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[SusanJillParker]

I want to do two different things with my story that come close enough to Literotica TOS violations that my mind keeps going, "Hey, that's dumb, don't try to do that," but then at the same time, "Hey, maybe I could just..."

The characters are of-age in the story now, I want to go through a sequence of flashbacks to show who they used to be/what made them what they are.

I have a girl who's been the protagonist's best friend all throughout high school, who's developed a semi-secret crush on him. I want to go back through flashbacks to the first day they met, which would've been freshman year of high school, and continue on through 'till their senior year where she tries to kiss him. I want to show how she first became interested with him, and how she started to develop feelings for him. Sorta show how they've grown and changed in those years to become who they are in the current story.

As if that wasn't enough, I then also through these flashbacks want to hint at (but not show) how the protagonist was abused by his parents to explain how he became somewhat of a doormat for his overbearing girlfriend later on in his life/in general had problems forming trust and developing intimacy in relationship. The unrequited-crush girl would develop some of her feelings for the protagonist when she found out and tried to help him with these issues.

I know that I can write all of that out in a non-sexual manner, and I know that I can make it interesting. But does that matter? Is it too close or right on top of a line that just shouldn't be crossed? I mean, I recognize and appreciate that the line is there for a good reason, and even my own first knee-jerk reaction in giving myself advice for this is to write it out if I have to, but not submit it/include it in the chapters posted online.

One of my snippets:

Should I risk toe-ing the line here? I'm half-sure that even written out in a non-sexual way, and even if I only hint/imply abuse without showing it, I'll still get the chapter taken down or reported regardless. I just keep wanting to write it out so that readers can understand who they are and why it becomes significant years later (when they're of legal age, in their early twenties) that characters come together.

I'm hoping you guys have run into this problem already and found a better solution for this kind of situation, or at the least you can tell me it's just a no-go no matter what so that I can stop trying to make excuses for myself.

Your fiction is the reality of my life from 5 to 15 with seven different men (long story).

It's a story I'd love to write but I can't even if I wanted to write it, too painful. The story is too disturbing. Instead, I write as if everything that happened to me as a child, happened to me when I was 18-years-old. The reader is smart enough to read into what I'm writing to know that the sexual, emotional, and physical abused started long before my 18th birthday.

It's when you start rubbing ages of minors in Laurel's (the owner) face that she'll reject your story. I can't say that I blame her. I never write stories with under age characters for obvious reasons. I can't. I just can't.

What happened to me has ruined my life. Even now, after years of therapy, I still have nightmares and rage. Even after years of therapy, here I am writing erotica on a porn board. Go figure.

Yet, I'm one of the lucky ones. Most abused victims turn to alcohol, drugs, and suicide. Most abused victims become abusers themselves. Instead, I turned to reading, writing, and music. Even though I dropped out of high school, 5 years later, I earned my GED and graduated magna cum laude with a 3.65 gpa from Northeastern University with a BS in English with creative writing and English literature minors.

Yet, still, with all that I went through and all the I know, I married a drunken, abusive, Boston undercover cop who physically abused me. Our marriage lasted three years. The icing on the cake was when he told me that he had a vasectomy just before he married me. He didn't want children, even though he knew that I did.

We fucked like rabbits for three years. He didn't tell me that he was sterile until after we signed the divorce papers in the lawyers office. If I had a gun, I would have shot him.

Then, when I started writing here, afraid to post a story under my real name, I wrote under BostonFictionWriter from 2007 to 2008 and under my brother's name, Freddie. I was scared to death to post here as a woman. Now, I proudly write under my real name, Susan Jill Parker.

Yet, even now, the emotional abuse continues with Sr71plt and TxRad continuing calling me a man and questioning my honesty and sexuality. These two men hate women. That's the only explanation that I have why they would act so hateful to me.

Good luck with your story.

 

[lovecraft68]

as long as you don't say she's under 18 abusing a woman is a green light and encouraged in countless ways. Go for it. You'll get an awesome fan base of 'real men' who will jerk off to the abuse.

Freddie you were never abused and there's a special place in hell for people who lie about it for attention.

 

[SusanJillParker]

as long as you don't say she's under 18 abusing a woman is a green light and encouraged in countless ways. Go for it. You'll get an awesome fan base of 'real men' who will jerk off to the abuse.

Freddie you were never abused and there's a special place in hell for people who lie about it for attention.

For three men, you, HateShip, Sr71plt, and TxRad, who have never met me to be so certain that I'm a man named Freddie instead of a woman named Susan, I take that as a compliment.

For you three stooges to still believe that I'm a man instead of a woman, I must have been a better writer than I thought I was when writing under BostonFictionWriter as Freddie from 2007 to 2008.

There's a special place in Hell for you three to continually abuse me here on these boards. I could take all of your stories, all of Sr71plt's stories, and all of TxRad's strories and they still wouldn't equal the number of stories that I posted here in 10 years under 15 different names.

Yet, here you are, a dwarf of a man, the champion of women, as you brag, abusing a woman. How dare you?

Listen, I understand you have issues. No man who is under 5' tall can't go through life without emotional and psychological issues. I feel for you. I really do. Yet, in the way that I had years of therapy for the sexual, emotional, and physical abuse that happened to me from the ages of 5 to 15, perhaps you should have therapy now. Now one wants to go through life as a dwarf.

I'm sorry that you're so short but you are Sicilian, after all. Sicilian men aren't usually very tall and you happened to be on the shorter end of that shitty stick. Yet, your height disadvantage is not my fault nor is it my problem. Your dwarfism doesn't give you the excuse to strike out at me, a poor helpless (not really), defenseless (not a all), poor (give me a break) woman...asshole.

Thank you for stepping forward once again, HateShip to show everyone what a bag of smelly, steaming piece of shit you truly are.

My only advice to you, HateShip, is this...

"Follow the yellow, brick road."

 

[SusanJillParker]

The three biggest liars here are you, HateShip pretending to be Nezel, a Russian immigrant who doens't have a grasp of the English language yet he makes posts in perfect English (lol).

Sr71plt who is actually, JBJ, James Johnson. These two argue between themselves when they are both the same person. Moreover, even though Sr71plt only writes gay stories, he claims he's bi-sexual (lol). Jerry Springer said, quack like a duck and waddle like a duck, and if you suck a cock and take a cock up your ass, you're gay.

Yet, the worst offender is TxRad better known as NHrad. First of all, he's not from Texas. He's from Derry, New Hampshire. He's not even a man. He's a woman. Secondly, he is more infamously known as Madam Scouries. TxRad aka NHrad is, indeed, Madam Scouries. How about that?

Yet, here you three are, the biggest liars on the board trying your best to cast a dark cloud over me. The worst you can write about me if that I'm a man even though I was born a woman.

If you have a problem, we can take it outside. I have four big, angry brothers who would make you more of a smudge than the little shit that you are.

Oh, wait for it...have a nice day.

 

[SusanJillParker]

Please, start a new thread (Did I write it correct this time, Pilot?) to work on these issues. Don't take them to every thread on this platform.

Just write down all your issues in that one thread, and copy-paste the link if you want to use it to contribute to other people's comments and questions. Saves a lot of space.

I made my contribution to the thread and then HateShip attacked me. Having been attacked by enough men in my life, I refuse to go down without a fight just as I refuse to allow a midget to attack me.

My apologies for taking the thread off topic.

 

[SusanJillParker]

Why, thank you.

I didn't immigrate anywhere though.

You're welcome...Hateship.

"Follow the Yellow Brick road."

 

[TxRad]

Poor freddie. He has his ladies panties in a wad this morning. Don't pretend to be an abused woman and no one will care what kind of panties you wear.

Now go post your reply in big bold red letters in the AH Cafe like you did last time and we'll see if we can finally get your dumb ass banned once and for all. If you remember, that is how scouries number one alt got banned.

 

[SusanJillParker]

Just give it a try...
http://forum.literotica.com/showthread.php?t=1408326

The bottom line, Asshat, is this.

I don't bother anyone. I don't attack anyone. I don't harass anyone. I don't follow a poster around from thread to thread. If I post on anyone's thread, I'll make a comment that has to do with the topic.

Yet, these three, deeply disturbed individuals follow me around from thread to thread attacking me, calling me Freddie and calling me a man. I don't bother them but if they attack me, I'll respond in kind.

Tell me, Ruben, who's sock puppet are you?

They closed the My Story Board on VoyeurWeb because too many individuals were fighting between themselves and it was the same person with multiple identities.

We all know that Sr71plt, a pretend pilot who never flew a plane, is JBJ, James Johnson just as we all know that HateShip is Nezul, and just as we all know that NHrad is Madam Scouries. There's no secret to any of that. You'd have to be a total moron to believe otherwise. They'd all showed their hands. None of them have good poker faces.

So, who's sock puppet are you, Rubin?

Someone doesn't come from out of no where and start making dozens of posts as if he's been posting here for years. What's your gripe? What's your angle or are you just trying to make this a better community for all (lol).

"Fuck off!"

 

[SusanJillParker]

I barely have 1,700 posts, with most of those posted on the Survivor contest, yet, I'm the troublemaker.

Sr71plt, HateShip, and TxRad have tens of thousands of posts between them yet they're the good subjects of Literotica.

They're here 24/7. I write stories. That's what I do with my time. I don't endlesssly post nonsensical postings on the forum board. I don't look for trouble but if trouble comes my way, I have the right to defend myself as a woman being attacked by one man, HateShip, one gay man, Sr71plt, and one lesbian woman, TxRad.

 

[SusanJillParker]

[Personal attacks, accusations/insults against other Literotica authors, and trolling prohibited per our AH Forum Rules and are only allowed by Sr71plt, LoveCraft, and TxRad. No one is allowed to defend themselves against the personal attacks, accusations/insults against other Literotica authors made by Sr71plt, LoveCraft, and TxRad.]

Finally, after writing more than 2,000 stories and poems for ten years under 15 different names, I understand the rules of unfair play. I get it. Crystal clear, it all makes sense to me now.

 

[sr71plt]

Sr71plt who is actually, JBJ, James Johnson. These two argue between themselves when they are both the same person. Moreover, even though Sr71plt only writes gay stories, he claims he's bi-sexual (lol). Jerry Springer said, quack like a duck and waddle like a duck, and if you suck a cock and take a cock up your ass, you're gay.

The bottom line, Freddie--and I know Jerry Springer would agree with me on this if he could stop laughing long enough to say something--is that, of the two of us, you are the only man here who is trying to wear a dress.

 

[SusanJillParker]

The bottom line, Freddie--and I know Jerry Springer would agree with me on this if he could stop laughing long enough to say something--is that, of the two of us, you are the only man here who is trying to wear a dress.

[Personal attacks, accusations/insults against other Literotica authors, and trolling prohibited per our
AH Forum Rules and are only allowed by Sr71plt, LoveCraft, and TxRad.

No one is allowed to defend themselves against the personal attacks, accusations/insults against other
Literotica authors made by Sr71plt, LoveCraft, and TxRad.

I rest my case as per the above unprovoked attack by pretend pilot, Sr71plt.]

 

[TxRad]

Freddie, I don't bother you until you start in on the abused woman bit or try and convince newbies that you are a woman. Even the AH Mod knows better.

So you play nice and I play nice. Just reading your rant posts tell everyone exactly what they need to know.

What woman would start a scat thread?

 

[SusanJillParker]

Freddie, I don't bother you until you start in on the abused woman bit or try and convince newbies that you are a woman. Even the AH Mod knows better.

So you play nice and I play nice. Just reading your rant posts tell everyone exactly what they need to know.

What woman would start a scat thread?

What woman would start a Scat thread? Gees, lemme think. You would have had me there but...I wrote a multi-chapter story, Confessions of a Porn Star, for a woman from Beaverton, Orgegon, a swinger, Liz, who moved to Amsterdam with her husband to make 14 porn movies.

Wouldn't you know it, Madam Scouries, her first porn movie and the first chapter was...well what do you know...about Scat. How about that, huh, Madam Scouries?

[Personal attacks, accusations/insults against other Literotica authors, and trolling prohibited per our
AH Forum Rules and are only allowed by Sr71plt, LoveCraft, and TxRad.

No one is allowed to defend themselves against the personal attacks, accusations/insults against other
Literotica authors made by Sr71plt, LoveCraft, and TxRad.

I rest my case as per the above unprovoked attack by NHrad.]

 

[SusanJillParker]

For the record, I'm a woman who has a history of emotional, physical, and sexual abuse.

Yet, my emotional, physical, and sexual abuse pales in comparison to what
I must endure from Sr71plt, LoveCraft, and TxRad.

Why are these three individuals allowed to harass me?

I don't bother anyone. I mind my own business. I usually post to my own thread.

Yet, here they are still kicking shit at me and the moderator allows it to continue.

"What the fuck, Moderator? Close this fucking thread!"

Or are you as big of an asshole as these three clowns?

 

[sr71plt]

For the record, I'm a woman who has a history of emotional, physical, and sexual abuse.

For the record, no you're not. You are a middle-aged man named Freddie who has a long record of abusing others on this forum and of flipping through alts. It's not a personal attack to point out a fact that anyone who has been here for a few years figured out on their own--if only because when you really get revved up you admit to it all. Other posters suck into your rather sick performance art at their own peril.

You opened the thread yourself to do exactly what it's doing. It doesn't need a moderator to close it. You can erase all of your posts and just not do this nonsense anymore. (But, of course, you won't take that route.)

 

[SusanJillParker]

I did not open this thread

A moderator opened this thread.

Even though I have 15 alts, all of my alts are attached to stories. I can count on one hand how many of my alts have posted anything on the forum boards.

I really don't care what you three monsters think of me. I'm comfortable in my own skin.

If there is anyone that is angry it is you, Sr71plt.

You claim that you flew an SR71 plane during the Vietnam war at a time when homosexual men weren't allowed to serve in the military never mind fly a multi-million dollar plane.

You lied about being a diplomat.

You lied about being a CIA agent.

You lied about being an actor when you can't name a single part you've performed.

You've lied about being a recorded singer when you can't name a record that you recorded.

You lied about being a Broadway star when you can't name a single play you've performed.

You've lied about being a model when you can't name a single ad you've been hired to do.

You've even lied about being gay by saying that you're bi-sexual. Are you that embarrassed that you like cock?

You've even lied about being married when you lived alone with your mother and your cat. Now that both your mother and cat are dead, you're here 24/7 posting your poison.

You even lied about not being JBJ, James Johnson.

Have you told the truth about anything at all? Ever?

Get a life. Perhaps, if you embraced your life, you wouldn't have to lie about everything.

"So sad. You are so sad. I can't be angry with someone who is so mentally disturbed."

 

[sr71plt]

There you go. That's our Freddie.

 

[lovecraft68]

Knock it off with the Pilot is JBJ crap. Everyone knows Pilot is me. Get it straight.

 

[TxRad]

Knock it off with the Pilot is JBJ crap. Everyone knows Pilot is me. Get it straight.

Hey, you can't be Pilot, you're me.

 

[lovecraft68]

Hey, you can't be Pilot, you're me.

Shit, I forgot about that! So I'm you and Pilot....I need to work on being someone younger...jeez.

 

[ChloeTzang]

Shit, I forgot about that! So I'm you and Pilot....I need to work on being someone younger...jeez.

You could be me for a while if you like.

 

[lovecraft68]

You could be me for a while if you like.

Hmm...Younger and better looking! Sold!

 

[NOIRTRASH]

Knock it off with the Pilot is JBJ crap. Everyone knows Pilot is me. Get it straight.

^^^^What he means is he's fulla PILOT. Prolly fulla TEX too.

 

[SusanJillParker]

Obviously, these forum boards are controlled and populated by men. Most men are respectful of women. Most men enjoy having the opinions of women. Most men like women. Most men are good and kind, even those who are horny and have high sex drives. Most men would never disrespect or dare raise their hands to women.

Sr71plt aka James Johnson, LoveCraft aka Nezhul, and TxRad aka Madam Scouries don't have any respect for women. No. None at all. They despise women.

They don't enjoy the opinions or women, won't even listen to them. They enjoy seeing women cry and shrink away (not me). They go out of their way to insult and belittle women. I dare say that these three individuals not only dislike women but also hate women.

I can understand why Sr71plt doesn't like women. He's a gay man hiding under his cloak of bi-sexuality. Yet, a mystery to me, most gay men adore women. Yet, perhaps, in his deranged mind, no woman can compare to his beloved mother who did everything for him, even bathe him, masturbated him, and who died recently.

"God rest her soul."

Perhaps he blames all women for the death of his mother. I don't know. I have no idea what goes through his twisted, mentally ill mind. It wouldn't surprise me if his mother was mummified and sitting in a chair in the basement ala Norman Bates.

I can understand why TxRad doesn't like women. He's a dyke masquerading as a man. I don't even pretend to understand women who are dykes. Yet, with TxRad or actually, NHRad, his distain for all women makes sense to me now.

It must be so very hard for TxRad to be a woman when he yearns to be a man. It must be so very hard for TxRad to be born and raised in Derry, New Hampshire when he wishes that he was born and raised in Texas. Derry, New Hampshire is a better place to grow up than Texas, just my opinion, of course, having been to Derry but never having been to Texas.

The worst offender is LoveCraft. He has a wife. He has daughters. He should know better but he doesn't. He espouses how he champions the cause of battered women when he's a batterer himself. He's brutal to women. Perhaps the guilt he feels for hitting women, eases by him believing that he is a champion for battered women.

He hides himself behind respectability when according to police reports and court ordered restraints against him, he has beaten not only his wife but also his daughters. According to police reports and court ordered restraints, before he was married, he had beaten his mother and his sister. Once a batterer, always a batterer.

How dare you come here LoveCraft to batter more women? How dare you treat your own family with such violent hate. Get help, LoveCraft. Get help.

If I was to guess, I'd say they all feel threatened by women. I can't even begin to calculate how many women these three monsters are responsible for scaring away from these forum boards by not allowing them to post without attacking them.

Obviously, there's a reason why Sr71plt, LoveCraft, and TxRad are always here 24/7. Do they work for Literotica as moderators or as monitors? Is that why they're free from being disciplined? Is that why they're allowed to write anything they want and bully anyone by calling them a man instead of a woman?

I pray that men will treat their mothers, their wives, their girlfriends, their significant others, and their sisters in the way that these three bullies treat women and others on this board.

What comes around goes around and I can't wait for you three to reap what you've sowed.