All good things...

[Mae13]

Must come to an end. I'm afraid I will no longer be able to post pics here my fellow Lit folks...not any that are 'risque' anyway...I am methodically going through and deleting all the pix I have posted that show anything sexual as well.

I have attempted to be careful and not mix my work life with the life I explore here...but now, thanks to a response in my "Insomnia" thread (yep, that'd be YOU xafboy) those are no longer separate. I cannot afford the risk that comes with the two publically connected as they are now. Especially not with my new move coming up. Thank you so much for your thoughtlessness, I'm sure the rest of the folks here will thank you as well...

I will continue to add myself when I can (such as the lips/neck/tattoo threads) but regret that my other options have now been taken from me...

This really fucking sucks. Have a great night

Mae

 

[Glyndwr]

Hi Mae

I'm so sorry this had to happen, but I can sympathise entirely especially as I've seen the content of that post. Thanks for the glimpses you have given us of your life and I hope you'll remain posting until you depart overseas.
*hug*
If you need a 'rage vent' let me know.

 

[Mae13]

As stupid as it may seem, this really was something I enjoyed so much...I guess with every door that opens sometimes, another one still has to get slammed. It is very silly how distressing this is to me. I just wish people would fucking think sometimes. I know that's too much to ask though....

Heavy-hearted Mae

 

[tonytuna1957]

Mae13 -

Well it was once said that all you have to do is die and pay taxes...... well I guess they forgot to say and look out for the assholes in the world that fuck things up..........but you and alot of other people know the difference between right and wrong .... it is a shame that not everone does......You must do what is right for you and your friend will know the reason and understand

But we dont have to like it...................sorry about your work shit ...I know I had to give up something I enjoyed greatly because of my job....so i dont know completely how you feel but I do understand.........BTW you forgot to mention eyes on your future post......lol

Great Saddend

Tony

 

[Mae13]

You betcha Tony, I can bring out more eyes for you once they have some light in them again. I don't know how to explain it, really...this was SO much more than just posting pictures for me. This was a place to share my art that noone else can see...but now I have lost even that

 

[P. B. Walker]

This fricken sucks!

I had come to really look forward to your posts Mae. I will miss them.

Don't ya wish ya could just reach out into cyberspace and put your cyberfoot up someone's cyberass?

- PBW

 

[weathered2]

Mae-
That really does suck. I'm a wimp, but I have some mean friends if you need someone taught a lesson, (just kidding... sort of).

One suggestion. Pick a few friends here whose artistic taste and discretion you trust and establish a relationship to continue your art by email. I actually have one such relationship going and am finding it very satisfying. Same kind of thrill, putting together little mini-series of pics and such to see what impact I can create.

I'm not volunteeering, because that would look too much like an opportunistic ploy, and you've obviously been through enough right now.

But the point is you don't have to give up what you enjoy about it. Then you would simply be changing to a group of small galleries to display your art instead of this one that's sort of out on an interstate highway.

Good luck,sweetie, and do stay in touch, I love you without the sexy photos, you're just a really special person.

 

[Guest]

so infrequently in life do you get a chance to glimpse into something truly beautiful. Those few occasions are the gems truly treasured in our dreams and your sharing of your soul with us commoners is more than any of us could have ever dreamed of. Now that it has to be taken away, it feels as though something from our beating heart is being ripped away and our sadness pales next to yours, but it is still there. And though everything has to be now limited, don't go away Mae. Please don't do that. Those pictures, as wonderful as they are, are secondary to your presence.

 

[Mae13]

Weathered...I may. I do not know. Right now I am solely intent on doing my part to ensure the information out there cannot harm me anymore than it already has.

This is so fucking stupid to feel such pain about such a trivial thing! This is the kind of time when I wish again I had that whole 'heart of steel that can feel no pain' sort of thing going on. The work of deleting myself from here actually is causing physical pain...

Emptyhed, I will not go away...well I will, for a while. This is not something I can just shake off and pop right back from. I have other things I need to focus energy on as well, such as my upcoming trip. But I'll peek around here and there, don't you worry...I'll be here again in the ways that I can be now that my other options have been thoughtlessly taken from me.

 

[randyscotsman]

Sorry to see the en of the pics mae darlin, but I understand the Armed Forces are prudish buggers when it comes to certain things and there always someone stupid enough to recognize you and open there gob.

 

[on_the_verge]

The word of the day...

Descry!

 

[HotnMature]

Mae~

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Big hugs darlin, just remember your true friends are here for you, even tho I haven't been a member here all that long, I do feel I've gotten to know you and you have inspired alot of people, myself included. You are a woman among women who are proud to be associated in the same race with you.

Your sharing and trust in us is something NO ONE can take away from you, and we all appreciate and admire you for it.

Luv ya hun

 

[gbd]

Mae, I have only had the opportunity to hear and see you for a very short time, but I am so depressed by your announcement. I hope you can find another avenue to have as much fun as you appeared to be having here.

 

[Aphrodisiac]

Mae


I am sorry you will not be able to post your beautiful pictures anymore. I hope you feel better and you know you are simply beautiful .... mind & spirit.

" Tu alma es muy bella" ...

 

[Ice Cold]

Mae...

Though your pics were beautiful Mae, those are not what kept me coming to your posts. It was your sense of humor, your words, sensiblities and insights.

I consider myself lucky enough to have seen the outer beauty you have shown here, while knowing there is a greater one lying underneath. I hope all works out well for you.

 

[SamMalone]

Mae 13.........

This is terrible! I just found and your pictures have been wonderful. I don't want you to go.

 

[weathered2]

... I have other things I need to focus energy on as well, such as my upcoming trip...

(weathered2 here in case this times out)
Your right, of course. For a young lady you've really tapped into your old spirit. Listen to that intuitive voice and do what you know you have to do. You're right about the energy thing. Focus your efforts and don't waste it. We all want to keep a piece of you here with us, but now is the time for you to take support from your friends rather than your friends taking from you. Tap in when it will help YOU the most. Onward and upward, honey, there's a bigger thing going on than we know, overcoming petty tyrants is one of life's most distasteful lessons, but I can tell you that once you have done so successfully, it is also one of life's most satisfying lessons. Fight the fight, girl, you're off to a good start.

 

[Sabineteas]

Oh god, Mae

Mae, I am so sorry to hear what has happened to you. You are a source of beauty and openess to me and it hurts me to see what has happened to you. I wish there was something that I could do for you.

I do understand what you are going through and please know in your mind that I am your friend and that if you need any support or a shoulder to vent, cry, or scream on, I am here for you.

You gave me courage to do things that I never thought I would and to say things that I never would have said.

Take time away but be sure to come back. This place will not be the same with out you, Mae. You have given many here insights and pleasure that is not measurable.

My heart goes out to you and I am crying for you also.

my love,

Sabine

 

[Driver]

Mae

Sorry about what has happened, I really enjoyed your posts!
They all oozed a very warm sensuality that you rarely get - The difference between erotica and porn.
It was great to see such a beautiful lady so comfortable with her sexuality and brave enough to show her face.

It is sad to see one less poster of this type. The genuine ones are so few and far between. I hope that some will contine because that makes for the best posts.

Those of us not as brave as Mae cover our faces for the very reason that has caused this thread because after all this is the World Wide Web.

Take care Mae - maybe oneday?

 

[EverReady4u]

Sorry you have to leave us. Enjoyed all of your pics. Thanks for sharing with us.

 

[bigdaddy]

Mae it's a sad day that this has happened. I understand your decision and back it all the way. If you need to talk and blow off some steam I'm here. I know this has to be a hard thing for you to do, because your works on here were masterpieces. You could tell they were truely a part of you. You will be greatly missed. Take your time do what you have to, but stay in touch.
**HUGS**
bigdaddy

 

[paganangel]

(shedding tears)

that fucking prick! there is no doubt that asshole was doing this on purpose. there was definetly an undertone of malice and mischief in the post. that little bastard. i am so sorry mae. i wish there was something i could do. u know i was your biggest fan. i'll miss the pics, but i'd miss you more. please don't drop off forever. i'll pm you if i think of anything at all that might ease this. god i hate that little shit. why do people have to be so foul hearted and mean spirited. this is why i hate humans. the evil of man!!there was no reason for this at all. i don't even know how i feel about him being allowed on the boards. but that's probably my passion over-powering my reason.
much love

 

[Lurius]

your beauty will be missed

Mae, I will miss your beautiful body as well, I do so love the way you set up all your sets with such beauty and certain elements of mystery, truely inspiring to all Im sure

 

[Mae13]

Thank you...

For all your kind words my fellow Lit'ers...they really do mean a lot to me. I am glad you have found such pleasure in what I have been able to share up to this point. Hopefully what I will be able to continue to contribute will be at least somewhat satisfying. The revealing pictures of myself isn't the ONLY reason why I'm here (obviously, if you've read any of my other rants anywhere else!) I will still be here, still drool over everyone else's photos, and give my two cents to everything

Now, for a little bit of a picture for some folks who are interested in ME as well as my pictures...a bit of an open letter to the one who had such an influence on my life today...xafboy...

I wonder if you know exactly what you have done. I truly hope that what you chose to do was based on thoughtlessness and ignorance only. If you actually DID think about the potential repercussions and chose to reply as such anyway, I cannot believe such a person exists here. If that is the case, please never come back...
I'm going to try to explain to you exactly what I have lost from your actions. I am an artist who has lost most of her art...through inability to access the tools, or because of time constraints or whatnot... I am a sculptor whose hands have not touched clay in years...a singer who hasn't vocalized other than in my car or house in ages...a tai chi practitioner who has no classes here to take...a poet whose quill ran dry after years of pouring out her emotions to paper. The little I had left was my photography...then I found Lit, and my photography took on a new twist...I was so elated, it felt as though my Muse had come back in some way.
I found a group here of people to share my Muse with...yes, some of them see me as merely a sexual object I'm sure; I do not present myself chastely. However, people here have given me so much already, at a time when I deeply craved reaffirmation. There are far too many of you here to mention by name, but you are all such a wonderful group of people. You are such bright, shining starts. I enjoyed so much 'peforming' for you, taking your suggestions and your fantasies and trying to make them a reality in some way. To show you that there was someone else out here that appreciates unnoted fantasies. It's funny, I had actually taken a few pictures already for a "Devotion" thread...to those of you who have touched my heart. I had thought out and written down ideas of shots for all of you...to present to you as gifts from my thankful heart to yours. Perhaps I will send them to you each individually instead, should I have the heart to continue following my Muse.
It isn't about posting naked pictures of myself for the glory of someone else getting their rocks off on it. It isn't about me getting my rocks off by posting myself. Hell, if that was the case, there are a million other places to do that which aren't full of so many wonderful people.
Unfortunately, my life path at this point has taken me to an 'employer' who does not appreciate the entirity of a person's spirit. It is one that thrives on conformity and sterility, even though it's own greatest heros have been those who didn't fit inside their box. Sexuality is frowned upon at the same time that it is revelled and touted as one of the 'benefits of the job'. I had hoped someone would have the decency to at least keep conversation private had you puzzled out my connections...but I guess that was too much to hope for. You cannot even fathom the strength it has taken to sustain my individuality in this organization. It is a constant struggle within myself, yet until now I had balanced both.

I know I can forgive you, in time, whether this was an unthinking mistake or a one with malicious intent. But right now I am so angry and hurt and saddened that I cannot. God damn you for taking this from me. It is a violation. But, I will live on and find other Muses eventually and will recover from this as I do everything else. However, I do wish to post one dedication, to you. All that is shown here is yours, irrevocably.


Goodnight Lit...
Mae

 

[Guest]

Mae,

As one who has been watching for and enjoying your postings from a distance, this is truely a sad day. Many have already voiced their saddness, and I felt the need to add my 2 cents worth. You will be missed without a dought. I can only hope that you will continue to monitor this discussion board and take comfort in the knowlage that the vast majority of Lit. readers are discret individuals. However as is the case in so many things in life, the few spoil it for the many...

I hope that your up-and-coming trip will give you a chance to forget about this. Renew your focus, and find your center once again. I will continue to watch this board with the hope of seeing Mae13 once again appear.

Your beauty runs much deeper than the flesh....

Sincerly,
Sleepless in Seattle