thrust and tasting his tounge and semen, is amazingly hot, so much so I had to contain an errection tonight thinking of it, even tho I know the other guy is hetro, and would never try anything else....

The basic gist of this is should I try and arange a meet and see what happens? or Just accept it as curiosity and ignore it, keep it as a fantasy as such?

And here is a pic of what these thoughts do to me..

Thanks everyone in advance for any advice..

 

[lustybard]

The basic gist of this is should I try and arange a meet and see what happens? or Just accept it as curiosity and ignore it, keep it as a fantasy as such?

And here is a pic of what these thoughts do to me..

Thanks everyone in advance for any advice..

First of all, nice pic.

Second, I feel that if you think this may be part of who you are, you owe it to yourself to explore that. At least so you know , whatever you choose to do with that knowledge.

Why don't you start by simply finding some people to chat with about it all, first? It sounds like you could use some time to get comfortable with the idea, and it's a lot easier to back off online, if you need to, than in person. It sounds like you're willing to explore this side of yourself, but you don't have to jump in at the deep end. Take some time, talk to some other people who are willing to discuss it without judging you, and see where that takes you.

In the end, of course, you're going to be much happier if you allow yourself to be whoever you really are, whoever that means you're attracted to.

 

[nobody~19]

Has anyone else found the same in there life? I am Still very attracted to females, but the thought of been deep inside a man, stroking his penis on every thrust and tasting his tounge and semen, is amazingly hot, so much so I had to contain an errection tonight thinking of it, even tho I know the other guy is hetro, and would never try anything else....

After reading that n seeing your pic.....

Deep! Mmmm.

 

[Jamie81]

Thanks for the kind words and advice