A Matter of Compassion

[cgraven]

A private thread for Sweet4U and C G Raven

Donald McGill sat in his office as the phone rang bringing him out of his work for the moment. It was a welcome disturbance; the life of a college professor was quite different than that of a Hospital Corpsman & Physicians Assistant he had known in the service. Now retired he had taken a position as an instructor in gross anatomy at a small college.

“Carol my dear what can I do for you?.... It must be what four years now sense I last heard from you….. Base Boston wasn’t it……yes I remember it and you very well…… Ok I’ll shut up and listen.”

Carol went on to tell him of her friend Julie and of the special request she had.

“So you want me to interview her and then mentor her into the life. You know I have not been evolved here locally and I just started a new position here at the college…. Ok yes they are excuses but you know how hard it is these days with all the want to bee’s and all the misconception out there on the net……..Oh thanks so I’m just the man to show her the real deal is it…..Very well have her meet me at my house, 117 Charlestown Rd, 7PM sharp….. Thanks dear same to you………Take care.”

So there it was a new protégé to educate. Carol had not told me much about her friend other than that she was interested in finding a mentor. Well we would see. Over half the referrals never showed for the 1st meeting.

The day seemed to drag as Donald McGill went about his duties, then dinner, and now setting there reading, he wondered what Julie’s reaction would be when they met, if she even showed . He mused not the typical popular image. No hulking figure in black leather, no a rather mild look man, in good shape, early 50’s, male pattern baldness, and a ginger fringe like a monk and sliver 18th century glasses.

Ideally looking at my watch the time was 6:50 PM.

 

[Sweetp4u]

Julie

I was a little nervous. Carol had told me where to seek the one who could show me what I wished to learn. Carol only spoke of a few things, but it caught my interest. In my 28 years on this earth I never imagined I would be doing something like this. But I was a journalist, and I wanted to know everything about anything that caught my attention.

Carol had called me at 5 on the dot as promised. She gave me the address and told me to meet this man at 7 at his house. She gave me no more than that to go on. I felt a little lost and a little frightened but very excited to try something new. There was deep seed down inside me that just wanted to know all there was to know about the physical and mental pleasures in the world.

So here I was standing on the sidewalk looking up at the modern nice and tasteful home of the would be assistant. I guess that was what you would call someone who would show you every aspect of sub life. In my world I was strong, controlled, careful and thought everything out. For once I did not wish control, I wished for something else. Carol promised me this would be something I would live with the rest of my life. That once I cross this threshhold I would never turn back. Because there was just something about Carol's way of life and the gleam in her eyes that told me what she said was true.

I glanced down at the paper. His first name was Donald, thats all she gave me. I was curious as to why though? But I trusted her with my life, it was now or never.

I walked up to the dark oak door and pressed the doorbell just once. Stepping back I waited for the mysterious man to open the door.

 

[cgraven]

6:59 and the bell rang not bad if it is her I thought to myself. Laying my book a side on the “Seven Years War” I answered the door to find an attractive woman in her late twenties standing there. She was dressed conservatively and very professional, a cool air of self confidence about her.

“Julie I presume” as I offered her my hand.

No not the black leather clad figure, but a man dressed in kaki slacks, blue CPO shirt and moccasins greeted her.

“Your Carol’s friend?... do come in my dear.”

I led my new protégé into the study. It was a man’s study, an over stuffed chair and reading light in the corner, my roll top desk, the walls lined with book shelves and mementoes of my days in service, A picture of Carol, when she was an Ensign and me as a Chief on board Base Boston..

I took a seat in the lealer chair, and looked Julie up and down .

Shall we get started?

I meant to shock her to see her reaction as I left her standing in the middle of the room.

 

[Sweetp4u]

Julie

The last person I thought would open that door was professor McGill. College professor. She seen him from afar while attending a class at the local college.

I took his offered and hand gave him a gentle hand shake. "Yes, I am Julie. Carol gave me your name, Professor McGill." I smiled warmly and walked inside with him.

I was still a nervous wreck, but not going to let it show. He escorted me to the den and sat down. I watched as he gave me the once over and met my eyes once again.

Was he trying to scare me? I knew what he saw, what everyone saw when they looked at me. Average, everyday american girl. Well woman. Five nine, brown hair not to long not to short, and hazel eyes. A child like face, as I never seemed to age. He was silent a moment, then asked if we should get started?

Get started? Well alright. Since he didn't offer me a seat, I will just seat myself I guess. As I thought I walked over to a chair and then paused, "Do you mind if I sit before we start?" I cocked my brow at him, not the sassy attitude I usually gave but questioning. I had nooooo freaking Idea what I was doing, but hey I was still here.

Though I wore flat sandals my feet still ached a little from walking and pacing (which I seemed to do all night..). The short sleeved blouse I wore was light and airy, thank god I was begining to sweat. He looked like such a mild mannered man, quiet, intelligent, and he was a dom.?? I was begining to think the views and ideas people told me were a little false. But I was hoping they were. There is just something, I dont know, but violence was never my thing.

He was studying her, she could feel it. Was he looking for flaws? Was he looking to see if she lost her temper? Or blushed? What? I sat back in the chair, studying him holding his eyes.. Waiting.

 

[cgraven]

“Julie I am not what you expected am I?” I watched as she had taken her seat. “A bit scared of the pain and all?.......Well Julie that is one extreme of the scale….So let me tell you a few things and maybe clear up some miss conception………. I am a Dom Exercising the most influence or control; governing the sub……..Julie you will be my Sub - to yield or surrender (yourself) to my will or authority………..This has noting to do with Masochism or Sadomasochism……..but you will be in bondage by this I mean, A state of subjection to a force, power or influence…….. Is this clear my dear?”


I watch Julie very carefully for the slightest reaction to my words.

“Julie the biggest misconception is that the sub is powerless and the Dom is all powerful. This is not the case at all but the Dom and the sub have equal power. Mine is over ever aspect of your sexual life, but only that. The rest of your life you live as you have lived before. Your power comes from the fact that you willingly submit, yet you are free to leave at any time. Oh there is much more Julie but that is enough for right now.”

Again I pause to study her reactions, perhaps a hint of wonder or disappointment.

“No for a little exercise. You will stand up. And walk over here…. No barefooted Julie………… Very good now you will completely disrobe. And when finished stand there facing me with your hands bye your side.”

I new I was pushing her but better to find out now how really interested Julie was.

 

[Sweetp4u]

Julie

"I see.." It made sense to me and a small part of me was relieved there was no violence in this act. After all in her mind sex was pleasure not pain. I still felt a little weary, but then again he was only getting straight to the point. At least he wasnt buttering her up with falseness and he wasn't giving ground either. Its either stand and deliver, or walk out a coward.

I stood up on shakey legs and he told me barefoot. Glancing down at my sandals, I kicked them off. No he wasnt some greek god, but I was no raving beauty myself. It wasn't the physical that attracted me, it was the mental.

Everything with me was mental. It was how a writer worked best. I was in school for an LPN but I was a writer at heart. I moved towards the desk, my eyes holding his. No shame in this, No degradation. A simple command. If I was to learn what I really wanted to learn, I had to comply.

It was easier than I thought as I stood there beside him slowly peeling off my clothes. I untucked my blouse and removed it. Next I took off my slacks and let them fall to the floor. Stepping out of them, I unhooked my bra and last my panties were pushed down. I rose to stand at my full height watching him for his reaction. I felt a blush creep into my features. Self doubt setting in and rearing its ugly head. I was not perfect, I was no penthouse centerfold. Would that matter? then i stiffened my spine and smiled instead of letting those nagging thoughts wound me like nothing else could.

 

[cgraven]

I watched Julie’s movements no hesitation no “You want me to do what?” just a good strong commitment to what she had come here to do. As Julie stood there naked her hands at her sides there was a moment of questioning or doubt, not at what she was doing ,…..but something else.

Julie’s body was delightful to behold. Well portioned in balanced; quite lovely. I was sure those she did not see it that way. I genuine smile lit my face.

“Julie I am very pleased with you… and you are quite attractive. Your body also please me.”

I speak to her honestly, openly, my eyes are kind, as my words are simple, direct and honest.

“Now Julie come kneel before me. You have pleased me well so far. I have something for you”

 

[Sweetp4u]

Julie

His comliments gave me a slight shiver and brought a smile to my face. Just a soft small smile, but it was there. I still feel a little different doing as I was bidden. Being new to this I kept feeling the urge to balk and forget it, but inside I wanted this more so now than ever.

Normal relationships weren't working for me. I was not an agressive woman, but I wasn't shy either. This so far seemed to be where I was meant to be. I moved towards him, kneeling on the floor, wondering what would happen next.

Inside questions rang in my ears, should I be still? Silent? Say something? Should I meet his eyes always or glance down. The submissive I learned of was the typical tv information. I knew nothing for a fact and Carol did not devulge any information to me either.

Here I was kneeling before a stranger wearing nothing, and Inside my heart was pounding, my palms sweating and my body tingling with a new awareness I hadn't felt before. it was erotic in a way I never thought it would be. He had done nothing more than ask me to strip and to kneel, yet it felt like he had actually touched me.

I glanced up and held his gaze from my position at his feet. Tons of questions in my eyes, but would not verbally ask them. Were there rules? I should ask shouldnt I? perhaps once he was done with instructing me. I glanced at my hands nervously twisting in my lap and instantly put them at my sides.

 

[cgraven]

Julie came to me as bidden, Lord how I wanted to take her right then and there, but that was not what she need at this moment.. It was not my needs that must be cared for but hers. She was mine know to care for, protect, and educate. My hand slowly reached out and stroked her silken tresses, the back of my hand caressed her cheek.

“Julie you do please me so, your beauty is a delight to my eye..”

I held out to her a black velvet choker.

“Julie If you accept this it is a sign that you agree to be submissive to my will, I in turn will care for your needs and desires……I know you have a thousand questions ….all will be answered in time……..But know this Julie if you disobey me, if you hesitate at carrying out any instruction I give you ......you will be punished……You may ask three questions now and I will answer them……..Chose will dear."

 

[Sweetp4u]

Julie

My first thought was to balk at the arrangement. Do everything he asked of me? Everything? Could I do that? I felt certain I could and with a determined look I glanced up at him again agreed.

I nodded my head, "I accept.." He fastened the collar on my neck and I glanced up to meet his eyes.
So many questions? How do I pick just three?

"ok.. I wish to know..." I thought and thought a little more.

1. How do i adress you?

2. What is punishment normally?

3. Is there a safe word to halt?

I asked quietly and waited patiently for his answers. His hand had stroked down my hair as he spoke to me earlier and had remained there. It was hard to think when his touch was gentle, unlike I thought it would be.

I still felt vulnerable, it was different but appealing at the same time. It only hieghtened my erotic feelings. I knew he wasn't going to use force to bend me, but patience and a firm hand. His eyes were kind, wisdom showing in their depths. I smiled up at him as he complimented me for pleasing him. I had passed the test, I felt a little more relief with the news. It felt good to please him, and it was a strange thought considering i did not know him more than just today's meeting. But none the less I was content I made him happy.

 

[cgraven]

Julie acceptance was well considered as she did not leap at the offer nor did she bock. Her answer was simple and direct

"I accept."

My smile broadened at that simple honest response and I bent forward placing the chocker around her delicate neck, and then came her three questions. This would tell me how quick, agile, and analytical her mind was.


Her 1st question; How do I address you? You may call me Raven, Wolf, or Sir.

The 2nd question; What is punishment normally? The harsh punishment physical would be a spanking. At this point by hand only. There may be assignments for you to carry out you may not be allowed to see or speak to me for a fixed period. It can take many forms. But it will fit the offence.


Julie’s final question; Is there a safe word to halt? Yes most diffently Julie it will be of your choosing, as it is you who consents to be submissive. As I said you will be free to leave at any time.


Julie had pleased me beyond my wildest hopes


“Now what shall I call You Julie, what pet name would you like for your new life?”

As I waited for her answer I told Julie how pleased I was with her performance, her beauty and her mind that of all the questions she could have asked she had chosen probably the three best.

 

[Sweetp4u]

Julie

I felt a blush creep to my face as he complimented me once again. I loved his answers. Honest, to the point and eased all my fears. Nothing terrible would happen.
"Pet name? I did not think of one, I am not sure what would fit me? For a safe word, One I dont use often, I would like "carrot". simple and not commonly a word used in everyday speaking. Would you help me with a pet name? I've never had one to even begin to guess.."
I rested my weight back on my heels, content not to move for now. He did not bid me to do anything, so I would sit and wait until the session was over or he gave me instructions.
I was not sure If I was allowed to touch him whenever I wanted to, I would remember to ask that one next time i am given the opportunity to ask him.
Smiling, I kept thinking of a pet name for him to use.

 

[cgraven]

'Hmmm Julie I shall have to think about that for a minute or two. It should be something that really fit s your personality Dera.now come sit by my feet and I shall tell you a bit more.



As your teacher, and Dom I must be wise and, above all, right. The Dom should not arbitrarily punish the sub on a whim. There must be a reason. To do otherwise will break down the trust and security of the sub. The Dom has to be respected by the sub. Respect is a quality that is earned by the Dom being right, and issuing swift, correct justice and reward to the sub. The Dom is not there to inflict pain and degradation n the sub, but to give the sub a goal and a direction on how to love and please
As the lover, the Dom is loving and, when appropriate, stern. He must recognize that he is the only source of pleasure for the sub. He must see to it that this area is not neglected. The Dom should, when appropriate, be gentle, supportive, and tender to the sub. A Dom/sub relationship is not just about overpowering. It is about the Dom caring for the well-being of the sub. If punishment is required to stop a destructive action by the sub, then it comes from the Dom. On the other hand, when correct action has been noted by the Dom, love and caring should come from him to the sub.


Julie as a student, you the sub learns how to please the Dom, and when done, expects to be rewarded by the Dom. Likewise, when not done or done incorrectly, the sub expects to be corrected and shown the right way to act

As a lover, the sub goes out of their way to please the Dom because they genuinely care for the well being of the Dom. The sub does this, not out of fear of pain or retribution, but because they wants to give the Dom pleasure. The sub does not want the Dom to be disappointed with them. The sub takes pleasure from the fact that the Dom is pleased
As a student, the sub learns how to please the Dom, and when done, expects to be rewarded by the Dom. Likewise, when not done or done incorrectly, the sub expects to be corrected and shown the right way to act.
As a lover, the sub goes out of their way to please the Dom because they genuinely care for the well being of the Dom. The sub does this, not out of fear of pain or retribution, but because they wants to give the Dom pleasure. The sub does not want the Dom to be disappointed with them. The sub takes pleasure from the fact that the Dom is pleased.


Julie although it may seem through outward appearances that all the power in the relationship flows from the Dom or Master to the sub or slave, this is somewhat misleading. The players in a D/s relationship, no matter which side they are on, are equals to a certain degree. Both sides have power, but in different ways. The Dom may have ultimate authority, but the sub is the one who initiates most actions.

Doms and subs are the 1st and most basic phases of the journey you are starting on Julie. Masters and slave are another area that we will explore later if you wish dear.

All the while as I instructed my new protégé my hands ideal roamed Julie's upper body, gently teasing and exciting her, tender wishful touches, and caresses.

"Julie in reality it is a matter of compassion one for the other."

 

[Sweetp4u]

Julie

I listened to his words intently, wanting to miss nothing he said. Everything he spoke of made sense to me. Logical, and to the point. He didn't mince words with me, He told me exactly like it was. Compassion I had plenty of. I had not been shown much in my short life, And I was more than eager to learn, to share and to give all the pent up feelings I never was able to express with anyone who would not push me away.
"I understand it better, thank you Sir." It was the one thing I did recall he said to use. My body tingled here and there where ever his warm soft touch was felt. I felt butterflies in my stomach, but it wasn't nervousness, it was attraction. I met and held his gaze, still keeping a firm control on myself as I again waited for whatever he would require.
"If I may ask one more question? I know you said three but this I feel is important." I halted and again waited.
"I like the nick name Cara.."

 

[cgraven]

“Cara… Then Cara it shall be…… You will be Cara & as you have chosen then I shall be Sir.”

Cupping Cara’s face in my hands I brush her lips with a tender kiss ,then my tongue caresses her lower lip. Slowly I pull away as are lips desperately cling to each other unwilling to part. But part they must. My feelings and needs for this beauty are growing but never on the 1st session. Time must test and measure her commitment, I hope that Cara will not be found wanting.

“Dearest Cara I fear our time is almost up for this 1st session. I would please me to watch you dress, do no put on your underwear I wish for you to remain naked beneath your street clothes………… You will not call me for another session for a week, this is so you may think of what I have said this night………You must be sure that this is a journey you really want to start………..Carol left you some reading material to help you better understand the life. You may ask her questions now. But again only three…….. Now during this next week you will wear only skirts and blouses.,….no panties, no bras….. Do you understand.?”

I wait for Cara’s answer.

“Remember only here do we use Cara & Sir…….. You may dress for me now.”

 

[Sweetp4u]

Julie

I was a little shaken but still in control over myself. Until he kissed me. A little shocked by the contact, it wasn't an unpleasant feeling. In fact was quite the opposit. I did not want to pull back as he did, but follow. I opened my eyes and flushed a little, not embarassment, but from the heat spreading.

I listened to his instructions and nodded my head once in agreement. I rose from the floor and moved back to my clothes. Bending over, giving him the view of my backside, I picked up my pants. Slipping them up over my hips I then retrieved my shirt and turned to face him as I did so. Slowly I pulled my clothing on, this time watching him as he watched me.

Once dressed I placed my underwear and my bra inside my pants pockets. I kept repeating in my mind, Only here. No where else. I had a week to think about it and make sure it was what I wanted. I could ask Carol three questions, but only three. I would do best to wait for something very important before asking those three.

"Yes, Sir." I smiled and slipped on my shoes. "Skirts and blouses and nothing under it. I will do as bidden. Am I dismissed now Sir?" I asked, standing in place my heart still pounding furiously in my chest. I longed to go home and take care of the ache building inside of me. Some how I thought perhaps that was not allowed? It would not hurt to wait and see.

 

[cgraven]

Cara was an apt and willing student. A woman of strength and determination. Already yearning and leaning towards the fuller Master / slave re4lationship. But this neophyte was just taking her 1st tentative steps. She had accepted the velvet choker, a sign of submission but I had not collared her as she was not ready.

I smiled and gave a little laugh as I embraced Cara and gave her a deep soul searching kiss. Leaning back with smiling eyes;

“Yes you may go and it would greatly please me if you did not take off your chocker.”


I walked Julie to the front door and gave her one last hug and kiss.

“Yes you can pleasure yourself when you get home; but I would prefer it, if you did not. I wish to be the one to fulfill your needs from now own………….You may call me on Thursday evening at 8PM. Now off with you…..I’ll be expecting your call then if you are still interested.

 

[Sweetp4u]

Julie

I bid him farewell until Thursday and once again gave him a sweet kiss good bye. I had to stop and wonder if he could read my mind? I had not spoken aloud when I thought about the masturbation. And yet he had answered me. I think I had the hang of it as I walked down the sidewalk and climbed into my car. Give and take relationship, simple pleasure given and taught how to give. I smiled as i started my car and drove back to the apartment I lived in.
I had a few classes tomorrow and then the weekend was here. It gave me plenty of time to read and relax. And to be certain of this. But I couldn't have been more certain if my life depended on it. I still felt the tingling down deep from his touch and his sweet kiss. Amazed me a little that I reacted to him this way, it was something in knowing what he was and who I was to him.
Walking upstairs, I picked up the heavy envelope outside my door and walked in.
Inside was note from Carol.

Dearest Julie,

Inside here is all you need to know and learn from the written word of the new life you have chosen to partake in. Now do not think this is all, for your master will show you much more than these things could show or tell you. Wish you the best my dear and If you need me call on me. But only if important. Trust in your own heart and trust in who I sent you to.
love, Carol

I smiled down at the written note and pulled out a few articles clipped from various magazines and a few pamphlets. The choker did not bother me, it was a soft velvet. I would wear this always until he bid me to remove it.
Turning in for the night, my mind was on many things and strangely at peace at the same time. I did not pleasure myself that night, I wanted to anticipation to build to something memorable.

 

[cgraven]

‘’I went to the phone and dialed the number that was now ingrained in my mind.

“”Carol You where right she does have the desire Kitten……….But, I know no tears right……….. Kid you know I’ll take care as I always have……..But,……..Ok as you need I’ll take care of them as always.”


Hanging up the phone a tear trickled down the side of my face I held the picture of Carol in her dress whites.

“God girl you are something special.”


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The rest of the week flew bye and it was Thursday evening 7:45 pm, 7:50 pm,7:55pm. The clock ticking away the seconds and minutes.

 

[Sweetp4u]

Julie

The week went by surprisingly fast, and though no one knew it I enjoyed wearing the skirts and blouses with nothing underneath. Twice I had seen the professor walking to and from his classroom, but never approached him. I stayed seated and studying as if I did not know who he was. I never really even knew if he noticed me or not. I read everything Carol had given me several times in fact, and stored as much of the knowledge as I could between college classes and home work. I went to work I ate and slept and did everything as I always had. But the excitment was building of my next session with Sir.

By 7pm I was ready. Dressed in a white floral dress, nothing underneath and my velvet choker in place. I picked up the phone at one minute to 8pm and dialed his number.

"Sir? It is I, Cara." I waited to see if he wished me to come over or not? "Is tonight a good time for you?"

 

[cgraven]

At 8pm on the dot the phone rang.

"Sir? It is I, Cara." ………"Is tonight a good time for you?"

“Cara do you have the weekend off?”….If so pack a bag and I’ll give you and address toi meet me at for the weekend.”

 

[Sweetp4u]

Julie

"Actually yes i do, I have the weekend off. Where should I meet you Sir?"

My heart hammered in my chest, this was going wonderfully already. I felt the desire already creep over me. Just to see his smile again would be enough.

 

[cgraven]

The day on Friday dragged by. The students in class where distracted ass they where every Friday TGIF fever rampant.

It took me 2 hours to get to my cabin. Nothing fancy wide pine board floors, Kitchen, dining room and living room all running together in an open floor plan and a center post field stone fire place open on both sides. Master bedroom and bath off the back Guess room and bath up stairs. All the rooms where oversized for greater comfort.

I changed into a pair of faded jeans an a dark blue CPO shirt and laid a fire on the hearth. The oil lamps where lit. as there was no electricity, propane ran the water heater stove and frig.

 

[Sweetp4u]

Julie

(i am assuming I am to meet you there cg.)

I had finally gotten all my home work done for monday, my boss knew I would be out of town and my car packed with just some clothes and the needed essentials for the weekend.
I hopped in my car and followed the directions he gave to me on where to meet him.
As I climbed the mountain and pulled into the dirt driveway I was amazed at how peaceful it was up here. i stopped my car infront of the log cabin and climbed out. Here goes nothing. The weekend was theirs, and she smiled brightly. This was the perfect place to be alone. She glanced around noticing, no power lines and no phone lines. Heaven.

 

[cgraven]

It is just a little before 8pm when I hear a car coming up the drive. There she is Julie soon to take up her role as Cara, standing there a half smile on her face as she takes in the cabin and its view. She is dressed in a skirt and blouse and this please me and my heart stirs at the mere sight of her form.

Coming down the steps, I give her a hug and tender kiss.

“Julie I see you found your way all right, come in and I’ll show you the rest of the place.”

I gave her the quick cooks tour, showed her to the guess room.

“Julie freshen up and make yourself comfortable I shall be down stairs in the living room when you are ready.”

I left her alone for the moment and went down to my old leather chair to await her.