SweetCherry
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When I was a kid, one of my fondest memories was going to car shows with my dad. I didn't really understand everything he was telling me about the cars there, but I thoroughly enjoyed every minute of it.
I can remember wandering thru aisle after aisle of cars, looking at all the sparkling chrome and metallic paints. Thre shapes of the different cars, learning how to tell the difference between a "56 and a '57 chevy (tho I have long since forgotten).
I remember him telling me stories of his automobile antics when he was a teen during the 50's and 60's. And more than anything, I remember being thankful for each and every moment with him, just because he was there.
My dad was and still is one of the most important people in my life. The one who I wanted more than anything to impress and make happy, and the one who i dreaded disappointing. He never yelled, raised his hand, or lectured. It was simply the knowledge that I had done something he disapproved of that made me behave as a child and teen.
To this day, I find that I'm like that. I do things to make the people I love feel special and to gain their aproval. I find myself doing things now that I never thought I had an interest in or an aptitude for previously. For instance, I've recently started learning a bit of technical computer stuff from Draco. I do this partly because I find I enjoy it, but also because I know he likes to see me improving myself.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not doing it only because it makes him happy. I really do enjoy ripping my computer apart and sticking my fingers inside and seeing what makes it tick. But I also find myself returning to a little girl at times, seeking his approval above all else.
My question is this. Do any of you do this? Do you seem to be transferring the devotion that you felt as a to a parent/adult role model to a lover/significant other? Or am I alone in this? I sure hope not, because I'd hate to be odd or something!
I can remember wandering thru aisle after aisle of cars, looking at all the sparkling chrome and metallic paints. Thre shapes of the different cars, learning how to tell the difference between a "56 and a '57 chevy (tho I have long since forgotten).
I remember him telling me stories of his automobile antics when he was a teen during the 50's and 60's. And more than anything, I remember being thankful for each and every moment with him, just because he was there.
My dad was and still is one of the most important people in my life. The one who I wanted more than anything to impress and make happy, and the one who i dreaded disappointing. He never yelled, raised his hand, or lectured. It was simply the knowledge that I had done something he disapproved of that made me behave as a child and teen.
To this day, I find that I'm like that. I do things to make the people I love feel special and to gain their aproval. I find myself doing things now that I never thought I had an interest in or an aptitude for previously. For instance, I've recently started learning a bit of technical computer stuff from Draco. I do this partly because I find I enjoy it, but also because I know he likes to see me improving myself.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not doing it only because it makes him happy. I really do enjoy ripping my computer apart and sticking my fingers inside and seeing what makes it tick. But I also find myself returning to a little girl at times, seeking his approval above all else.
My question is this. Do any of you do this? Do you seem to be transferring the devotion that you felt as a to a parent/adult role model to a lover/significant other? Or am I alone in this? I sure hope not, because I'd hate to be odd or something!
