A near uncontrollable urge to choke somebody out

[Very_Bad_Man]

Does anybody besides me suffer from this malady?

Outwardly I am a very calm controlled man who smiles a lot and possess compassionate eyes. Peculating beneath this veneer of civilization lies a steaming cauldron of violence and dark thoughts. Sometimes when somebody I detest is talking to me I smile and give all the appropriate responses yet in my minds eye I am envisioning my hands around their throat and I gain comfort from the thought.

I know I am far to disciplined to act on the impulse yet I wonder if serial killers share the same thoughts.

Do any of you feel this compulsion towards any other Lit member or anybody in real life or should I seek help before I explode?

 

[CandiCame]

I have the other thought a lot- actually. I very rarely want to hurt people, but when I feel that animosity in the air- I really wish that they would just beat the shit out of me and have it over with. I tend to want to hurt myself more then others- I get to the point where I'm like, "Jesus fucking Christ, if I have to listen to this one second longer- I'm just gonna slit my throat."

I feel like we should not get together without a safe word.

I don't think that most folk get that wraped up in internet shit though- it's IRL you have to worry about. There are some fuckers out there that you're forced to interact with; like you work with them, that will drive you batshit insane if you let them.

It really sucks when it's people who do it for YEARS. That shit gets real old, real fast, and then socially, there's not a lot you can do about it. They come in and say something snarky, and I really want to just stand up and spread my arms and scream, "What the fuck is it? What the fuck is it? What the fuck did I do to you? You want a shot?"

But... life's not an action movie, so then everyone just stares at me, he makes some smart-ass comment, and walks away, leaving me standing there panting like a jackass. Fucking life.

 

[Destinys_Bitch]

Does anybody besides me suffer from this malady?

Outwardly I am a very calm controlled man who smiles a lot and possess compassionate eyes. Peculating beneath this veneer of civilization lies a steaming cauldron of violence and dark thoughts. Sometimes when somebody I detest is talking to me I smile and give all the appropriate responses yet in my minds eye I am envisioning my hands around their throat and I gain comfort from the thought.

I know I am far to disciplined to act on the impulse yet I wonder if serial killers share the same thoughts.

Do any of you feel this compulsion towards any other Lit member or anybody in real life or should I seek help before I explode?

I am certain serial killers would envision wrapping their hands around your throat, given the opportunity.

 

[CandiCame]

It'd be really hard to serial-kill by choking. It's really hard to kill one person by choking- but that's always the way I wanted to die.

 

[December]

It'd be really hard to serial-kill by choking. It's really hard to kill one person by choking- but that's always the way I wanted to die.

No more suicide posts for at least a week.

 

[Johnny_Ray_Wilson]

Does anybody besides me suffer from this malady?

Outwardly I am a very calm controlled man who smiles a lot and possess compassionate eyes. Peculating beneath this veneer of civilization lies a steaming cauldron of violence and dark thoughts. Sometimes when somebody I detest is talking to me I smile and give all the appropriate responses yet in my minds eye I am envisioning my hands around their throat and I gain comfort from the thought.

I know I am far to disciplined to act on the impulse yet I wonder if serial killers share the same thoughts.

Do any of you feel this compulsion towards any other Lit member or anybody in real life or should I seek help before I explode?

It depends. Are you recently divorced, away from your kids, lost your house, and living in a slumlords trailer park with a community bathroom? If so, then there is probable cause.

 

[CandiCame]

No more suicide posts for at least a week.

What about homicide?

 

[Very_Bad_Man]

It'd be really hard to serial-kill by choking. It's really hard to kill one person by choking- but that's always the way I wanted to die.

it takes about 10 seconds to choke somebody to unconsciousness


it takes about 3 minutes for death. i would probably speed up the process by beating their head on the floor

 

[Cade Is Here]

Does anybody besides me suffer from this malady?

Outwardly I am a very calm controlled man who smiles a lot and possess compassionate eyes. Peculating beneath this veneer of civilization lies a steaming cauldron of violence and dark thoughts. Sometimes when somebody I detest is talking to me I smile and give all the appropriate responses yet in my minds eye I am envisioning my hands around their throat and I gain comfort from the thought.

I know I am far to disciplined to act on the impulse yet I wonder if serial killers share the same thoughts.

Do any of you feel this compulsion towards any other Lit member or anybody in real life or should I seek help before I explode?

Hey Luke, how many names are you posting under now?

 

[CandiCame]

it takes about 10 seconds to choke somebody to unconsciousness


it takes about 3 minutes for death. i would probably speed up the process by beating their head on the floor

I think I've told you this before- but I think I'm in love. You speed it up though, you're gonna hit the occipital lobe- so not only are you gonna get the oxygen deprivation, you'll see stars. There's a way that you can do it- my ex perfected it- where you hit the jugular on both sides without cutting off the breathing to the body, just the blood to the brain- perfect that- and you would be the best fucking serial killer ever. Also, let me know- you know so I can get you a home address, schedule, and list of fears.

No one will miss me.

 

[Cade Is Here]

I think I've told you this before- but I think I'm in love. You speed it up though, you're gonna hit the occipital lobe- so not only are you gonna get the oxygen deprivation, you'll see stars. There's a way that you can do it- my ex perfected it- where you hit the jugular on both sides without cutting off the breathing to the body, just the blood to the brain- perfect that- and you would be the best fucking serial killer ever. Also, let me know- you know so I can get you a home address, schedule, and list of fears.

No one will miss me.

Hey Candi why are you bumping all of Lukes posts? They are best to let be...

 

[Johnny_Ray_Wilson]

it takes about 10 seconds to choke somebody to unconsciousness


it takes about 3 minutes for death. i would probably speed up the process by beating their head on the floor

Your last date was that bad?

 

[Hopeorless1]

Does anybody besides me suffer from this malady?

Outwardly I am a very calm controlled man who smiles a lot and possess compassionate eyes. Peculating beneath this veneer of civilization lies a steaming cauldron of violence and dark thoughts. Sometimes when somebody I detest is talking to me I smile and give all the appropriate responses yet in my minds eye I am envisioning my hands around their throat and I gain comfort from the thought.

I know I am far to disciplined to act on the impulse yet I wonder if serial killers share the same thoughts.

Do any of you feel this compulsion towards any other Lit member or anybody in real life or should I seek help before I explode?

If you honestly feel like you need help, get some!

However, YES!! I do feel this way! I tend to be a bit of a pushover in person; therefore, I understand passive agressiveness really well! Honestly, it's silly. But when you are situations that you cannot speak your mind, I.e. WORK, you sometimes have to keep your mouth shut and move on.....
That's when the anger starts to rise

 

[Colonel Hogan]

Does anybody besides me suffer from this malady?

Outwardly I am a very calm controlled man who smiles a lot and possess compassionate eyes. Peculating beneath this veneer of civilization lies a steaming cauldron of violence and dark thoughts. Sometimes when somebody I detest is talking to me I smile and give all the appropriate responses yet in my minds eye I am envisioning my hands around their throat and I gain comfort from the thought.

I know I am far to disciplined to act on the impulse yet I wonder if serial killers share the same thoughts.

Do any of you feel this compulsion towards any other Lit member or anybody in real life or should I seek help before I explode?

Oh, sure. To borrow a phrase from Haley Joel Osment, "I SEE DEAD PEOPLE" all the time, and they've almost always died at my hands.

But assuming your tendencies are not the result of the specific hard-wired stressors Johnny Ray has pointed, then we're left with the "dumb-as-dead-goldfish" shit that people do and say everyday.

For me it's the dumb shit people say. Episodic, isolated stupidity isn't so bad, but when people cling to it with cat claw tenacity and as the fundamental basis of an argument, I start thinking about putting an attorney and bail bondsman on speed dial.

So, if it is that, here is a link that may help. It was on the "Outside Looking In" thread that you did not post in. I found it very helpful.

5-logical-fallacies-that-make-you-wrong-more-than-you-think_p2.html

 

[CandiCame]

Hey Candi why are you bumping all of Lukes posts? They are best to let be...

Why? I like him. He has that hard-to-find combination of indestructibility and expendability that makes him the perfect ally. Plus, I love anyone who is willing to choke me until I pass out.

 

[Cade Is Here]

Why? I like him. He has that hard-to-find combination of indestructibility and expendability that makes him the perfect ally. Plus, I love anyone who is willing to choke me until I pass out.

You don't mind his alts and his trolling?

Just saying.

 

[Very_Bad_Man]

It depends. Are you recently divorced, away from your kids, lost your house, and living in a slumlords trailer park with a community bathroom? If so, then there is probable cause.

Divorced 13 years now but it was amicable and we are still very good friends. I would consider my life very good. I do envy guys who have "normal" lives, you know, wife, kids and all that goes with it. My career path has always been stressful. I never had these thoughts till I became a civilian.

This mornings meeting nearly sent me in orbit. Some dipshit has suggested something very stupid which I do not want to elaborate on. They did a round table discussion asking each our view. When they got to me I stated I wished to defer my opinion till further study. The dipshit told me to stop being coy and give him my assessment of his suggestion. He used a patronizing tone that set my teeth on edge. I responded, "Since you insist I think your idea has been formed by somebody who has never flown a plane and as such should stick to what they know". I thought the guy was going to shit and fall back in it he was so pissed. He then called me insolent. I just smiled and shrugged but I really wanted to jump across the table and stab him in the ear with my pen. After the meeting my boss called me in his office and told me while he finds me amusing I need to be more diplomatic. I just smiled and gave an acquiescent bow.

I really despise the need for diplomacy.

 

[Very_Bad_Man]

You don't mind his alts and his trolling?

Just saying.

you want my cock so bad

fag

 

[Quoll]

Oh, sure. To borrow a phrase from Haley Joel Osment, "I SEE DEAD PEOPLE" all the time, and they've almost always died at my hands.

But assuming your tendencies are not the result of the specific hard-wired stressors Johnny Ray has pointed, then we're left with the "dumb-as-dead-goldfish" shit that people do and say everyday.

For me it's the dumb shit people say. Episodic, isolated stupidity isn't so bad, but when people cling to it with cat claw tenacity and as the fundamental basis of an argument, I start thinking about putting an attorney and bail bondsman on speed dial.

So, if it is that, here is a link that may help. It was on the "Outside Looking In" thread that you did not post in. I found it very helpful.

5-logical-fallacies-that-make-you-wrong-more-than-you-think_p2.html

This, plus the very article I was going to post a few weeks ago, I didn't bother because I figured those it was intended for wouldn't believe any of it anyway.

 

[December]

What about homicide?

Alright, but only when it's dark out. Really brings out the atmosphere in a good homicide post.

 

[Freija]

Alright, but only when it's dark out. Really brings out the atmosphere in a good homicide post.

Sorry, can't talk - I'm busy sweating some onions and garlic for a nice human osso bucco that I'm going to serve with a 97 Barolo.

 

[off2bed]

Does anybody besides me suffer from this malady?

Outwardly I am a very calm controlled man who smiles a lot and possess compassionate eyes. Peculating beneath this veneer of civilization lies a steaming cauldron of violence and dark thoughts. Sometimes when somebody I detest is talking to me I smile and give all the appropriate responses yet in my minds eye I am envisioning my hands around their throat and I gain comfort from the thought.

I know I am far to disciplined to act on the impulse yet I wonder if serial killers share the same thoughts.

Do any of you feel this compulsion towards any other Lit member or anybody in real life or should I seek help before I explode?

Nope, you are mentally ill and need professional help. This is not normal.

 

[richard_daily]

Does anybody besides me suffer from this malady?

Outwardly I am a very calm controlled man who smiles a lot and possess compassionate eyes. Peculating beneath this veneer of civilization lies a steaming cauldron of violence and dark thoughts. Sometimes when somebody I detest is talking to me I smile and give all the appropriate responses yet in my minds eye I am envisioning my hands around their throat and I gain comfort from the thought.

I know I am far to disciplined to act on the impulse yet I wonder if serial killers share the same thoughts.

Do any of you feel this compulsion towards any other Lit member or anybody in real life or should I seek help before I explode?

Sounds like PTSD.

 

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[CandiCame]

That clown you quoted has no fucking clue on that subject.

Believe me, bitch, there are a number of subjects I know nothing of-

But the intricacies of choking for fun, profit, cohersian, stress relief, what-have-you are not one of them.